Musing For The Day.

 

Beware Of False Prophets.

Now Trump has really gone and done it: he's erected a golden idol statue of himself for his devotees to worship, like the golden calf idol in the Bible and we've been warned "Beware of false prophets."

Not to mention the ban on idol worship.

I swear, that guy really must  be the Anti-Christ!!!!!

Yesterday the recycling guys also left a bin behind they didn't pick up just  like last week. We had 4 bins put out as did next-door and they left one of theirs behind as well, making me wonder if they have a new limit now of 3 bins per household per week or are they just being lazy bastards? I also heard Stairway To Heaven  and saw my Angel Bird again yesterday and yesterday and today my abdomenal pain is still soooooo baaaad and my stomach is nauseated as well and hopefully I'll die soon too since most people in our family die in May. I also had that painful burning deep in the middle of my chest again yesterday as well but I also ate a spicy Indian chatpati so it was likely just  bad indigestion but if it is an imminent heart-attack my last words memorialized will be "F*ck Trump!"

I also still whisper "Goodnight" every night to Buddy even though he's been gone a year now, hoping he can still hear me on the Other Side and I just finished my last Easter stash chocolate yesterday and for the past 2 mornings when I first wake up I smelled the gross smells of skunk and coffee even though no one else did so maybe I really do have a brain tumour or something? I also wonder if having kids was so awful(as well as all the trauma, worry, and stress) is just because I had them with the wrong person, because my kids are horrible, or because I was just simply ill-equipped and overwhelmed, or all of the above, and I also have to just accept the fact that I'm autistic and bipolar and people don't like me.

It was exhausting and overwhelming. And yet, again and again, God met us right where we were.-Miriam Hassova

 

No Other Love.

I found this on Quora and it reminded me of Buddy and I.

Because some dogs don’t just stay by your side— They make sure you get to keep living.-Luna Grace

 

Aziz Ali

 

Apr 24

At midnight, dad called.

He said, "Your dog is not dying… he is waiting for you."

I thought he was just being emotional.

I was three hours away, busy with work… I said, "I'll come over the weekend."

Then dad said, "He's not on the bed… he's lying by the truck in the garage… waiting for the driver."

That was it… I left after hearing that.

Driving with full regret.

Rusty came to mind…

the three of us — me, dad, Rusty.

The old red truck… everywhere together.

I would drive, dad would sit beside me, Rusty was the boss of the back seat 😅

When I reached home, I went straight to the garage.

Rusty was there… stuck by the driver’s door.

Weak… barely breathing.

Dad said, "He’s been here for two days… I wanted to bring him inside, but he wouldn’t let me."

I sat close: "Hey buddy…"

His tail wagged slightly.

He knew I was there.

Then I saw…

my old jacket on the steering wheel.

Dad said, "We sit here every day at five… I put on the jacket… turn on the radio… he thinks you’re just coming."

At that moment, everything became clear.

I had moved on…

they both had stayed there.

Rusty wasn’t guarding…

he was waiting.

I got into the truck.

Put on the jacket.

Started the engine.

Dad was on the side.

We didn’t go anywhere.

The engine was just running… we were together.

I reached my hand out… placed it on Rusty’s head.

He calmed down.

Took a deep breath…

and just…

left.

Not while waiting…

but in peace 🖤

The simple truth:

we think we’ll meet later…

but for someone, we are everything.

If you get the time…

go home.

Sit for a couple of minutes.

Sometimes, that’s all it takes.

 

Wordless Wednesday.

 

Pondering For Today.

 

El Cruncho.

Yesterday I finally  got my El Cruncho  at the new taco place I've been waiting eagerly 2 weeks for and it was good except someone screwed up, either my hubby ordering it or the person who made it as it ended up being chicken even though I wanted beef and that was what was in the photo I even sent with my hubby so that he wouldn't get the wrong thing. Yesterday my hubby also took the car in to the mechanic to get the snow tires taken off as being almost May it's hopefully safe now we won't get any more snow and March  normally gets 34 mm of rain but we got over 100mm and April usually gets around 70mm and we got 115mm. The leaves are also finally open on the trees now.

