Wordless Wednesday.

 

Daily Pondering.

 

Orgasmic.

My chocolate-coated chewy caramels(my belated Mother's Day gift from my hubby) came yesterday ( shown here) and they are just divine.

Sublime.

Orgasmic.

Eating it was like looking into the Face of God.

There are only 12 of them so I just had 2 yesterday, one milk chocolate and one dark chocolate.

Oh, my god, they're just sooooooo good and worth the cost.

 It came by FedEx as well(I had no idea; I just clicked on the standard shipping  which cost 10$ and took 3 days from when I placed the online order but it didn't say which method it was; I just assumed it was mail) and it came all wrapped up fancy in the insulated silver-y bubble wrap shown below and with an ice pack which had melted to a cold squishy water pack when it arrived,shown below.

I got it from Purdys and I remember years ago my hubby gave me their Hedgehog  chocolates.

I was just in Heaven eating it and honestly I could have eaten them all at once( esp. after smoking weed) but I didn't, esp. not at that price, plus I also want to spread it out and make the joy last.

My "Little" Cousin also said her daughter's labour was 14 HRS long (and despite me having 11 kids  14 HRS was my shortest labour, with my youngest and he was induced, and she was surprised I always have such long complicated labours having so many kids) and she needed forceps as well and spent 3 HRS pushing, but the one thing that does come easy for me though was pushing; I only had to push 1 HR with my first and then after that just 2-3 pushes and I launched them out. LC herself said hers were relatively easy; just 6 HRS and 3 HRS long and just a couple of pushes as well. I was also able to successfully ressurrect the 31 YR old's dead plants he'd left abandoned in his bedroom window, a skill I've always had, a so-called "Green Thumb." It was also 26C yesterday and going up to 28C for the next few days but Edmonton was 9C!

I also loooove these shirts shown here and below and my hubby ordered shoes online but got the wrong size but it wasn't their fault but his; they didn't send him the wrong size but he for some reason ordered the wrong size so ended up with a size 9 instead of a size 10 so it's too small and he tried to mail it back to exchange but found out it( with tariffs because the doofus bought them from USA even though I thought we weren't doing  that anymore because of the Orange Shitgibbon and his tariffs!) would cost a fortune to ship it back so they said just to send them some $$$ and he can keep it and they'll send him out another pair so now he has to find a new home for the smaller ones, maybe it'll fit one of the kids? He also jeers my weed is my "Recreational hobby" when it's actually medicinal and is no different than my anti-depressants or BP medication, and,in fact, I even had my medical marijuana licence years before  marijuana was legal here.

Yesterday I also had this weird(but bad) headache that lasted for hours: it was  throbbing but just on one side of my head, the left side and then changed to a stabbing pain behind my left eye, making me wonder if it was maybe an aneurysm about to pop or something and I couldn't get rid of it until I took 4 headache pills and smoked a spliff. I was also dizzy and nauseated. Sitting out in the sun is also therapeutic and like medicine for me and I feel like a wilted plant that's been  perked up in the sunshine .

 I keep having recurring dreams as well of this same woman but she plays different roles; she has dark "spiral curl" curl hair with touches of grey and in some dreams she's my art teacher, in others she does arts & crafts, in another she sells quilts & and handknitted sweaters, in another works in a food kiosk in the subway station, etc but I get the impression she's someone I really love and am really close to and important to me so is she a relative, a close friend, or someone I have yet to meet or know from a previous life, or what? I wonder who she is and why she keeps showing up in my dreams in different roles?

I also wonder why no one on the Epstein List  has ever been arrested with their crimes, being Satanic pedophiles who rape, torture, sacrifice, kill, and even eat children, and I wonder as well with them doing such horrific things, incl. drinking adrenochrome and the blood of children and babies that they can't  be human and wonder what they actually really are; are they demons? Nephilim?reptilians? aliens? or what? It also makes me wonder if that's where the modern-day lore of vampires comes from, esp. since it's been going on for centuries......

