Running With Scissors.(Formerly HippoRastaPotamus)

The 31 YR old got his hair cut yesterday...

but I've also had enough.

This morning I noticed he had taken the rest of my allergy meds(without even asking, of course!) so I had none left, as always just taking whatever he wants....and then when I stormed up to his room to confront him I was shocked and angered(even more!) to find he wasn't alone; his GF was up in bed with him, even though he KNOWS how I feel about having girls stay the night( our house isn't a bordello) and then he claims he "didn't know" even though we've been thru this with all the girls he's brought home, and I'm just soooo sick and tired of his shit; the same problems when he lives here before and exactly why I didn't want him back and I told him I want him OUT.

My hubby doesn't see the "big deal" (I never get any support)but he doesn't(and hasn't ever) respected me or the rules of my home and he shouldn't be taking stuff that doesn't belong to him or fornicate in my house. If he's here he should be respectful and obey my rules.

It's that simple.

I just can't take any more of this or of his shit. He finally moved out and I won't put up with this again. It's just like it was before and I won't tolerate it.

This is MY house.

I won't have him ruin the rest of my summer.

If he can't behave I don't want him staying here.

I also asked him if he could try cutting Beja's nails to see if he'd have better luck with it but he refused and when I said since he's staying here can't he at least help out he said it was "manipulation." I think he's just afraid if he did it that Beja will be mad at him,too, and won't like him anymore. His excuse was he just didn't WANT to.

I hardly even saw Beja all day yesterday,either; he was always with him and even when both of us were sitting in the living room he just sat with him the entire time, ignoring me and oddly when my hubby came in he didn't kick him out of his recliner chair like he always does with anyone else( he just sat on the floor) making me wonder if he might "have" something on him...

I've also basically been a recluse since Buddy died last April and have only left the house 4 times or so and I just don't want to go anywhere or do anything and I'll even have to force myself to go to the CNE (The "Ex") in 2 weeks and the AC/DC concert next month even though I really want to go and I just exist now, not live, and I hope each day is the day I die and am finally set free and there's nothing worth living for anymore now,either, I don't even really have Beja, and my only hope is that each day brings me one day closer to the day I die. I also saw The Man With The Black Dogs yesterday and he said he went to the Rush concert the other night and I remember seeing them 11 years ago but it doesn't seem that long, it just feels like a couple of years ago, and this morning as we were waking up Beja kept licking/kissing my face and I wonder if he had any idea how much I really needed that?

The 31 YR old also said he can move into his dorm now if he wants but it was his choice to hang around here instead to be closer to his GF so I'm suffering with him being here when I don't even actually have to which makes it even worse and unnecessary and he said his GFs siblings seem autistic(sounds like our family), making me wonder if she might be as well, and he also probably is,too, although he strongly denies it because he thinks autistic equals retard even though there are worse things you can be than a retard, such as a racist.

I also like about his GF that she's a "real" girl, natural, and not phony like most women are today. She doesn't have make up plastered on, or the fake lashes, fake nails, fake boobs, veneers,etc. and she doesn't even wear make up or dye her hair. She's like the proverbial Girl Next Door. Yesterday was funny,too: my hubby left for pickleball and I said to the 31 YR old, "Watch this: he'll forget something and be back. let's see how long until he returns...."

and within just a few short seconds he was back.

I saw him quickly grab something( he didn't let me see what it was) I think either his keys or his wallet and his excuse was he didn't forget but his "hands were full."

yeah.....riiiiiight.

I am no longer where I started, I am now what you call departed.