Thought For The Day.

 

Sunrise Semester.

This morning it looked like we were going to get a really nice sunrise so I took this photo and waited....but this was all we got. Oh,well. Since the clocks got switched sunrise is later now,too, not until 7:30 am but at least the good  is sunset is later, past 7 pm and at the beginning of winter it got dark at 4:30 pm and in summer it won't until 9 pm!  I'm still sooooo jet-lag tired too and yesterday the day just seemed soooo long and dragged on forever and overnight I kept waking up every hour.

Ugh.

I still remember as well when I was in grade 6 I used to get up at 6 am to watch this TV show called Sunrise Semester  when they featured ancient Egypt as I have always been interested in it and my mother was a member of the ROM (Royal Ontario Museum) so we got exclusive tickets to the King Tut exhibit when it came to Toronto and then years later I finally did get to go to Egypt to see it for real.

Yesterday it even got up to a balmy 13 C (but rain so I couldn't sit outside) and today supposed to get to 11 C so lots of the snow is really melting now and you can see on our porch the chairs are unburied now and we can also finally see the diving board and the garden gnomes and lights by the pool again as well. It's also nice to finally be able to sit outside and smoke mi ganja without having to always bundle up and wear a hat, mitts, etc. and freeze my ass off, and to feel a nice fresh breeze and spring air. As well as Iran Israel is also attacking Lebanon as well in a bid to expand its territory under the guise of getting Hezbollah, and them and USA continue to attack oil refineries in Iran as well which is just beyond stupid since it also affects the world's oil supply and prices but Imperialist war mongers only care about themselves.

Check this out! Now my Twitter  has 203.4 K views, and yesterday I had a weird headache only on the left side of my head that radiated down my spine and back and it also felt like I was being stabbed behind my left eye I guess was likely sinus and later this month the youngest turns 19 and he had to be induced 3 weeks early, at 37 weeks as I had liver failure due to Obstetric Cholestasis and there's a high risk of stillbirth from 38 weeks (they have to weigh the risk VS if the baby is "ripe" to be safely delivered and the lungs are ready)and increases from there and I always wondered if I'd had more kids after if it would have returned(as likely although he's the only one I had it with) but I guess I'll never know and also if it was due to my gallbladder, which I had removed 5 years later.

 It's one of those many questions I have for God when I cross over to the Other Side.

"Why dont you tell anyone your struggling?" Because it's like talking to the police "anything I say will be used against me"-Nithra Shri

 

Musing For Today.

 

Dragging My Ass.

I saw these French Provincial couches yesterday and it's my fave. kind. I know it looks like it belongs in a Paris bordello but I LOVE it. It's actually from Wayfair  if you can believe it. I was surprised,too. They cost between 3-10K. 

But I can still always dream.

This morning I also-gasp-slept in- something I never  do!

I woke up all groggy, disoriented and dragging my ass at 7:20 am when I normally wake up between 5-6 am and I even slept right thru the news on the radio and when i saw the time I was like, "Holy shit! Is it really 7:20 already?" and I jumped my lazy ass out of bed still half asleep and groggy....and then I realized why: we had to switch the clocks last night for the spring time change an HR ahead.....

so now we're all be tired and dragging our asses around for the next 1-2 weeks.

I seriously hate this shit.

It feels like jet lag.

My Twitter page also got the most views ever: 198.7K views in the past 7 days, likely my protesting the attack on Iran, so what ironically cost me followers also gained me views. HA!  Now people are also saying Trump even raped his own daughter when she was younger as well and that's just too horrible to think about, even for him, and how much worse  can that sick f*ck possibly get? It's also laughable USA thinks they can beat Iran (who has modern-day weapons) when they couldn't even beat the Viet Cong in the Vietnam war and they just had basic weapons. My hubby also said about Beja, "He smells like dog!" and I told him, "He IS a dog! What is he supposed to smell like? He probably thinks YOU smell like human!"

Finally all the puddles and meltage has dried up and Beja finally went pee outside this morning and yesterday it was also sooooo foggy out all day and I think I might have discovered what caused that awful loud noise the other day: I noticed across the street part of their roof had collapsed with the snow and ice falling off; the part at the side of the roof that's a big long wooden piece with aluminum siding attached just completely fell off so maybe that was the noise?

Yesterday I also had that really baaaaad burning deep in my chest again so I took a Pepcid  and waited it out to see if it was just really bad heartburn or a looming heart-attack and also baaaad cramps and abdomenal and back pain as well I think might be from the Indian curry I had for lunch. I could even feel  something moving around in there,too, it felt like a big snake that kept rolling 'round and 'round.

I seriously think my colon hates me.

I also saw on TV kids around ages 3-5 on an Easter egg hunt and it made me smile bringing back such happy good memories; it was such a happy, fun age, both for myself when I was a kid and when my own kids were little.

It's one of those times where you just want to "freeze" and capture in time and keep forever.

I might be suicidal but I still hope.-Skitzocat

 

Sunday Stuff.

😂😂

People become LONERS because they have been betrayed by everyone they TRUSTED.-JaLeto

He just flew in and now  he's waiting for his baggage to arrive.

Jesus didn’t call Christians to fight on His behalf. He called us to stand with the vulnerable, the oppressed, and the marginalized. let’s be clear.-Sunday

"Everything else can wait, but the search for God cannot wait, and love one another."-George Harrison

I have no life in me left.-Han

I pray every night for something to finally happen. It's is getting unbearable to exist inside of daily.-Lucas

Having toxic parents or a toxic family is more challenging than those with relatively functional families can imagine. Nothing is ever a simple conversation. Almost everything is riddled with passive aggression, subliminals, trauma, and projection.-OrevaZSN

Trauma survivors rarely say “I’m struggling.” They say: “I’m just tired.” “I’ve got a lot on.” “It’s been a weird week.” They don’t ask for help. They downplay everything. Because life taught us that being honest makes people disappear.-LetsHealAndRecover

To that person who hasn’t been herself lately, your spark will return, and you will shine like you were meant to. It’s difficult when you catch yourself not being you, when you feel your whole world falling apart before your eyes.-Big Tiri

All roads lead to killing myself.-Angel

I was raised to believe that people are inherently good, we just make mistakes. After the last several years I have to say I don’t believe that anymore. Some people in this world are just sadistic, dishonest, heartless, selfish, arrogant assholes through and through.-Kate

It is not comfortable to feel yourself a stranger.-Andrei Ostroukh

Is loving me really that hard?-Ela

It’s such a heartbreaking moment when you realize you literally have no one.-Kye