Wordless Wednesday.

 

Musing For The Day.

 

Say Whaaat?

OK, so as it turns out my hubby isn't leaving for BC tomorrow afterall, but on Friday, so now I have to re-do my menu; I was going to cook Chicken Kiev tomorrow for the youngest & I(that my hubby doesn't like) with my hubby not here and now I have to switch and do the souvlaki instead. I knew he was leaving on the 19th( which is also child #9's 25th birthday) only I thought the 19th was on Thursday. I guess it works out better this way though as Toronto( where the airport is) is supposed to have a thunderstorm tomorrow. 18 June is also the first day I went to the YMCA group in Ottawa decades ago and the first event was horseback riding and it was there that for the first time in my life I fit in and belonged and made amazing friends and found my "tribe" and was able to blossom and come out of my shell and actually be accepted and liked, dare I even say popular,  for who I am, autistic, bipolar, and all as we were all  "misfits" in one way or another.

The 28 YR old is also going to Vancouver for a week at the same time to visit my hubby and 3 of the girls(He's one of the Edmonton Boys) and the 27 YR old is now in Newfoundland for a week for work as well which she loves and even hopes to move to the East Coast one day.

Yesterday 2 CF-18 fighter jets also loudly went screaming by overhead our yard and poor Beja just looked at me like Say whaaat? What the hell was THAT?  he was so confused and I can just imagine how loud it must have been for him, and I have a very obvious ethnic surname but not a common one but the other day my hubby was surprised to hear it was a character's name in a show he was watching and it was just shocking and hilarious and he was like ,Did I just hear what I thought I heard? and the cord blood bank also called( we'd banked the youngest's umbilical cord blood 19 YRS ago in case child # 7 needed it when he was battling leukemia) asking if we still want it banked and said it lasts for 30 years and can be used for any family member fighting cancer so we told them to just send us the info package and we'll decided as it costs 175$ a year.

What if suicide is the only way to be free.-GentlyScar

 

Larf For Today.

 

Roach Motel.

I call this my Roach Motel.

It's where I stub out my used doobies. In the former planter. It's more fire-safe and it also messes with the squirrels. I also heard Stairway To Heaven  again yesterday and checked my hubby's itinerary and he actually goes to Vancouver first and then not to Calgary until the next week and it's over a 5 HR flight but it's funny with the 3 HR time difference even though he leaves at 8 am here he arrives at 10:30 am their time, seeming like it's only been 2 1/2 hours! HA!  Like a time warp.If you cross the International Date Line sometimes you can even lose an entire day and I can still remember the time I was away(I think it was in Egypt) and I e-mailed my hubby to wish child #8 a Happy Birthday and she was confused and said to him, "But my birthday isn't until tomorrow!" and he had to explain to her that where I was that it was already tomorrow. Of course he's not even started packing yet,either.

Paint me like one of your French girls.

Here is Beja all ready for his Playgirl photo shoot, ha,ha, just letting it all hang out.

He loves laying like this, and it's just sooooo funny.

Yesterday I also had to do my most-dreaded chore: cutting his nails and even after over a YR he's still impossible and the worst dog I've ever had trying to do it and he squirms, bites me, goes wild,and keeps trying to escape and it's such a nightmare  and it's like trying to wrestle with a dwarf grizzly bear.

Yesterday and today it was also sooooo cold in the morning it was 9C when I woke up and only got to a high of 16C yesterday and not much sun and mostly cloudy and windy so we even had to bundle up and snuggle underneath blankets when we sat outside but today supposed to get up to a nicer 24C and yesterday I also took a nice still-warm blanket out of the dryer and wrapped it around myself and it was just the BEST feeling ever and felt like a big warm hug and like sitting out in the sun.

This is also little tiny baby black walnut fruits starting to grow on the tree and I can't believe it's already the middle of June and it's summer in just a few days and the schools are out in 2 weeks and I heard NYC won some stupid redneck sporting event and to celebrate they rioted and looted in the street and vandalized and trashed it(I'd hate to think what they'd do if they lost!!) and set fires to cars,etc. whereas Japanese fans at the World Cup were seen cleaning up the stands after the game so that they wouldn't leave any garbage or  mess behind.

2 totally different cultures.

Deep down, I'm just a child wanting to become someone's favorite person.-rcccccs

 

Tuesday Thoughts.

Sometimes I sit here and just cry cause life was never supposed to be like this.-Xqiuzx

When your dog dies, the world freezes. It's a gut punch to your system.

I truly believe there is no pain in this world quite like losing your dog.-Kristina Bolten

I want to die soon and escape from myself to find some relief.-iatinihs123

Just one more year.

Behind many suicides is a person who spent too long feeling unheard unloved or emotionally exhausted.-LuvXcuses

I never thought I'd die alone I laughed the loudest who'd have known I trace the cord back to the wall No wonder it was never plugged in at all I took my time I hurried up The choice was mine I didn't think enough I'm too depressed to go on You'll be sorry when I'm gone-.Blink182

Suicide is often the result of pain that stayed silent for too long.-LuvXcuses

idk I just personally think that getting chills from music is the best part of being alive. like when a song is so good you can feel it in your whole body. that's why I'm here.-Remx

Take me to the higher place I gotta run to a higher state 'Cause nowhere else to go, light the way Pack it up and roll, I'm on my way.-Skip Marley

Sail your ship across the water Spread your wings across the sky Take the time to see you're the one who holds the key Or sailing ships will pass you by.-Whitesnake

All I ever did was try to protect the kids & keep them safe from danger & bad influences but I eventually ended up losing them to the world ,anyway.

Thought I was getting arthritis, but the doctor says it's early onset rigor mortis.-Bob Golen

The light has gone out of my life.-Carino

Twitter: the place where you will never be the weirdest one.-Nikki

I hate myself so much I'm genuinely such a miserable unlikeable person.-Angel

Dear atheist, What if, after you die, you find out that God is real all along? You lose.-Tokyo

Do you ever think about going somewhere where nobody knows you and starting a new life?-Mr.Mike

School genuinely makes people suicidal.-Sien

The love we didn’t get doesn’t make us unlovable.-Clinton

I don't think I'm healing. I think I'm just learning how to carry pain without spilling it. Everyone calls it strength, but really, it's just silence , I laugh, I smile, I show up but inside, half of me is already gone.-Asma

Everyone shut up I just learned a new word: Eremition (eh-ruh-mish-un) The act of gradually fading from the lives of others, not out of malice, but a desire for solitude or renewal.-Mistress Dividend

Do u ever see ur reflection and go uh how could anyone love me?- Fluttershy