Thought For Today.

 

Gracias A Dios Por Mi Mija.

Thank you God for my sweetie.

I just LOVE Beja soooooo much!

He is my Cuddle-Bug, Snuggle-Bug, Hug-Bug, and Love-Bug. We got to be outside yesterday again and I also got more weed as I noticed I only had 6 doobies left. My bath-bombs also finally came( shown below)  and some of them have such funny names like Sex Goddess  and Unicorn Poop and the flies are back and that's the only thing I don't like about the warmer weather: all the bugs!

I also have this big really itchy mosquito bite on my ass,too!

Yesterday my stomach & abdomenal pain was still soooooo bad plus piercing gas cramps the past few days as well and I wondered what it was I must have eaten and then realized what it was: peanuts. Now something else for me to add to my list of things I can't eat because my stupid colon can't tolerate them.This morning I was also woken up by this killer splitting headache and I can even feel "crackling" inside my head and I have blurry double vision and feel nauseated,too.

Just ugh!

My hubby also refuses to believe I have liver, kidney and /or heart issues and taunts I'll "live into my 80s" which I hope NOT despite my chronic daily pain which gets worse all the time and my high BP, ascites, fluid retention and baaaad edema, shortness of breath, extreme fatigue, brain fog, and increasingly bad kidney & liver enzymes every time I get blood work done, etc. I also heard Stairway To Heaven  again yesterday.

I hope and pray daily that I die ASAP.

I'm so sick of always feeling like this.

If I do die soon my hubby can divide out my bath bombs between the girls and my weed to the boys so $$$ isn't wasted at least.

Canada Post  is also planning on ending door-to-door mail delivery soon for "community mail boxes"  you have to walk somewhere to get your mail and so small little boxes packages won't fit so you have to go down to the post office to get, so how do elderly, infirm, housebound people do it?  The Ont. gov't is also now going to allow people to bring alcohol into provincial parks now as well I think is a bad idea since drunk driving is already a biiiiig problem here in this shithole of low-class redneck drunken loser boozers and now it will be even easier for them and increase even more.

Yesterday as I was cooking my rice Pilaf I also noticed something odd in the rice; something long and pink that didn't belong there so I picked it out with a fork and at closer inspection I noticed it was moving....and it was a worm, shown here to prove I'm not lying or imagining it!

Seriously, WTF?

Ewwwwww!!

I didn't tell my hubby until after  he had already eaten the rice since food is just so expensive and we can't afford to waste it and he said I should sue them but he sounds like an American; suing everyone all the time for everything.

 I just figure shit happens(mostly to me).

The 31 YR old also did more exams and got high 90s on them. I have to say I'm impressed and he's doing much much better than I thought he would.

I go outside. I avoid people. But I go outside.-1horsetown

 

Weekend Words.

I’ve learned that it’s best that I work alone, so that I can’t harm anyone but myself when I make mistakes.-Handman

Must be Toronto.

Slava Rossiya!

Anybody else walking around with never-ending grief about the way their life was supposed to be?-Sine

😂😂

The entire world is telling Donald Trump to FUCK OFF and it’s delicious.-CanadaHatesTrump

If I pay you will you tell me what they are?

Not decorating your place is a trauma response. A quiet way of saying, “I won’t get attached to something I might lose." And healing begins the moment you realize you’re no longer just passing through life, you are allowed to settle, and make your environment feel like home.-TheOracleReadsU

We can live beside the ocean Leave the fire behind Swim out past the breakers Watch the world die We can live beside the ocean Leave the fire behind Swim out past the breakers Watch the world die.-Everclear

Nobody talks about the grief of realizing how much life you lost to survival mode.-Libriscent

But now you're gone There's an emptiness closing around me And I can't go on When all I have left is the memory.-Whitesnake