Pondering For Today.

 

The Orange Jeep.

Every night watching the news I always keep seeing this used car commercial and I see this light orange Jeep(similar to the one pictured here) and I just *love* that thing! It would be the perfect car for me(except for the fact that I don't drive, that is) but if I did (and I had 70K or so) I would buy it. Maybe when I die and get on the Other Side( and all dreams come true) I can finally drive the orange Jeep? I also love the blue Mustang with the thick black stripe on the hood, a silver Jaguar, a gold Rolls Royce, and a purple Lambo. 

I know, I know, I like to roll in style.😂

Today we're also forecasted to get 5-15 cm of snow( now most of the snow has all melted away and gone!) and more again Sunday and Monday but then rain later so it won't last for long and my hubby has to go in to Toronto for work on Wednesday for someone retiring and they're having a party and then Thursday he leaves for his chess tournament in Quebec.

I also had this weird dream last night this guy was "interested" in me( in real life only my hubby ever was) and he'd killed his first wife so I had to re-connect with people who have my back and I know could protect me, just in case.

My normally docile, quiet, sweet, loving Chihuahua also goes apeshit and barks like crazy and morphs into this fierce beast when he goes outside and hears other dogs barking and he's like Jeckyll and Hyde,ha,ha, and I found out the Academy Awards are on this Sunday as well and I haven't even heard of ANY of the movies up for Best Picture so either they must really be scraping the bottom of the barrel this year or I'm just out of touch (but my hubby doesn't,either, so it's not just me), or maybe both. It's also a sad fact of life to realize that no one really cares; not the nurse at the hospital, not the priest at church, not the cop at the crime scene, not the cashier at the store, etc.

Nobody.

Nobody cares if you get well, if you feel better, if you are ok, if you have a nice day,etc.

It's just a job.

I feel like this life is really just over.-Mari

 

Chuckle For The Day.

 

My Frozen Ass.

Last night I still had my bedroom window open from the night before as it was 10 C when I went to bed....

.....except the temp dropped during the night and woke me up from 1 am freezing my ass off!

It got to -2C but was really windy and felt like - 9C but I was so sleepy and groggy and comfy in my bed (and luckily I was wearing a hoodie so I could put the hood up over my head for added warmth)I didn't want to get up and out from under the warm blankets(Beja and I were really snuggled down under every blanket I had) and get up and freeze even more to close the window so we just froze our asses off for the next few hours until I got up. Yesterday I saw my first robin ( a sign of spring) as well, hiding under a car for shelter from the rain(and it was a Gutter Washer!) and spring is almost here ( next week!) we almost made it (it was a loooong winter!)and just have to hold on for a bit longer but we're supposed to get 5-10 cm of snow tomorrow so winter is just reminding us that it's not quite done yet.

Yesterday I also headbanged to Quiet Riot which I still remember(and smile at the memory) was the official band of my grade 10 math class and in doing so I also "un-kinked" my stiff sore neck and it felt better,  and laugh remembering before when I used to wear make-up it makes me think of that expression "You can't put lipstick on a pig" and it makes me wonder as well if maybe I might have pancreatic cancer as the symptoms are similar to liver issues and it "hides" and is hard to detect and diagnose until the final stages? My back pain isn't just the typical back pain,either; it's sooooo bad I just want to scream.

Heart tired , mind tired , body tired and soul tired . I'm literally just tired.-AJoke

 

Thursday Thoughts.

If you want to destroy a nation, destroy the thinking of its youth. -Vladimir Lenin

The concert, a restaurant, travel, etc.

Go solo.

I cannot wait to be freed from living in survival mode.-D

Judgment Day is coming, and none of them are escaping.-Sovereign Brah

I'm so uncomfortable all the time it’s like I just don’t belong here.-Fluttershy

Waking up is so disappointing.. please I want to die in my sleep..-Baby

“If you remain silent when you see injustice, you stand on the side of the oppressor.” - Che Guevara

What the fuck am I doing wrong that I am unable to be loved.-D

What is it called when you can’t take it anymore but you keep taking it?-User000000

In all honesty I just wanna give up.-Anxiety

The devil couldn't reach me so he made me feel like I didn't belong with anyone or anywhere.-Ev

Kinda lost passion for "life" a while ago. I am doing my best to have fun in the mean time but the truth is that I just remain fundamentally depressed. whenever it gets too much, I will end it.-Oluchukwu

You don't realize how lonely you are until it's the end of the day and you have a bunch of things to talk about, but no one to tell them to.-Anxiety