Baba.

Just call me Baba.

It's short for Babushka.

It's more than likely I *AM* a grandmother.

My hubby said the 31 YR old's ex-GF ( I absolutely loathe  and will never  use the term "Baby Mama") didn't know she was prego when they broke up around Christmas and didn't find out until later, until after, which makes it even more likely that she IS his baby but good at least that the baby isn't  the reason  they broke up, most likely because she's high maintenance, dramatic, manic, encouraged him to get drunk, etc. and they'd always get drunk on holidays and fight, but I still think she'll be a good mother though because when he had that concussion she was very doting and caring with him and looked after him and she took good care of her dog, I just hope the baby's ok though because she also did  drink alot, did drugs and was on LOTS of medication, all of which can affect a developing baby.

I can't help but feel "cheated" though I didn't even know about the baby until after she was born, so I missed out on the birth announcement and the excitement thru the pregnancy, but at least at the same time I also didn't  have to worry  the entire time,either, so that was a blessing, and I'd like to see the baby,too, but don't know how to contact the mother as I don't know her address or her last name, just her first name and part  of her surname as she has one of those hyphenated last names and I only remember the first part, and the 31 YR old has always been very secretive about his "harem". I wonder as well if the baby might actually be better off without me in her life though, so I can't "ruin" her life like my kids seem to think I did with theirs, and I hope the 31 YR old's GF isn't there tomorrow when my hubby drives him to his new dorm because he's going to have a Good Talk  with him along the way about what it means to be a responsible  man and a responsible  father and what his obligations are, etc. so if she doesn't already know about the baby it looks most likely he fathered  then she's in for one hell of a shock tomorrow!

Today I also saw my Angel Bird again and a blue jay and I said to it "Go play baseball!" and then I laughed hysterically as if it was the most hilarious thing in the world so I guess my new weed must be some really good shit,ha,ha,  when my hubby put Beja outside and shut the door he locked us out and I heard Stairway To Heaven . I saw these Chinese guys playing volleyball on the news as well and they could really jump and they say that White boys can't jump but Chinese guys sure can, and I can still remember too one of the funniest things I did was write "Made in Taiwan" on a piece of paper and tape it to my friend's back.

She was from Taiwan. 😂

Tomorrow is also Labour Day and the last day of the "Ex" which is always sad and signals the end of summer even though not officially until the 21st and I love summer and don't want it to end but I do also love pumpkin spice and am eager to wear my new cashmere sweater.

Nobody on the road Nobody on the beach I feel it in the air The summer's out of reach Empty lake, empty streets The sun goes down alone.-Don Henley

 

Daily Pondering.

 

Cricket.

Yesterday I saw this really big cricket on the curtain in the kitchen which must have come in from outside but I just left it as they don't bother me, and, in fact, I like the sound they make. We had another good outside day yesterday as well like the day before and supposed to today and tomorrow as well. Both the 31 YR old and the youngest also start their courses on the same day: the 10th, one studying Medicine and the other Tax Accounting, and I wonder if the 31 YR old's GF now even knows about the baby he's more than likely the father, and what she thinks about it if so and how it will affect their relationship, and what if the same thing  happens again with THIS GF,too, and he gets her prego,too? 

He should have been a priest.

Now I know why  his ex-GF kept trying to contact him though once they broke up and he claimed she was "harrassing" him and got a Restraining Order against her; she was prego and just trying to tell him about the baby!

If I'm a grandmother now that would also make my mother a GREAT grandmother and I wonder if she's aware of that from the Other Side?

 I think she is.

In a show I watch a character is also trying to frame another for murder and I wondered why he'd do that....and then I remembered that she did  try to kill him before so I guess that would be a good reason, and yesterday my Angel Bird came up really close to me and stayed for awhile, and I tried to do Beja's harness for his walk but couldn't figure out how it worked( life is hard when you're stupid) so I just put his collar on and after the walk he looked up at me beaming and he was so happy and content it just melted my heart and moments like these are the best moments in life.

He also doesn't like the same black dog that Buddy hated so maybe that dog is just an asshole?

Going to the "Ex" last month was such a good day the joy carried me over for the entire week afterwards as well and sometimes one good day can last for a week. I can still remember too being in labour with my oldest in 1989 listening to Tone Loc's Funky Cold Medina  and yesterday I heard someone walk by our fence at the back say about me, "All she does is smoke pot!" which is ironic as before they always mocked me for NOT being "cool" and now I'm mocked for smoking weed so I'm still criticized no matter what I do anyway so I might as well just do whatever makes me happy.

A little voice inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back" I thought I knew what love was What did I know? Those days are gone forever I should just let them go.-Don Henley

 

Laff For Today.

 

Your Dumb-Ass Brother.

Yesterday Beja kept barking like crazy...and then I saw THIS: a poor sad little injured chipmunk shivering stunned and silent and still on our fence. I knew it was either sick or injured because it let me get thisclose  to it and didn't even move. It didn't run away like it would normally do or even flinch. I was even able to get up close enough to get this photo.

Poor little thing.

My guess is it either got into a fight with another chipmunk or else a cat got it, or perhaps a bird of prey or something but it looks in pretty bad shape and I suspect it's dying.

Yesterday I also saw 3 Monarch butterflies that kept flying above me and I like to think it might have been a message from the Other Side.

"So, have you heard your dumb-ass brother is most likely a father?"

That's how I told the youngest (age 19) about the 31 YR old  and he said he knew and even the oldest all the way in Edmonton said he'd "heard rumours" so it seems that everyone  knew before me, just like always, and my hubby said the baby(who weighed 5 pounds 14 oz) was actually late and had to be induced, so she was actually due in August, meaning she was conceived in November, when the 31 YR old and his ex-GF were still together ,making it even more likely that he is  the father despite his denials and insisting that he's sterile.

oooohhhh, shiiiiiiiiittt....

This isn't exactly the way I was hoping to have my grandkids; ideally the kids would be married  first but life has a strange way of  working out but a baby is still a blessing regardless.

I can still remember my old friend G ( from the YMCA group) when he was 30 ( he's in his 60's now) saying how he never wanted kids,either(and he never had any but now says he regrets it) but also said if he ever did  end up fathering a child that he would still "do the right thing"  and "take responsibility" so I hope the 31 YR old does,too. On Monday my hubby's driving him up to his new dorm 90 minutes away and he said he'll give him a "good talk."

 Unlike my Babushka, who only acknowledged me as her only grandchild and not the other 3 my father also had with 2 other women, because they were illegitimate.

I also got this yummmmmmy chicken Tandoori pizza with Tandoori chicken, jalapeno peppers, green peppers, mushrooms and onions. I just picked the yucky gross onions off. I also heard the outdoor stadium I have a ticket to see AC/DC  on the 16th that was severely damaged by that bad storm the other day has now been deemed "structurally unsafe" by the city making me doubt the concert will be going ahead afterall unless they can find a new venue last minute which isn't exactly an easy thing to do.

Shit.

Just MY "luck."

Doesn't it just figure?

My friend J ( from the YMCA group) is also now retired( he used to work for the gov't in Ottawa) and now on a trip in Vegas and the gov't printed out new $$$ with King Charles' face on it, replacing the Queen, except he's old and sick now,too, and will likely die soon and they'll just have to replace it again soon  with Prince William once he becomes King.

Fly on, thunderbird, fly Fly on, spread your wings to the sky Fly on, thunderbird, fly, fly on.-Quiet Riot

 

Weekend Words.

Back when we used to raise our lighters in the air instead of cell phones.

Or "Tic-tac-toe."

...and had more fun,too!

ewwww!! 😂