Daily Thought.

 

F*ck You,Too.

My passport expires in 6 months so I can re-new it anytime and I need 2 references so I messaged my BFF on Facebook  over a week ago to see if I could use her as a reference but I still haven't heard back so I tried my friend J from Ottawa( who I have known some 38 years) and he replied back right away and said no problem and gave me the info I needed ( his home & work address and phone)....but then when I asked my friend W(also from the Ottawa YMCA group and also  even the Godfather to some of my kids!) he said NO..."I don't want to be a reference for your passport."

I couldn't believe it.

I replied in stunned shock, WTF? Really? Why?

(I mean it's no effort, really, and he doesn't have to DO anything other than verify he knows me in case they call him) and besides, isn't that what friends are for?

 and he replied back sharply, Enough said. Goodbye.

Seriously, Dude? What the actual f*ck?

F*ck you,too!

What an asshole!

I wonder what that was all about?

It just goes to show that people that you know for years, for decades, people that you think are friends, people that you think you know really aren't who you thought they were.

People are just soooo disappointing and now I have to find someone else for my second reference and have no idea who to ask. So what do I do if I can't find my second reference?

Why is everything always so hard for me all the time?

I also saw the new Michael Jackson biopic movie Michael  which was good and I liked ( did you know his actual nephew played the part of him?) and his father was a colossal prick! Some people just suck. My friend K (who moved from California to North Carolina last year and when she visited us thought it was cool that everything was also in French) is now in Barcelona on a trip and I remember when I was there how they had orange trees in the street like how we have Maple trees and they had this cool church that looked like it was made out of melted wax, and I now have the baaaad indigestion daily( often 2-3 times a day) so I guess this is just my life now and I can add it to my loooong list of medical maladies and my stomach & abdomenal pain is still really baaaaad as well.

Yesterday I also felt so cold all day I kept shivering and couldn't get warm no matter what I did so I hope I'm not coming down with something and it was also -4C overnight and FROST (yes, in May!) but BC is getting a heatwave with temps in the 30C range, and we're just getting up to 8C and rain all next week( yuck!) and I cut Beja's nails yesterday and he was the worst yet even though it's been over a year he still isn't getting any better and he kept squirming and trying to bite me and I "missed" and cut too deep and he kept bleeding and even my hubby got mad and said,"Do we get rid of him now?" and I was horrified he'd say something like that (even though I was really mad) and also suggested chloroform which actually sounded like a pretty good idea. It reminds me of my mother telling a story of her father when he was a boy of "testing" chloroform on his family dog but using too much and it died. 

Oooops.

I have also always defined myself as a homeschooling mother but now the kids are grown up and gone I don't know how to define myself  or who I am anymore or what my purpose is in life now.

The autistic experience is being the only person in the room who noticed the contradiction and the only one who got in trouble for saying something.-Libriscent

 

Today's Pondering.

 

Weekend Words.

If you want to die this badly, you shouldn't have been born in the first place.-olfy37

The hardest thing about depression is that it is addictive. it begins to feel uncomfortable not to be depressed. you feel guilty for feeling happy.-Ari

A priest does not need permission from the government to enter his own church.-Jack Pobosiec

...and a hole,too!

The road is long without friend.-Whitesnake

I should actually do that now...

Chihuahua legs! 😂😂

This is the kind of low-lifes we're dealing with!

Well, duh!

The70s and 80s were the best!

My oldest turns 37 this year.

Holy f*ck!!

Be the guardian of my soul.-Whitesnake

Sometimes, transformation isn’t about a single moment… It’s about the thousands of small steps taken to get there.-MrPitbull

What is it called when you’re not suicidal but just really tired of being alive?-Sorengaill