Daily Pondering.

 

Rhodesian.

Yesterday was the first day we didn't get to sit outside as it was raining. I just went out to take Beja for his walk and to smoke weed( as my hubby won't let me smoke in the house) but not to actually sit outside. Soon I'll have to bring my chair inside for winter hibernation.It's funny,too; every time Beja hears the dog next door( who he doesn't like) barking he furiously barks back and all the fur on his back stands up all along a line down the middle and he looks like a Rhodesian Ridgeback who have a line of fur going down the middle of their backs where the fur grows in the opposite direction. I've only seen one once in actual life. I also wonder if the dog next door's name actually is Arthur  or if it's really Arfur  as in Arf?

I also remember I had a dream I was visiting with my Babushka who died almost 25 years ago and I still laugh remembering as a kid calling pimples Acme Pimples  mixing up with acne and it seems my hubby has a cold now; headache, tired, and runny nose, which is still better than the Flu any day and he's not sure if he's still going to the chess tournament yet over the weekend; it depends how he feels tomorrow and they said on the news someone burned the Israeli flag and it was a "hate crime" making me wonder if it's also a hate crime to burn all flags then,too, or is it just if it's the Israeli , gay pride, or American ones? Is it also a hate crime to burn a Taliban flag or a swastika flag too....or only if it's the flag of someone the gov't likes? When I posed that question online trolls called me a Tea-drinking retard (I actually had to look that one up) and a spastic.

You're just NOT allowed to question things or have your own opinion anymore.

Out-do yesterday.

 

Wordless Wednesday.

 

Chuckle For Today.

 

Falling Into Autumn.

Yesterday it was so cold out we couldn't even go out in the morning( and I could even see my breath!) but it did warm out later and the sun came out so we were still able to sit out for 2 HRS in the afternoon. I also saw 2 beautiful white swans flying by overhead which is unusual. I do see several geese but never swans so it was a nice treat. I also notice now my mother's gone and I'm almost 60 I'm "levelling-up" and have now taken over her role as official Resident Old Lady and have moved into her place and I have bonded with Beja now,too; it just took time and a little longer but we have bonded now and I do love him.

It will never be anything like I had with Buddy because what we had was special but I DO love Beja( and he was the light in the darkness after Buddy died) and I would die for him.

My abdomenal pain is still soooooo bad it's the kind of pain you curl up into a ball and just moan and so is my back and it feels like something is trying to break its way out  and I heard Stairway To Heaven  again and my hubby says he feels sick "Flu-y" he described it as well which isn't good, esp. considering he's playing in that chess tournament over the long holiday weekend in Quebec. I was looking forward to it as well as it gives me a bit of a break too with him gone and the youngest and I were also going to order-in food for OUR treat with him away so I hope he doesn't end up cancelling it. It's also Thanksgiving and it's weird but someone always seem to get sick over the holidays.

It's sad as well that I feel that I can never be myself and always have to pretend to be someone else to be loved but as it turns out it doesn't make a difference because no one can still love me anyway.

Yesterday was also 6 years already since Eddie van Halen died. I can't believe it's been that long already. I really miss him and his death hit me hard, just like Tom Petty's did, and David Bowie's , and I also miss Prince, Sinead O' Conner and Robbie Robertson. It's sad because I grew up with them and they were such a big part of my childhood and youth and were always there... and now they're just.....gone.

Just like with my mother.

And if you enter my zone And going to protect my own Protect my own I will protect my own Protect my own.-Protoje

 

Wednesday Words.

Mothers are the same everywhere.

You know it.

My Chihuahua *IS* the boss! 😂

😝😕😖

I'm probably going to Hell for this...

So I beg you Dread, Natty Dreads, Natty Dreads, Natty don't go So I beg you Dread, Natty Dreads, Natty Dreads, Natty don't go.-Cornell Campbell