Daily Musing.

 

Miss You.

Yesterday I tried to cut Beja's nails again but only managed to get 2 of them done as he kept struggling and wiggling and squirming and trying to bite me, despite my hubby helping and us using the grooming sling.It makes me feel so hurt, so betrayed, so angry. I'm just trying to take care  of him and help him( just like with the kids!) and it was so long it was even interfering with his walking and he kept biting it.

It's times like this that I really miss Buddy even more. He would just lay there in my lap and let me cut his nails and I'd get them all done in 5 minutes. He didn't like  it but he'd sit still and let me do it, knowing he got a "cookie" at the end, and none of my dogs ever gave me trouble for their nails like Beja does and it's just not the same and I'll never  have another dog or another friend ever again like I had in Buddy.

Despite everything I still finding myself missing my mother at times as well because we did used to get along well before I had kids and I miss those times and she WAS such a big part of my life and she was always there....

and then she wasn't.

I also saw this pretty collar and sweater( shown above and below) online I'd like to get for Beja even though I know it's "girly" and "gay" since he's a boy but I'm a girl and I like it and he won't even know the difference,anyway, and this morning I saw a dead, mangled , skinned  chipmunk on our back porch, and I wonder if it was that same injured one I've seen twice lately? Maybe a raccoon got it overnight? All I can say is that a furless, skinless chipmunk  looks red, thinner, and longer than it normally does otherwise.

and also ick.

I wonder as well why they refer to it as "skilled trades",too, as opposed to what, exactly, unskilled  trades?

Rise up this morning, Smile with the rising sun, Three little birds pitch by my doorstep Singin’ sweet songs Of melodies pure and true, Singin’, ‘This is my message to you.’ Singin’ don’t worry About a thing ’Cos ev’ry little thing ‘Sgonna be alright.-Bob Marley

 

Larf For Today.

 

Fading.

Yesterday my hubby picked me up this nice pumpkin bread scented candle.

I'm starting my pumpkin spice season.

But it's bittersweet as it also means summer is ending.

It feels like everything is fading.

My tan is fading.

The sun is fading.

Late sunsets are fading.

Summer is fading.

Our outdoors time is fading.

Fading.

Fading away.

Just like me.

I also saw Beja chasing after that poor battle-scarred chipmunk I saw several days ago I thought would have been dead by now and then a horrible thought occurred as well: I hope it wasn't him that mauled it like that in the first place!  I've had several Chihuahuas in my life and they've never had such a strong prey drive before; only Buddy did but he was a Dachshund; a hunting dog with the instinct for prey but it's unusual for a Chihuahua.

Maybe he's just a bully?

I still have that splitting, blinding, massive headache that feels like my head's going to explode, like the top's going to blow off, like a volcano, and my BP was 150/100, which is high, but I've had much worse, over 200 before.Imagine how much worse it would be if I wasn't on meds?

Yesterday something odd also happened: as I was walking Beja I saw my hubby drive by our house wearing his orange shirt and it was clearly him....only he was supposed to be playing pickleball at the time and when I mentioned it he insisted he was and that I must be "imagining" things but I know what I saw....

so what happened?

My guess is maybe he was "sneaking" around and got caught.

Maybe he was at pickleball initially but then went after to see his mistress( he didn't come home until 2 hours after I saw him drive by and was gone 4 hours in total) but when he got "busted" ( he assumed I was in the backyard) had to deny it and he's always "gaslighting" me and trying to make me doubt my sanity, so.....

Instead of trying to change his wife, he changed the environment.

 

Sunday Stuff.

I knew (and remembered) there WAS a cornucopia with the Fruit Of The Loom  logo.

I wasn't imagining it and it wasn't the "Mandela Effect."

You don't know how it feels to be me.-Tom Petty

 

Pondering For The Day.

 

Cover Up.

It's getting cold now ( 9C in the morning and 21C later on) you can really feel that summer is ending and fall is coming and so now when we sit outside we have to cover up and bundle up under blankets. I also notice the sun doesn't last too long on the back porch now anymore so we don't get as much sun now, mostly just fresh air. 

It's quite sad really.

Our outside days are numbered.

It's probably my last summer anyway.

Yesterday I had that throbbing headache all day too and today I still have it. My BP is also high so in case today is The Day my final last words are

F*ck Trump!

and 

goodbye cruel world.

I'm sad the AC/DC concert was cancelled. They said I'll get my money back (132$) but what really gets me is that was likely my only time to see them as it's most likely that either myself or one or more of them will be dead by the next time they'd be by this area so this was probably my only and last chance. I also think my biggest accomplishment in life was when 2 of my enemies became 2 of my friends and the only classes in school I hated were math and gym. I LOVED swim( we had swim for half the year and gym for the other half; when the girls had swim the boys had gym and vice-versa) but I *HATED* gym and it was the only class that I ever skipped.

Yesterday I also had sharp pains on the right side of my chest and saw this stupid TV commercial where a polar bear had 2 bags of groceries but they were all fruits & veggies when we all know polar bears are carnivores and eat fish, seals, penguins,etc. and his groceries would just be all meat, so it's just unrealistic, and I saw online a question asked "What do you think about sex on a first date?" and only a couple of people said it meant you were "easy" and a "slut" like I said but most said things like "It's a good date" "Getting lucky" "A fun time" "Getting to know eachother", etc. It just goes to show how degenerate and immoral society has become and how much we desperately need  Jesus to return now.

We took it on the chin The numbers were so grim Bossed around by pricks Stiffen upper lips Pacing in the yard You're trying to take the mick You must think I'm really thick.-Mick Jagger