Today's Thought.

 

Retard Juice.

Yesterday was Pi Day and I never even heard a single thing about it online, on the TV or radio news until once later in the day but my hubby knew(being a nerd) and was all excited about it and even  bought a cherry pie and wore this special shirt he had made with some abstract obtuse nerd mathematical formula on it that no one but a math nerd would even understand. Something to do with Pi( which we all know is 3.14) and him and the youngest have even memorized some over 100 or so digits of (they have some kind of competition going on who can memorize the most)and I never had any interest in. 

It's math.

The bane of my existance.

3.14 is good enough for me.

...and really all I even remember of Pi now is it's the Greek letter for "P" and the Cyrillic Russian "P" also looks similar.

I also heard online someone said the funniest thing ever and it just cracked me up and I laughed my ass off: they referred to alcohol as RETARD JUICE. 😂

My hubby also finally was able to reg'd for his chess tournament online afterall; he just had to switch browsers on his computer! I remember I also had to do that to get Twitter back.

Today we also have yet another weather advisory/warning for snow AND freezing rain but then going up to 7C and rain and  yesterday I smoked some good weed and grooved listening to Santana and Hendrix and when I sat outside at night the sky was star-less except for just one lonely star unless it wasn't even a star at all but the International Space Station,  and I wonder as well if maybe the reason I don't want to do anything or go anywhere since Buddy died is deep down I feel I shouldn't and don't "deserve"  to be happy or have fun without him in my life anymore and next month it will be a year already.

I can't seem to recall anything in all of my years of living that has made my life worthwhile. There's nothing that I enjoy living for. Yeah the sun's warm and the ocean is beautiful but I wouldn't mind not being born at all.-Ari

 

Daily Musing.

 

Return To Sender.

Yesterday someone (and I'm NOT saying who.....)  left a skid mark(AKA "Fudge Smudge") on my pillow.

I also got another letter in the mail for my mother(even though it's been 15 months now since she died and we're still getting her mail) which is likely from her debtors hassling me again about her unpaid loan so I just crossed out her name and wrote in DESEASED: RETURN TO SENDER.

It will now be dropped back into the mail box and returned so hopefully now they'll get the idea she's dead and stop bothering us.

Plus, they'll also assume it's the wrong address  now and we'll stop getting her mail.

It felt sad writing "deseased" though.

I also saw water buffalo on TV and thought of a funny joke my mother would have liked and laughed at and I wanted to share with her and it made me sad and it's times like this when I miss her the most; when I have something to say and no one to tell it to.

THIS was also our backyard yesterday morning.....

and THIS was our yard in the afternoon!

We got snow, and lots of it!(photos here in the day and lower below at sunset)

You should have seen the look on poor Beja's face when he went out to pee and saw it.

It was priceless.

I knew what he was thinking, something along the lines of, "What the f*ck  is this? Where did all of this come from all of a sudden?" It was hilarious.

He was NOT a happy camper.

We're supposed to get more tomorrow and Monday,too.

March Break is also this upcoming week, and someone on Twitter is also a cashier at a drug store and said as a customer was checking out with a pregnancy test she eagerly asked her, "What are you hoping for?" (boy or girl) and she said, "A negative" and it made her sad, and it IS sad; people see babies as a burden, an inconvenience, instead of the blessing and gift from God that they are, and every time I took a prego test *I* was always hoping for a positive and was sad if it was negative! 

There's also a pro-Palestinian protest and rally in Toronto today a Jewish organization is trying to get cancelled along with some gov't officials due to pressure from them saying it's "hateful" and  "anti-Semitic" etc. even though it's just supporting Palestine and it's NOT anti-Jewish; just protesting the Israeli gov't  and its genocide in Gaza.....and I think banning it is Fascist and hateful  and discriminatory to Palestinians!

No one talks about how painful it is when life slowly forces you to believe that maybe the happy home, the supportive partner, the one family unit... just wasn't meant for you. Even when you have a good heart, pure intentions, and so much love to give - you still get the short end of the stick in love. Sometimes the pain isn't losing someone - it's realising you never got the life you were willing to give everything for.-Gracious Onuoha

Instead of thinking about the moments we might miss, I think about the ones we’ve already had.-Stefan Moore

The devil couldn't reach me so he made sure every time i get excited about something it never works out for me.-Ela

 

Weekend Words.

If the Epstein files don’t make you believe Satan is real and demons walk among us, I don’t know what will.-Brooke Taylor Caine

Nobody cares about your mental health until it turns into anger then everyone sees you as a bad person.-Sophia

I never really understood why God picked me to fight so many hard battles.-Don

Ngl having to beg someone to do something with you and then seeing them do it with others willingly is a different kind of hurt.-Mia

Hey does anybody know when I’ll stop feeling like a child pretending to be an adult.-Human

Not all Bad Guys are bad guys.

I'm a thief, not a kidnapper!

Saying this might sound dark but I no longer feel that extreme sadness when someone dies. If anything, a part of me focuses on how I'm glad they won't continue suffering and seeing the evil of the world. Congratulations for finally being free.-

Naimatapei W. Gitau

More like 13 YRS.

After 30 + years, my willfully ignorant spouse has become a stranger who lives in the same house as myself. I talk to God everyday.-RebeccaKnowsBest

Satan is showing his face and some of you still don't believe in God.-Mandy Arthur

Good things come in small packages.

I’m not depressed or sad.. but life took something from me that no longer makes me smile like I used to.-Bryce