I also saw this question posed online "What would you do if you were rich?" and I would  have a Lush  bath-bomb in my bath every day instead of just once a week and I'd travel 1-2 times a year like my cousin B does and the best thing would be I wouldn't have to worry about $$$ and if I wanted to buy something I just would and if the house needed repairs( like it so desperately does) I could just get it done without having to worry how much it costs or if I had the $$$. My hubby also says us having a pool is a "liability" selling the house,too, but I don't think necessarily; not if the buyer has kids like we did and wants and enjoys the pool, or if they buy the house to use as a B&B, esp. given we have 7 bedrooms. It all depends on who buys it and what they want it for. 

You just need the right buyer.

 Just like we were.

 It was on the market for 6 months and we were the only ones interested but it was just perfect for us.

Fuck how they view you. Be you.-FunnyMike

 

Today's Musing.

 

Last Of The Dozen.

Yesterday I drank the last of my 12 bottles of Jarritos  mango Mexican sodas. My hubby got them awhile ago on sale, such a great value they're likely clearing them out and I finished the last one off yesterday. I really loooove those things. I also heard Stairway To Heaven  and saw my Angel Bird again. That's 2 days in a row!

The 31 YR old also made the Dean's List, being either the 3rd or 4th(I forgot) of our kids to do so and my hubby said he got disqualified for 3 of his games at the chess tournament over the weekend as well and for stupid reasons: for one he ran out of time on the clock, another for an illegal move, and the other he forgot to turn off his phone (duuh!) and the kids kept calling him constantly back-to-back and being disruptive.

I swear, his stupid phone always gets him into soooo much trouble and he can never put it down and for some one so smart he can be really stupid! He also said Montreal got a shitload of rain and grumbled my belated Mother's Day gift was 40$ "just" for chocolates but I can still remember that time he  spent 100$ just on one dart.

I also got these cool photos of the clouds and sun yesterday  and one of my Facebook friends her daughter(age 27) was killed in a car accident and as if that wasn't bad enough her other daughter died 9 years ago as well due to medical issues. How come some people get all the horrible things happen to them over and over again( like her and us) and yet others just seem to coast thru life effortlessly? My "Little" Cousin( 9 years younger than me)  and I were also talking and she said when her daughter had her baby in early May she was born 8 weeks premature( like I had suspected, and explains the feeding tube) at just 32 weeks and weighed 4 pounds 14 oz(which is actually quite good ,almost 5 pounds, for so early, but she's also diabetic, and they tend to have large babies and had she gone full term likely weighed 11-12 pounds) and my poor cousins was really hemmoraging,just like I always do with all my births as well, making me wonder if there's some sort of bleeding disorder in our family, and the baby just came home from the NICU on Sunday, so I guess this must be the Bad Luck Thing that happened in our family this May then.

It's also Pride month and I saw online that even alot of regular gays  aren't into it and are even embarrassed by it as it makes them all look bad and I think it's mostly just the freaks, perverts and fetishists that really  celebrate it but the normal ones  that just happen to be gay  and just want to quietly live their lives and not publically display and flaunt their sexuality or make it their entire identity avoid it. Below is also the ridiculous address to mail my passport application, with no actual street address or number  and the passport costs 163$ now and with the 25$ photo it'll end up almost 200$, and I don't know why my hubby prefers I go down there to do it as opposed to mailing it reg'd since either way he still has to drive me either way and my final act of love is letting the kids go and setting them free and not interfering in their lives anymore.

 

The wrinkles around her eyes betrayed decades of a life that had not been lived, only endured.

Tuesday Thoughts.

Maybe I just have to accept the fact that I'm autistic & bipolar and people don't like me?

I’m genuinely depressed about the state of the world right now. It feels like bad people are winning everywhere.-OrevaZSN

Some people aren't meant to be alive.-a

Does anyone know how to get the light back into my eyes?-Zoe

Bro, it’s the weed unlocking the full mix those hidden vocals and layers were always there, you just weren’t tuned in yet .-Bintu

People who go on solo trips not scared of nothing.-Nithya Shri

Depending on other people will only disappoint you.

The more I am familiar with my own shadow, the less I judge others.-Dr. K Inner Flame

Personally, I've never been ashamed of being ill, and I don't see why I should be, but for many, the diagnosis is the end of the world.-Alastair MacClean

Use menopause rage to change the world.-Eileen.M. Gormley

I actually just hate my life.-Anxiety

You’re never wasting money when you’re taking a good trip, eating some good food, and experiencing some good scenery. enjoy life you can’t take the money with you.-NorthsideBP