I also saw this "10 years ago today" on my Facebook  and it was Buddy shortly after we got him and I just miss him so much. This photo of when he was young also made me remember how young he once was,too. When he died last YR at age 19 he hardly had much fur left and what he did have was all grey and he was blind and skinny and had a big hernia and arthritis and could barely walk and only had a couple of teeth left and looked like the well-loved well-used Velveteen Rabbit.

We also got the Smile cookies from Tim Hortons for charity and I had raspberry filled powdered donuts on the list and my hubby got yucky strawberry which he knows I hate so he either was just being stupid and didn't read the label again or he did it on purpose to piss me off, and he said the 31 YR old is still with his accountant GF and he even saw her as well and said she's short like his ex-GF was and I hope she's a better influence on him than his last one was who encouraged him to get drunk; hopefully this one doesn't even drink at all, and it always feels like my family is on one "side" too and I'm on the other, and I'm mad: I miss the news on Saturday as well as  it's pre-empted for some stupid horse race and that's one of my pet-peeves; when the regular stuff is pre-empted for crap. For one thing, the news is more  important  than a stupid horse race and besides, why can't they just put that crap on the specialty channel where it belongs? I also heard it costs something outrageous like 50$ a month for the redneck sports channels and they couldn't even pay me that much to watch it!!

I also got these daffodils  from our front garden and picked them and brought them inside( our first flowers in the house in months and I've really missed it) before someone else walking by does and my hubby said the second-oldest's cat ate a wool hat and must have an obstruction or something as it needs stomach surgery and those stupid things cost more $$$ than they're worth  and are more trouble than they're worth and the BC Girls  have 3 of them too so I can just imagine the pissy smell in their apt. with the litterboxes.,too,...just ewwwwww.... and my abdomenal pain's still sooooo baaad and yesterday I was groaning and bellowing so loudly in pain it sounded like a moose mating call and Beja was worried and kept coming over to check on me to see I was ok and giving me kisses. Isn't he just so sweet?

I also saw this photo and it reminded me of the 80s and a happy time in my life I miss and a time I still had hope and a future in my life, and I don't think there should be any age limit to girls & women to be able to wear tutus and feel like princesses, and yesterday Beja threw his bone at my hubby a couple of times telling him to play and he snapped, "You're not MY dog!" which made me sad as he likes playing with him and it makes him happy and I don't mind, just as long as he loves me the most because he is  mine and wanting my dog to love me more than anyone else isn't too much to ask. I also saw a photo of the toy below and it brought back happy memories both because I had it as a baby 

and so did my kids but now all the good things/times are just distant memories in the past.

“What's wrong with you lately? You seem to be checked out and not yourself.” Me: I'm grieving a life I thought I would have, battling stuff that no one knows about, and craving a future that I don't think exists for me, so yeah I'm pretty checked out. I'm fine though.-

 

Wednesday Words.

Yeah....Meghan.

Gotta love The Floyd.

A stubby nubby!

Love can transform everything to beautiful.

HA! This is somewhere in Canada as I recognize the stores.

I often dream I sail through the sky I've always wished I could fly The simple life of a bird on the wing Oh Lord, I could sing Hey, take me away Come on, fly me away Pick me up so high Where eagles fly, oh yeah.-Sammy Hagar

Orange sweetheart roses were my mother's fave.

At least the crusts are useful to feed the birds.

We were feral.

I miss the version of me that used to get excited about life. now I feel like surviving, not living.-Resko

We're all homesick for a place that doesnt exist anymore. Our friends, the music, the memories, the slow summers. We had it so good and didn't even know it.-ChrisX

A small part of me has hope it’ll come back, but it’s just nostalgia. We all know those days are gone.-JessAM

Having parents who didn’t prepare you for literally anything in life, judging you for being “behind” as an adult is definitely a canon event for a lot of neurodivergent people.-D