Daily Thought.

 

Dyscalculia.

Check this out: the real authentic Cadbury Easter Creme Egg  on the left and the cheap knock-off version on the right. Don't they look the same, except one comes wrapped in foil(inside the box) and the other in a plastic egg? Other than that though at quick glance they look the same; the same colours and design, on purpose no doubt so you'd think the knock-off was the real Cadbury one and grab it in a hurry not really noticing. I also came across last night what I finally think has a name for my life-long struggle with math and numbers and my perception problem, at long last as well:

Dyscalculia.

It's a bona fide learning disability sort of like Dyslexia only with numbers, spatial perception, pattern recognition, following maps and directions, being able to calculate math in your head(I still can't do and still count on my fingers or need a calculator and up until now I thought was just normal and everyone did) can't figure out how to calculate tips, etc. always struggled with math(which has always been the bane of my existance) incl. multiplying and dividing and I can't do fractions for the life of me no matter HOW hard I try or how long I'd study ,and , esp. word problems(I could never figure out what they're even asking or how I'm supposed to figure it out; do I multiply, divide, or what), etc. and all this time I just thought(and was told) that I was dumb, and kept failing math.....even though I excelled at all the other school subjects....

now I know why.

Now it finally has a name.

So I'm NOT "stupid" afterall.

More like retarded.

So how come I don't feel "better" now?

I also heard at least 50 American doctors are seriously looking to move here due to the Orange Shitgibbon(and I can't believe he's already caused so much damage in such a short time, in a mere couple of months!) which is good for us though with our doctor shortage, and there's also this massive demonstration all across the USA as well protesting him and hopefully soon him and Musk will be removed from office, esp. now the Americans are finally getting it that tariffs affect them too and are making everything more expensive, and in Gaza the IDF also killed UN humanitarian workers and secretly buried them but the mass grave was discovered and they tried to cover it up and say they never knew who they were and then that they never had their emergency vehicle lights on, etc. but a later video that resurfaced disputed that. How come no one ever holds Israel to account for their genocide and war crimes? They're like the new  modern-day Nazis. I also noticed as well that all summer Taylor Swift was everywhere too and you couldn't get away from her and now it's like all of a sudden she just vanished and you don't see or hear from her anymore(and I'm glad) and it's just sort of weird. I think she was a psy-Op all along.

This is also my fave. shopping bag I use for groceries or Wal-Mart etc, the one with the pineapples on it and for some reason the photo came out side-ways only I don't know how to fix it and turn it the right way (sorry) so you're just going to have to turn your head sideways. I'm sad to well to hear one of my friends from the old church her hubby( just in his early 60's) she's been married to for 40 years has dementia now and they don't know "how long he has left" and I remember the oldest was friends with her boys as teens and now they're all grown up and married with kids of their own. The 28 YR old and his fiance also put an offer in on a house and he recently sold his other one and still no date for the wedding yet, unless, of course there actually is they just didn't tell me (which is more likely) not wanting me to come, and my hubby hurt his shoulder playing pickleball again, and we also still have the Christmas table cloth on the dining room table from Christmas 2 years ago,too! HA! We're just so lazy!

I go through long periods of my life, sometimes decades, with only memories to fall back on.-Bella Freeman

 

Today's Pondering.

 

The Banker VS The Wanker.

Yesterday Buddy and I were out most of the day and I also noticed the underside of the pad on one of his front paws is still swollen and raw and it was bleeding now as well and my face got really sunburned again,too! My abdomenal pain is also sooo bad it even hurts every time I cough now as well and when I sit down the pain "vibrates"  down to my ass! I also made up a joke with PM Carney VS Trump:

The Banker VS The Wanker.😂

My hubby also told me something sad about pickleball: they have less time on the court now as well as they got disciplined as a bunch of assholes in their advanced class were being mean  to the beginners and bullying them which is just really and truly pathetic; these are grown men in their 50's and 60's acting like schoolyard bullies and proof that bullies never really grow up and this certainly doesn't restore my faith in humanity, either. The 23 YR old is also in Italy now, in Milano, and funny,too: last night I was talking about arming the security system and my hubby somehow thought I was talking about doing IT! HA!

I also noticed how truly old my hands look now,too, all wrinkly, crepe-y, saggy, and age-spots but sadly hands are the one thing you just can't fix and you can always tell someone's age by looking at, and yesterday I think I found another Angel Bird as well; a half red half black cardinal( split right down the side; I've never seen anything like it) and it looked just like a regular cardinal and even had the tuft of feathers at the crown and sang exactly like a cardinal too except it was half black, and it perched an arm's length away from me in front of me on the veranda railing and sang me a song I'd like to think might be my soul friend that recently died coming back to visit me, and I also saw 6 ravens sitting in a tree right across from me later on as well I wonder is an omen of some sort? As I was smoking mi ganja a truck also went by with its window open and 2 guys stuck their heads out and saw me and laughed, I bet smelling the weed and wondering who it was from and then seeing an old lady toking up on her veranda wasn't exactly what they were expecting and it made them laugh and a boy also walked by smoking a joint and Buddy recognized the smell and he perked up and sniffed the air, like saying, Hey, I recognize that smell only it wasn't me that time!

I don't know if you can see it clearly or not but there's alot of damage on the next-door neighbour's tree from the ice storm last weekend  , broken branches just laying precariously in the tree, and some places like Peterborough and Orillia still have no power and the schools were closed for a week  and some towns were devastated. I still remember the ice storm 27 YRS ago when we lived in Ottawa and had no power for a week too and had to go to a motel and the stress of it was so bad I'm pretty sure that's what caused( or at least contributed to) me going into premature labour with the 27 YR old 5 weeks early,too. My left leg is still twice as big and twice as swollen as my right leg and it makes me wonder if it's lymphedema or maybe even blood clots or something?

I also like this dress, and baby Andreas( the 9 month old who fell down the stairs) is actually improving and at first he was on 100% oxygen and they had to even remove part of his skull to allow for the brain swelling but now he's breathing on his own and off the ventilator  and even almost ready to be transferred out of the PICU and onto the regular ward. God is good and hears prayers and miracles do happen, and there was also a sad story too of a woman who tried for 13 YRS for a baby and finally got prego thru IVF.....only to die 2 minutes after birth( the baby survived) from an amniotic fluid embolism.

She never even got to hold her baby.😭

Life can just be so unfair, and it's also so unexpected,unpredictable, and so random.

The thing with my depression is I don't even know I'm happy at the time as I can't recognize happiness when I see it (as it's so rare)and only realize years later looking back at certain times that I actually was happy but didn't know it.

 

Weekend Words.

Trump!

Mine and my dog's.

The story of my life.

That's me, esp. with opera.

JC was one popular dude!

Better: sock water, used bath water, or toilet water!

...and Reggae and Blues.

The music I listened to in highschool is now "Classic Rock?"

My kids had this!

My Buddy is 92!

In my life, there's been heartache and pain I don't know if I can face it again Can't stop now, I've travelled so far To change this lonely life.-Foreigner