Today's Pondering.

 

Blather On.

Here's a recent photo I took of the frozen icicle vines yesterday. I just think it looks so cool. For the past 2-3 weeks or so I also keep waking up at 4-5 am and can't get back to sleep and I was reading my old blog posts and saw that it was actually the past 5 years of my mother's life she started to decline both mentally and physically before she died, needing the walker and then wheelchair, and tripping and falling down the stairs and her mind was going, forgetful, mixing things up, not remembering how to spell,etc. and she got much more meaner and demanding than usual and shitting herself, etc. so maybe she did have some sort of cognitive decline like dementia or Alzheimers or something? I also had 38K views to my Twitter  page over the past 7 days and  my hubby decided not to renew his life insurance once it expires in September as well, thinking it will be hard "now he's in his 60's" even though he's still n good health and doesn't have all the medical/health issues like I do and if he dies before me( even though it's not too likely) I'm going to need it to live off!

Yesterday chasing Beja playing our, "I'm going to cut your tail off!" game I also could feel my heart racing and thumping in my chest and I was really dizzy and out of breath and thought I was going to drop dead right there  and now the 31 YR old's ex-GF is even trying to befriend his new  GF ( the accountant) which I find is really creepy; likely to get close to her to get "intel" on him or to harm her or to sabotage their relationship, and he said before he got 100% on his Midterm he got 71% on a previous test and so when he got the 100% they thought he'd cheated  and so they were monitoring him and even had a security camera on him taking the tests and asked him about it and as it turned out when he got the 71% ( a "low" mark for him)it was when he was still doped up from the sedation from his dental work and they told him he could have deferred it for medical reasons and just taken it later so now they said he can re-do it and because his grades are so high( he's likely the smartest in the class...and he's NOT even Chinese!!) he qualifies to be a tutor  now as well and gets paid!!

My hubby also said we can finally go out for our belated Valentines dinner Tuesday as he had been so busy with work lately he didn't have the time and had to do lots of over-time, incl. 6 HRS overnight last night, and now f*ckwit Trump has "upped" the global tariffs to 15% and everyone should just tell him to f*ck-off  and refuse to even do ANY business or trade with USA as a result and just boycott them, and there's some redneck hockey game at 6 am and people said they "have" to drink watching it, proving we're a pathetic nation of low class beer-swilling hockey-loving redneck loser boozers and if you "need" to drink watching a hockey game ,and esp. at 6 am, you are an alcoholic. I couldn't care less about some stupid sporting event but it still would be nice though to beat the arrogant smug Americans at something ,regardless what it is, and rub their faces in it.

You can hate me all you want, but when it comes down to it. All we have here is God and one another.-Harry Fisher

 

Sunday Stuff.

Already there.

You were the best thing in my life and the best part of my life. I will love and miss you forever.

fuuuucccckkkk.

Always & forever.

I don't even know what "IA" is!

Can't shit on the carpet,either.

Why do you think so many celebs have trans kids?

I’m basically a dead person.-Horned Sphere

I realised its not laziness or procrastination, when you reach a certain state of depression you get so detached from reality and you don't wish to participate in anything in life, you just want to sleep and wake up and actually not speak to anyone.-Luvhuss

People imagine suicide as a single moment. But often it’s a thousand tiny moments leading there. The nights you whisper “I can’t do this.” The mornings you wonder why you woke up. The days you’re alive, but not really living.-LetsHealAndRecover

But at what cost?

People that think cats aren't vermin, are retarded.-Lord Kevin Morris III

Good thing he wasn't wearing a shirt!

I don’t think people understand.. you can be driven to a point of not wanting to be bothered with anyone on ANY level. friendship, relationship, family, etc. it's only so much one person can take.-Libriscent

 “I didn’t talk badly about you—I talked about what you did to me. If that makes you look bad, that’s not my problem anymore.”-Miley Cyrus