Tuesday, June 23, 2026

Daily Pondering.


 

Nosey Parker.

Here is Beja being a nosey parker as usual, ha, ha. Yesterday I also felt cold all day and had the chills and of course with MY "luck" when I was having my nap was when my passport was delivered with my mail but you have to sign for it and I was asleep and didn't hear the door(but I do remember Beja barking like crazy and woke me up) but I wasn't expecting it until July so they left a notice on the door I have to go down to the post office to pick it up.....but of course my hubby doesn't get back until later next Wednesday(it's too far for me to walk)....that's not for 8 more days, but luckily they said they hold it for 15 days.
Whew!
Doesn't that just figure though?
At least the good is it means it got processed ok, and maybe it was earlier than normal because it was just a re-newal and not a first timer?
I just hope that they don't ask for ID when I pick it up because my passport IS my gov't issue photo ID and it's in the package I'm going to pick up.

Now a collection agency  also called and left a message on the machine for my mother about her loans, levelling up and this is getting scary now; what if they come after her estate to collect her debts, and that would be MY house(I inherited from her) and it's NOT fair or right that *I* have to pay off her  debts that should have died with  her and I'm NOT  going to be forced to sell my home and move.
I'm going to die here.
I also didn't make a will because it costs so much it would wipe out my entire savings account and besides, my family is just sooo eager to sell the house once I die and make $$$ off me and erase every memory of me and are eager to be rid of me so why should I make it easy for them?

I also saw this old photo of Buddy from 10 years ago and he looks even extra long (I loved that about him)here and fierce too but he wasn't. He was a big sweetheart; he was just yawning. He was my soulmate, soul dog, and the best friend I ever had and the best thing in my life and to ever happen to me and I will always miss and love him forever.
 More than I ever loved anyone.
. For the past couple of days my lower left jaw also hurts and has a bump on it but I have no idea why and even wonder if maybe while I was asleep Beja jumped over me and he either bumped into my face or scratched it with his nails as he went sailing past?

This is also my Rasta Pasta I made with the shell pasta and grated Parmesan cheese sprinkled on top and I heard it's common here in North America for people to dip their pizza in Ranch dressing and I've never heard of that before and wonder if it's actually a real thing? I like pizza and I like Ranch....just NOT together. My friend V(from grade 6 and I named my oldest girl after) is also now an American citizen(so now she has dual-citizenship) as she moved to Arizona to be with family(her parents and some of her 9 siblings were born in USA) and I found this strange winter hat in the laundry basket(shown below) I assume must belong to one of the boys but am puzzled as I have no idea who Spencer Rice even is(or why he's apparantly a shit eating f*ckhead)  and will have to Google it and just 2 more days left of school for the local kids now and I can almost feel the excitement in the air and I can still remember too how excited I was as a kid the last week of school and how 2 months of summer seemed endless and felt like total freedom.

The other night we also got the most beautiful spectacular brilliant pink sunset and then again brilliant pink sunrise the next morning , a blessing from God and proving that the best things in life really are free,and I figure my self-imposed exile of staying inside my house and not inflicting myself upon society is an act of charity and a public service.
You're welcome.

Why do people who want to live end up dying, while people who want to die keep on living?-YamiYami318

 

Monday, June 22, 2026

Today's Thought.


 

Monday Memes.

 Have you seen my most recent post last night's  Fatter's Day?





Does anybody else feel like you are living just waiting to die?-Marie














My hubby's first photo.


Me staying in my house not inflicting myself upon society is actually an act of charity & a public service.



That uncle who kept his distance from the rest of the family will start making more sense to you as you get older.-DearSelf


I'm not smart, I'm not pretty, I'm not funny, I'm not good at talking, this is terrible.-Fae




I'm sorrry I don’t know why I'm like that either.-CavEmpty


No such thing as hate speech. Just free speech.-Edgar Foerster


My final act of love is to never bother you again.-Germano


Seems like children think growing up means becoming someone. They do not yet know that often it means explaining to yourself why you did not.-DC Chevsky


You're not overracting, if it hurts you.. it hurts you.-$


And I promise you, I will find you again in every life.-Yazmine Wall


Lord, I got to keep on moving Lord, I got to get on down Lord, I've got to keep on grooving Where I can't be found (Where I can't be found) Lord, they're coming after me.-Bob Marley


Wherever you go, there you are.-EDWConcepts






















I just found rust.







Telling someone who’s struggling w/suicidal ideation due to depression that they’re going to hell if they proceed isn’t helpful. The majority of the time it does more harm than good. They’re already living in hell. In their mind, the release from the pain would be like heaven.-MJM


I think my life will end in suicide I'm not quite sure when, maybe it won't, but all roads seem to lead me there.-Arusoi


I'm not suicidal but I have already lost all my will to live, I'm just existing now.-Jacky


I'm so high, I even touch the sky Above the falling rain I feel so good in my neighbourhood, so Here I come again.-Bob Marley


Most days I wake up just wanting to die But I still try.-Ozzy Osbourne





Fuck your wars, fuck your pandemics and fuck your vaccines. Blow it out your ass.-GovtExeIsCorrupt


And what a lot of people dont realise about weird people is that they often had a traumatic experience or a rough childhood that made them weird.-Cyberiont


Our childhood photos may be ugly, but our smiles weren't fake.-Tasha



I need spoilers for my future to know if in the end I'm happy, because if not, I'll kill myself right now.-Usuario















My advice to Canadians is to stop watching hockey and start looking after your Country.-Terry John Kerr



Every time I think about my future I just start crying cus I dont wanna do anything like this is all so pointless.-Angel

How are you supposed to heal from trauma when traumatic things keep happening to you.-Ice



Somewhere, somehow, they are still together… still attached.-FeelGoodTales


Today I cried because I want to go back home but I don't know what my home is.-Luu






I wouldn't have to go through this if I hadn't killed myself at 13.-Amora




pls dont ask what my hobbies are I lost interest in life by 6th grade.-Amora



I envy people who succeed in committing suicide.-Milk


Daily Pondering.