Truth For The Day.

 

21

Yesterday was a glorious 21 C and Beja and I got to be outside!

Yahoo!!

I also woke up from my afternoon nap with this massive *KILLER* headache (I still have a bit of today,too) that was soooo bad it felt like my head was going to EXPLODE and I was also really dizzy too and my stomach felt sick and I just felt really yucky,restless, and awful I just wanted to sleep and I even slept thru my Heavy Metal show on the radio last night and missed most of it. I thought maybe my BP was either really low or high but it was "just" 140/90 which is high for most people but actually not too bad for me.

Seeing the dark clouds passing over the sun and covering it up also reminds me of my own depression and the dark clouds of depression  envelops me hiding MY light and then they eventually pass by(once I die) and my light shines again once I'm on the Other Side. I've also been having lots of dreams lately about my dead aunt even though she was mean and we didn't get along in real life.

Yesterday was also the last fasting day for Good Friday and all I ate all day was a vegetable dosa, some Indian rice, and this yummy noodle shown above and that's it for another year. I made it!  It will also be our first Easter( tomorrow) without Buddy as last Year Easter was early( the end of March) and he died 7 April but it'll also be our first Easter with Beja. We don't really celebrate holidays much anymore( and certainly not like we used to) now though my mother's gone and the kids have all moved out except for the youngest. It's just not the same anymore now.

My hubby also "doesn't like" the way I do the dishwasher  and says for me NOT to even do it and just let him do it but I also know he doesn't really mean  it because if I don't then he says I'm lazy  and "Don't do enough around here to help out" so no matter WHAT I DO (or don't do) I just can't "win" and it's still my "fault" either way.

Help us someone, let us out of here 'Cause living here so long undisturbed Dreaming of the time we were free So many years ago Before the time when we first heard Welcome to the home by the sea.-Genesis

 

Today's Musing.

 

Should I?

I found my fave. chocolate coated chewy(as opposed to the soft gooey caramel) salted caramels that I absolutely LOVE which can be hard to find as most of them are the soft caramel....except it's sooooo expensive: 30$ for just a small box of 12 which would just do me 2-3 times( I know, I know) but it's my fave. and I just LOVE it so much.....I don't know what to do; I'm just so torn; part of me says to just GO FOR IT but another part of me says not to because they're just so expensive....and yet sometimes you just have to say f*ck it and treat yourself and I haven't bought much lately other than my medical marijuana so I do have  the $$$ and 30$ isn't really that much in the grand scheme of things and it would bring me so much joy.....

Oh, I don't know....

Is it "frivolous" or should I just go for it and enjoy?

What should I do?

The 19 YR old is also doing more training for his tax accountant future career and racist anti-religion Quebec has now also( as well as banned religious symbols such as hijab, kippah, turban, crucifix, etc) in public and on teachers and gov't employees, etc.)  banned public prayers incl. prayer rooms in universities that Muslims use, mainly targeting Muslims, clearly violating religious rights and freedoms and they're just sooooo hateful and discriminatory, and yet at the same  time always whining and demanding special rights and gov't funding for themselves for speaking French. My friend O( from grade 10) is also a renowned psychologist with a PhD and he's been fired from the university from teaching now because he refuses to bow down and give in to "Woke-ness" and Political Correctness.

I really  hate  this Fascist shithole.

Trump has also pretty much revealed himself as the Anti-Christ(as I had suspected) now  as well: comparing himself to Jesus, which is also blasphemy , and claiming he's a "King"and saying his followers can worship him  now,too, and even erect a gold statue  of him they can worship.

We are indeed in the Last Days and End Times.

Cut off toxic family members.-Nirtha Shri

 

Weekend Words.

“Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way” - Anna Karenina.

I love my dog so much that people without a dog could never understand.-Fabs

You can say "please" and "thank you" a million times and your toddler will never repeat it, but if you say "ass-faced mother fucker" ONCE...-Henpecked Hal

I could just die and not have to do all of this.-Ary

Ever since I was a little girl I knew my life was going to be a big depressing waste of time.-Ronnie

My mother and my hubby.

It's always  in Florida!

Yes, suicide due to mental illness is a an attempt for peace. It’s also a cognitive distortion, one that makes them believe the sacrifice is out of love & compassion for those they care about. They’re relieving them of a burden. If you don’t understand, consider yourself blessed.-MJM

I console myself with the fact I won't be here forever.-Sad0m

Losing your favourite person can mentally destroy you. Attachment is not a joke.-Schiz04renic

I miss you, I wish I was dead.-Eve

Every time something in my life gets a little better, suddenly another thing crushes and gets worse.-Anxiety

Being a suicidal is so weird bc wdym there's people out there living their life without thinking about suicide?-Dazai Waist Holder

The body spoke. It always speaks. The only question is whether anyone. Was listening closely enough. To answer in time.-Melissa Reverendon

Maybe I can get a family discount?

Buddy forever.

Big purple faggot.

People need to understand that once you go through your worst time alone you really don't care who stays in your life anymore.-JaLeto

Was anybody else bullied so much that even as an adult, you hear people laughing nearby out in public, and you still think it's at you? That's what i always think. "Oh they must be laughing at me."-Ma Le Bo

I'm gonna live the life I choose, You gotta understand I'm walking in the shadow of the blues.-Whitesnake

I love the blues, They tell my story, If you don't feel it you can never understand.-Whitesnake

God has a plan………sometimes we just have to open our eyes to see it.-Lori Hecksel

A body that is fighting battles most people do not even know exist yet.-Susan Michelino

I liked mine!

The fact that I exist pisses me off at least once a day.-Fluttershy

Do you ever feel like you're not worth it? Because I feel it everyday.-Anxiety

Do you ever feel like you're not worth it? Because I feel it everyday.-Anxiety