Daily Musing.

 

Bejalita & Mamasita.

Here is my sweet little baby Beja. I can't believe I've had him almost a year already and almost a year since Buddy died. It took awhile to really connect and bond with him, esp. after losing Buddy who was my Heart- Dog & soulmate and then even worse when the 31 YR lived here and kept "stealing" him away from me but now I feel we finally have and now I really love him and feel we've bonded. It'll never be the same like it was with Buddy( what we had was special and I will always hold a special place in my heart for him) but I do love him with all my heart and I would be devastated if anything were to ever happen to him. He is the one thing in life that gets me up every day and keeps me going and gives me a reason to live. He needs me. Yesterday he also had something stuck on his leg and when I tried to yank it off he snapped at me.

 Buddy never would have done that. 

There's always been this "barrier" between us that I never had with Buddy(we trusted eachother implicitly) but I still love him.

Look! I don't think you can see it unless you "grow" the photos bigger but if you look carefully you can now finally see the garden gnome by the pool , the diving board, and part of the pool cover as much of the snow has melted( and at the front most  of the snow has melted away, likely where more sun hits) and below you can see the garden lights once again which were also completely buried underneath snow before. We're supposed to get a shitload  of rain today( and 11 C) 20-40 mm plus again tomorrow along with a flood risk(between all the rain and melting snow and run-off) plus also freezing rain tomorrow as well.

yeah.....welcome to almost-spring in Canada.

Yesterday it was 13 C (in Toronto the lucky buggers even got up to 19C!) and I even got to sit outside for a couple of hours( an hour in the morning and another hour in the afternoon) and feel the sun on my face which is the BEST feeling in the world; my official first time of the season, and warm again tomorrow and then dropping back down to a more seasonal -2C for the next days.

Ugh.

Iran also elected a new Supreme Leader, the son of the previous one that USA and Israel killed and now he'll have a target on his back and will have to lay low as they'll be trying to kill him,too, even though the gov't of a foreign country is NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS and yesterday we got a notice in the mail as well about not paying my mother's debt she still owes on the furnace saying if she doesn't pay up they'll resort to "further measures" so I guess my hubby hasn't been paying it and he scoffs "Good luck trying to sue a dead woman" but I just hope they don't come after me  as her heir (even though it's not fair that her debts are my responsibility) and sue  me to sell the house to get their $$$.

The house is all I have left and it's my home.

I feel like a burden to everyone around me.-Aiden

 

Tuesday Thoughts.

Hey so I’m sorry I get attached so easily I grew up never being liked by anyone.-Ebby

HA! That was me.

Only in America!

Just don't be an asshole.

I miss Tom Petty.

Do you ever feel like you just exist and don’t actually “matter” to people?-Nithra Shri

Do you ever feel physically sick because you know you're not good enough for anyone and can't do anything right, no matter how hard you try?-Anxiety

"We are legion"

The most rednecks I have ever seen anywhere!

I feel too ugly to be seen.-Amy

The European way.

Im tired. I'm tired of all the evil. I just want it to end. Lord God Almighty please just let it all end.-Preacher Seth

Nobody talks about the grief of realizing how much life you lost to survival mode.-LetsHealAndRecover

Has anyone else ever felt like they just never belonged or fit anywhere ? I have always felt like an outsider no matter what or where I am.-Raksha

People are a huge disappointment, that’s why I like spending a lot of my time alone.-Kye

Rodina.💗

Always.

Note to self: don't get attached.-Cookie

You forgot freezing rain.

I cannot wait to be freed from living in survival mode.-Lush Beauty