Musing For The Day.

 

The Light In The Darkness.

Beja was the light in the darkness after Buddy died.

After the 31 YR old moved out I was also finally able to bond with him without him here always "stealing" him away from me but I worry once he temporarily moves back again in-between dorms if  it's all going to be "undone" and I'll end up losing him again. Yesterday I also put him back inside the house for a "Time-Out" again for excessive barking outside and the little snitch actually told on me to my hubby! 

My dog is a fink!

The 31 YR old also met his GF's parents and I guess it went well as he even stayed overnight Saturday night and apparantly they're really rich,too, just like his ex-GF from California was, who had a gardener and housekeeper, only these ones not only have an outdoor pool and a Jacuzzi but an indoor pool as well so that's a whole other level of rich and they own an accounting company. The first thing I thought of hearing they're rich is at least if they end up getting married the bride's parents can afford to pay for the wedding.I just hope that he actually likes her for her and isn't just using her for her $$$ though.

My Angel Bird also came by yesterday for another visit( shown here beside the chair and below on the fence next to the chair) and I was finally able to catch a photo so you don't think I'm imagining it, and he's actually much brighter red in real life than in the photo,and this morning at 1 am  I was woken by a baaaad burning pain deep in the middle of my chest(I still have) only this time it wasn't indigestion as I never had a snack last night since lately every time I eat I feel sick so I haven't really been eating. I also still have the baaaad abdomenal and back pain.

 Maybe this is finally The Big One?

I also read online that this guy can shove 10 hotdogs up his ass....uh....ok, and saw this commercial on TV I thought was a woman watering her cannabis plants but when I looked closer realized they were actually just tomato plants,ha,ha, and and another commercial for one of those cooking shows and they had the worst dinner for me ever with fish, Brussels Sprouts and berries!

The 3 things I hate most.

Yuck!

The only thing I'd even be able to eat are the roasted potatoes.

I was also out in the backyard yesterday and the neighbours next door were having a BBQ and I heard the woman say to the guy, "I hope you're all right..." and then heard a kid reply, "Daddy has a really bad hangover..."

HA!

Typical rednecks.

I'd pick weed over that any day.

I just can't see why anyone would ever want  to feel that way; a bad headache and barfing their guts out. I mean, why?

How is that fun or enjoyable in any way?

Sunflowers also make me happy and if I die at least I have them for my funeral.

I got the new McDonald's drink the mango/pineapple and it had these little "beads" like in Bubble tea that look like fish eyes or fish eggs that are fun to pop like blisters and had a burst of sour. It was soooooo good.

Here are some of the beads that got left behind I just had fun popping in my mouth. The idiots gave me one of those annoying paper straws as well that got all soggy and wet and went limp and flat.

Double stupid,too: they gave me a paper straw but plastic cup and lid.

Duuuuh.

These are also our vines, and I was thinking about my Babushka, who lived to be 93 and died over 20 years ago. She was a woman ahead of her time, she could not only knit, crochet,and sew, but she also laid down carpet, made curtains and bedspreads,  and built her back porch. Growing up with 5 brothers made her very handy. She was also good at math, could play piano, drove when women didn't, and even had a job; she was a buyer for Eatons  and even had a few pages in the catalog, and was in the Army in WWII; both her and Dedushka worked in Intelligence in WWII and worked in the same office where they met.

 She was one amazing lady.

I am so sick of this life right now there is no joy no happiness just complete grief.-Kim Culver

 

Laugh For Today.

My hubby does this and it drives me crazy!!

 

Nosey Barker.

I got more sunflowers yesterday! I esp. love these ones just starting to open up. My hubby said he thought they were dying....so then the question is if he thought they were dying  then why did he get those ones? Beja also got a "Time-Out" yesterday because he wouldn't stop barking at the dog next door thru the fence so I put him back inside for awhile and he's always looking thru the fence being a Nosey Parker and barking so now he's a Nosey Barker! I also wonder when the 31 YR old moves back next month in-between dorms if he'll still remember him(although he IS his favourite though) since he's been gone for a year? My cough was also so bad yesterday I even barfed; I could feel it coming and had to quickly lean over the fence and puke so I wouldn't do it on the porch and for the past few days my right eye's also been really swollen and itchy and even Benadryl  doesn't do it. I'd actually rather have pain than itch as the itch just drives me crazy! When I first woke up yesterday I also thought it was Friday! 

My hubby also asked me if I've ever seen an all-white Chihuahua before....and here I am in 1982 at age 15 with some of my Chihuahuas so there's your answer. Yesterday the Paul McCartney song Coming Up also played on my device and it made me smile; my BFF and I loved that song when we were 13 and I can still fondly remember us turning on the multicoloured light-up rotating Disco ball light and dancing to it all around my living room. I also came across an online question the other day "When was the last time you wore a Band shirt?" and for me just the day before I was wearing my Tom Petty shirt and the next day my Def Leppard one, and a question said to "Describe your best friend" so I said "He's small,furry, has4 legs and a tail and likes to lick his balls."  I also tried to re-do my gymnastics floor routine but just the graceful hand, arms, legs,and feet part; NOT the actual moves; I can't do that anymore, and it made me feel young again and like the Old Me, but I kept tipping over because I just don't have the balance anymore and that just made me feel old and sad.

I also got this photo of Buddy on my Facebook from 10 years ago and I still miss him sooooo much and I always will, and he was the greatest gift God gave me, and something odd as well: my hubby never called him by his name but just always called him Dog and it's the same thing now with Beja,too. I wonder why though? What's his problem? I can still remember the morning I took him to be cremated last year  as well and even though it was April it was cold, blustery and windy and we had flurries and it felt as cold as he was and I felt numb both inside and out. I can still remember after our fire 30 years ago as well how American Express denied my purchases saying I "Don't usually charge 30K a month on my card" and I was desperate and in tears and told them, "Our house doesn't usually burn down,either!" and I cancelled them right then and got another credit card.

I also saw these, bringing back happy childhood memories. They used to come in packs of tea my Babushka had and saved for me. I had a big bag full of them.Yesterday as I was sitting outside around 2 pm  I also clearly felt something pop!  in the middle of my abdomen on the right side. It didn't hurt but felt like the valve on an air mattress popping off or a slingshot snapping. It was just the strangest thing and then afterwards felt like a crampy colicky pain, like a "stitch" in your side but in the morning the pain was so bad it was white-hot and I could hardly even stand up and since then also no appetite and feel nauseated. I wonder what it was though? What exactly popped and did something maybe even rupture? Maybe it was "just" the inflamed infected sacs in my colon with my Diverticulitis?My back really hurt as well(it still does) on the right side in the middle, in the area of my liver and right kidney. I also felt like liquid coming out of my left ear my hubby says was "sap." Sap? What am I, a tree? Just as long as it's NOT CSF I'm good. I also had white powder all over my black T-shirt so if I died they'd probably think it was a coke overdose when actually it was just powdered sugar from my jelly donut! 😂

Fear followed every step of the journey.-Luisa Bauer

 

Sunday Stuff.

I don't know what happened to me, but I want my old me back.-AntiSocial

If I was a bird I know who I'd shit on.

I have a list.

The struggle was real.😂

"Trump is trying to break us so that America can own us. That will never, ever happen" -Canadian Prime Minister Mark Carney

Unlike your kids.

Nobody cares about your mental health until it erupts in anger then suddenly, you’re the villain in their story.-Laayylla

I doubt I’ll live long enough to be this sad about anything ever again.-Aoife

Don't be sad for me, we all come to this world to be tourists, enjoy life, go sightseeing, do good deeds, I just so happen to be leaving earlier than others..