Daily Pondering.

 

Glorious Pizza.

Last night I had another El Cruncho from Taco Time (shown here) the beef one this time and I also found this amazing Indian-owned pizza place that has the Butter Chicken pizza I was looking for.....and not only that but also a whole bunch of other yummy exotic pizzas I know I'll love and have to eventually try such as donair pizza, Tandoori chicken pizza, Pesto chicken pizza, Burratini pizza, Mediterranean pizza, Paneer Tikka pizza, etc. I have the menu below but there's more that was too long to be copied. 

I can't wait!

Now I actually have something to look forward to.

It's not cheap but we all have to pay for the important things in life.

I also have to order more weed because I only have something like 6 doobies left.

I heard as well Dunkin Donuts is coming back to the Shithole after having left some 20 some years ago and I LOVE them; unlike yucky Tim Hortons who has little variety and shitty donuts Dunkin has a good selection(incl,. those yummy chocolate and coconut coated donuts!) and not shitty ones like Tim Hortons.

I still have the baaaad stomach & abdomenal pain and really baaaad back pain that goes with it and I'm sure it's NOT normal and the pain's so bad it affects my sleep and I just want to scream and today is also Chihuahua Appreciation Day but I appreciate my Chihuahua every day, not just today and one of the radio DJs said "They're the worst dogs on the planet!" and the other said his daughter has one and added, "I can't believe how something so loud can come out of something so small!!" HA!

 I think with Chihuahuas you either love 'em or hate 'em.

I love 'em.

As much as I love dogs and my own dog and Buddy was the best friend I ever had and my soulmate I still don't get why so many people bring their dogs( other than legit service dogs) with them everywhere they go; shopping, to the grocery, to stores, the mall, restaurants, etc. they're NOT kids; you can leave them home alone for a few hours.

I also don't get how those flaky New Age folks don't believe in God yet somehow think that "magical" crystals can "heal" them.😂

I also came across this photo of Buddy and it made my heart smile.

I still miss him so much and I always will and I can't wait until we're reunited again on the Other Side, hopefully soon.

As much as I wished Beja could love me like he loves my hubby and the 31 YR old I also realize at the same time as much as I DO love him that I'll still never love him(or anyone) like I loved Buddy,either, so I guess it all "balances" out.

I also saw this of this guy on a bus in Brazil who looks amazingly like Michael Jackson( below) and it really makes me wonder if maybe he even faked his death.

I mean, look at that nose

and those eyebrows

and that chin...

I've spent most of my life not wanting to live.-srvrdmn

 

Wordless Wednesday.

 

Today's Larf.

 

Detached.

Ugh.

I always feel so sick( esp. the past couple of days) I just feel so detached from life.

yesterday my headache was sooooo baaad I thought my head would explode and assumed my BP must be high causing the killer headache but it was actually low( esp. for me) : 114/65( normal is 120/80) so it wasn't that and today my stomach & abdomenal pain is soooo bad it feels like I'm being kicked by a horse. I'm just soooo tired of always hurting all the time and always feeling so bad. This morning I had a nice soothing lavender Epsom salt bath to help ease my aching stiff sore bod but it's only temporary. 

I just always feel so ick.

I also have this really gross taste in my mouth for the past few days and soooooo dizzy and yesterday I felt like I was going to pass out all day.

Beja and I got to have a nice day outside yesterday at least( the fresh air and sun helps) but today it's pouring  rain and dark(like night time) and it makes me feel even more fatigued and lethargic.

It feels like I'm fading away and I think I'm dying and I hope I am.

Statistically I'm most likely to die this month because most people in our family die in May...

Here is Beja hunting squirrels. He's so cute as well when he wants me to follow him to play he'll nip at my bottom pant leg and bite it and tug on it and pull me along to follow him where he wants me to go. The other day I was also looking at the sunrise from the 31 YR old's old room and as I was there I also noticed he has a few plants in his window that are almost dead as he's been gone since January and they have been forgotten and abandoned and not watered so i felt sorry for them and gave them a drink and hope maybe I can 'revive" them. It's also a long holiday weekend coming up and on Monday it's supposed to go up to a balmy 23C!

Yay!

I also saw this Sanford & Son  from the TV show I used to watch in the 70's.

The 70s and 80s had the BEST TV shows, esp. sitcoms and the 70s had alot of Black-themed shows as well, incl. my fave. show as a kid What's Happening!! I also got a photo of the leaves on our vines(shown below) and this week our garbage was only half-full and my hubby didn't want to put it out paying for just half a bag but I also wasn't going to keep rotting garbage with chicken bones in the kitchen for 2 weeks either so I just took some of the recycling(they were complaining about earlier) and put it in the garbage to fill it up and this week we only put out 3 recycling bins so we'll see if they all get picked up this week...

Do u ever see ur reflection and go uh how could anyone love me?-Fluttershy

 

Wednesday Words.

You ever get to a point where you stop talking about what’s hurting you because you already know the response won’t make you feel any less alone.-Detach

One of my kids actually did this! 😂

The struggle was real.

When you realize you've never been put first most of your life, you're just the person who fills the void in people's lives until they don't need you anymore.-Josh

Are u supposed to naturally be a good person or is it something you have to do manually?-Christover

Deep down I'm a child wanting to become someone's favorite person.-rcccccs

“People have beautiful things to say about you, but you must die first.” — Fyodor Dostoevsky