Wordless Wednesday.

 

Pondering For The Day.

 

Last Day.

Today was our last day sitting outside until spring.

Our last hurrah.

It was 15C today but the dropping down to 6C or so I packed up my patio chair after our last outside day and retreated indoors to begin winter hibernation. From now on I'll only be outside to take Beja for his walks and to smoke mi ganja. last night my cough was soooooo baaaaad as well it kept waking me up and at times I even had trouble breathing,too, and let me tell you that is scary, when you can't get your breath, and today I have the usual bad abdomenal and back pain and it's so bad now my back hurts even when I first wake up in the morning  so maybe I even have a tumour pressing on my spine, or something? 

 I also came across an article on Addisons Disease  and it blew me away because I have all the symptoms -back pain, abdomenal pain, high BP, sensitive to cold, darkend skin, nausea,muscle & joint pain, less appetite, fatigue, dizziness, etc. so maybe that's what's causing everything?

It's adrenal gland( above the kidneys) malfunction and the hormones cortisol and aldosterone aren't being produced enough and it affects the body's BP, stress levels, sodium, potassium,etc. and if it gets TOO bad can cause heart or kidney failure and coma and death....

I wonder if that could be it?

I also seemed to have ended my cold but now it feels like it's back again and I have a headache as well and my back is extra bad,too.

F*ck.

Here are my nice nice, soft, lined, fuzzy winter socks. My hubby also finally took the A/C out of my bedroom window and I closed the other window I have open when the weather is nice and now it's officially over, the nice weather.

Waaaah.

I had another dream again I moved back to my Old Toronto House I often have, and of all the many places I've lived in my life that one was the one I've always felt was the most Home, with my mother, and I, and our Chihuahuas.

I also read somewhere it said autistic people typically tend to like cats.

NOT this  one!!!!

I HATE cats!

I think they're vermin.

I *LOVE*  dogs though.

It's sad that the 32 YR old's ex-GF won't let him see the baby yet at the same time I also know that he doesn't really want to be a father, either, so the most important thing is that they both agree on the same  thing. If she doesn't want him to see the baby and he doesn't really want to, anyway, then it works out, but the problem is if he does actually really want to and she won't let him, but as long as they both agree, like with my parents when they split up I was 2 and he'd said if he paid child support then he'd want to see me and she didn't want him in my life so she said no way she'll manage on her own, but they both agreed.My friend S( from grade 8) also said my hubby & I can sue the 32 YR old's ex-GF for Grandparent's  rights to see the baby, but I won't. 

She's the mother .

She calls the shots.

 I only had one set of  grandparents though as my mother's parents died and it was actually my father's I knew, but 2 of my father's other  kids never knew any of their grandparents,though, as his parents( also MY grandparents) refused to acknowlege them (as they were "illegitimate") and their other ones( their mother's parents) live in Europe. 

That's just so sad.

They try to tell us we don't belong That's alright, we're millions strong This is my music, it makes me proud These are my people and this is my crowd.-KISS

 

Today's Truth.

 

Thoughts For Tuesday.

I stopped living years ago.

Buddy forever.

Shove that ballroom up your fat ass!

No helmets,either. We were fearless.

Playing in the snow!

Math is the bane of my existance.

"It's a gift from God." -Michelle Philips

You better stop, look around Here it comes, here it comes Here it comes, here it comes Here comes your 19th nervous breakdown.-The Rolling Stones