Laff For The Day.

 

Todestag.

Todestag  is a German word meaning the Anniversary of someone's death.

Today it's been exactly a year since my Buddy died. 😭

Exactly a year ago today I lost my Heart-Dog, my Soulmate, the best friend I've ever had.

I can't believe it's been that long already and it's actually gone by so fast  and I can't believe an entire year has gone by already and I'm still here. I should have died with him and I was supposed to and I tried  but in actual fact part of me did die with him and I'll never be the same. Now I'm just an empty hollow "shell" of what I once was and I rarely even leave the house now and have no desire to go anywhere or do anything since he died and I just basically exist. The raw sting of grief has lessened but I will always love and miss him and he will always hold a special place in my heart and even though I love Beja and he has helped me heal I will never love anyone like I love Buddy and no one will ever love me like he did,either.

What we had together was special and our bond was like no other.

Love survives death and I have comfort in knowing we will be reunited one day again on the Other Side.

It would be nice though if God decided to take me back Home today though.

Look what I saw this morning when I got up!

SNOW!!!

Holy shit!!!!!

All you can do is laugh.

It looks more like Christmas than Easter.

It won't last long though as Thursday it's supposed to go up to 14C but is this craaaaazy or what? It's a good thing my hubby didn't take the snow tires off the car yet but I also told  him last night to put the cover-thingy on the windshield as I heard we were supposed to get 5-10 cm so just in case.....but of course no one ever listens to me and he didn't so ha,ha!  Now he can lick it off with his tongue for all I care! Of course the school buses were cancelled today as well. On the weekend my hubby's also going up to visit the 26 YR old to celebrate her Fish Appreciation Day party as fish are her fave. animal.

Yes, I know.

Beja also sticks his tongue out and looks like a little retard (my hubby calls it Derp Face) but he's MY little retard and I love him, and I think it's odd as well the astronauts circling around the moon but not actually touching down on it and  would be like driving all the way to Disneyland  and getting to the entrance and saying, "There it is, kids!" and not actually going in and just turning around and driving back again. It also strikes me as suspicious that they supposedly landed on the moon over 50 years ago yet never went back since, so did they really ....or was it just staged  because the Americans didn't want the Russians to "beat" them in the "Space Race?" It does make you wonder. In a survey a majority of Canadians also said they'd agree to becoming a part of the EU (even though geographically  NOT possible, obviously) and I'd like that since I've always loved Europe and that way next time I go back I get to stand in the shorter line in immigration for EU passport holders instead of the loooooong Non-EU-passport holder line I always have to wait hours in!

It feels like I'm always walking along the border between life and death.

 

Tuesday Thoughts.

Becoming a woman and realizing your mother never really liked you the whole time has been one of the most mind-boggling and humiliating realities to face.-Deeslifx

A flower doesn’t grow in a day.-Omz

It's sad how , 70% of my day is me trying to convince myself not to give up on everything.-AJokeX

If Jesus was alive today, he would be a leading member of the Palestinian resistance in Gaza.-John Wight

Donald Trump would die on Easter just to steal the spotlight from Jesus.-Mayolsspicy

“Do u ever get suicidal thoughts” girl do I ever get NON suicidal thoughts.-Feelings

I ain't got nobody That I can depend on I ain't got nobody That I can depend on.-Santana

You can buy it for BOTH Easter and Christmas! 😂

I have to hand-feed my little diva!

The world I grew up in no longer exists anymore.

Let's see.....what's more fun....a loud bunch of drunks or cuddling with my dog? Hmmmmmm....

Always & forever.

Everything is temporary. None of us are staying here. Never been a option.-Bigfoot

Mine is Chihuahua glitter.

Nope.

Honestly, I just make this shit up as I go and never imagined me getting this old. Don't ask me how it happened.-Jon

Why would I care about my health when I'm going to kill myself in 2 years.-Qsymia

Know there is a God, know that you will eventually return to Him.-ZKCB

Once you're in your 50's. 😂

"You don't have to be like everyone else. Being different is not a weakness. It's a strength."-Muriel Hopkins

He had spent his entire childhood on the outside of human connection, studying it from a distance, trying to understand it. He had paid closer attention to people than anyone who felt comfortable among them ever needed to. That was the gift inside the wound.-Mandi Shre

Did it hurt? Shifting from a happy, jolly, talkative person to a sad human who's no longer interested in anything and everything.omgsidewalks

I was born and this is my punishment.-Zac

Yall ever try journaling n then realize it looks like ur writing a suicide note.PainDepressionand Anxiety

Is life actually even good for anyone like is there anyone who is just happy longterm.-Jane

Level up.

Suicide due to depression & other similar mental health-related disorders is having your soul ripped out & beaten to death by hopelessness. That leaves nothing more than an empty shell, making it completely numb, & guaranteeing that it’ll soon be joining its soul in the grave.-MJM

Jealous of how plants just die when something is slightly wrong.-Feelings

My biggest concern when I die too is NOT that I won't be remembered but that I won't be missed.

Experienced life at the lowest that l don’t judge people who commit suicide.-Jigga