Musing For The Day.

 

Crack-ass Motherf*cker.

Yesterday it got up to a balmy 17 C and Beja and I got to sit outside for 2 HRS; an hour in the morning and an hour in the afternoon! I even got a bit of red on my face! I even brought my fold-up lounge chair  out of winter hibernation(shown below) for the spring/summer season and at 3 am we had a biiiiiig storm that woke me up with lots of loud thunder and lightning and we got 36mm of rain in just an hour and  it's raining all day today as well and possibly another storm this afternoon and we have a flood warning as well.

Beja also loves this certain kind of turkey( and it has  to be that one as he's a diva) and I joke for him it's like crack because he's so addicted to it and his eyes even glaze over when he gets it  so I joke he's a Crack-ass motherf*cker.

This morning one of the radio DJs also said he just took down his outdoor Christmas lights yesterday  and the other DJ said people like him that leave them up so long are urban rednecks  and it made me laugh so hard,  and it's almost Easter and I think it would be poignant if I died this week,too, during Holy Week and I heard Stairway To Heaven twice; once yesterday and again this morning as well.

People(mostly Americans, of course) are also mad the Pope said that God doesn't answer the prayers of war mongers but what did they think? Jesus was for love and peace  and love thy neighbour and God commands Thou shall not kill. Why would  He answer prayers to help you kill your enemies and wage war? Duuuh.

I also re-made the Whitesnake song Cheap 'an Nasty  to Your Teeth Are Nasty  and Foreigner's Urgent  as Virgin  and now the kids are all grown and moved out I still need someone  to give my maternal love to and that's why I'm grateful and thankful for my dog. I need someone to hug, kiss, love, spoil, dote on, keep me company, love me back, cuddle, talk to, care for, and live for ,and even though I will always love and miss Buddy I love Beja with all my heart and I'm glad God sent him to me.

So, that evening, despite my shock, sorrow, and pain, I realized and accepted the fact that it was his time to go.-Rashi Rosenzweig

 

Autism Gets Real.

I found this on Quora  and it's SPOT ON.

I can sooooo relate to it, except for the math genius thing. 😂

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Can mild autism be diagnosed before reaching teenage years?

Mild autism doesn't exist. I would know.

I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome (back when that was the diagnosis) at age 12. I suspect that had I not been doing high school level schoolwork and homeschooled at the time (as well as having been reading on a college level since elementary school) the diagnosis would have been different, as I am now recognized as Level 2 autistic in many of my support needs. I am unable to live alone, work a traditional job, or manage many of my daily needs.

I can mask well enough to appear “normal” for short periods of time such as shopping or going to doctor appointments. I then go mute for the entire ride home and need hours of low sensory impact to recover from going to an appointment or running errands. I have been told I am overly blunt, naive, and somehow simultaneously a genius and an idiot. I fit the classic “idiot savant” autism archetype in many ways. I can do quadratic equations in my head and know how to write numbers in binary, but also can't tell left from right a lot of the time and can't read an analog clock.

So, if you go by the psychiatrist who assessed me, I'm “mildly autistic”. If you go by the fact that I have the same support needs now as at twelve years old, I'm level 2. If my IQ wasn't 150, my genuine impairment in everything other than logical reasoning would have been blatantly obvious. Instead I had a mental breakdown after one semester of university that I now recognize as autistic burnout, and dropped out before I was a legal adult with a GPA of 1.8 After being admitted to the Honors College due to my test scores. And being repeatedly told by everyone my entire childhood that I was going to thrive in college due to my intelligence.

The truth is, most people who seem “mildly autistic” are just really good at masking. They learn early on that people instinctively find them off-putting and hide everything about themselves that causes that reaction, usually for decades until they can't maintain it anymore and experience burnout. My burnout just happened as soon as I had any level of independence thrust upon me at all and the true extent of my disability became clear once school became more than just knowledge acquisition and standardized tests and writing essays. Once I was responsible for managing my own schedule, advocating for my own needs, and there was no IEP or monitor teacher to help me with any of it.

My parents realized I needed to be taught how to be human after I completely failed at higher education so I took classes for disabled people on how to live independently and interact in the world. My parents had guardianship of me until I was 20 years old when it was determined I was able to look after my own health and finances, but I've never been able to live by myself. I live with my partner now, but I lived with my parents until I was 28.

My cousin has a son who is autistic. He didn't speak until he was four years old. I suspect by the time he is a teenager he will present as “mildly autistic”. Since he was diagnosed when he was nonspeaking, he gets the support I never got as a hyperlexic “genius”. An eidetic memory, endless masking, and a high IQ aren't as indicative of an autistic person's capacity for traditional “success” as recognizing their autism as an actual disability not a superpower.

 

Today's Truth.

 

Irani.

This is all that's left of the snow in our backyard now but this was yesterday and there's even less now. Beja and I were even able to be outside yesterday for 30 minutes( it was 7C) until the sun went in and it got windy and cold but at least it was something  and it felt really good  to get outside and get fresh air and sun. Today it's supposed to get up to a niiiiice 15C so we can be out even longer but tomorrow LOTS of shitty, yucky rain and maybe even a storm.

Shit.

But we just take what we can get and enjoy it while it lasts.

My hubby also made me laugh: you know how people from Iraq are called Iraqi? Well, he thought people from Iran were called Irani!

I just laughed soooo hard!

 Irani? 

Are you kidding me?

😂😂😂😂

 After laughing I told him it's actually Iranian , or maybe even Persian but certainly not Irani. That was just too funny though.

I also have a bad feeling USA is planning a ground invasion of Iran any time soon as they've sent several naval warships to the Persian Gulf region and someone online said how their sister who is in the US  navy has been deployed to Iran for 10 months as have thousands of others....which doesn't look good...

This is also my widdle baby and yesterday was Palm Sunday already and I didn't really even realize until I heard it on the news and it just "snuck" up so quickly this year and next Sunday is Easter already so just one more fasting Lenten Friday left now. I almost made it! I also realized that my 2 friends from the old church who had their babies the same time the 24(soon-to-be 25) YR old was born that those "babies" would now be almost 25(and possibly even parents themselves now!) and it just blew me away. Where has the time gone? I've also only left the house a handful of times since Buddy died almost a year ago and this time last year he was still alive....but then just a week later he was gone. 😭

Tomorrow isn't promised.

Yesterday as I was listening to Bob Marley the song Jammin' played and it made me sad as that was my mother's fave. Bob Marley song and she's always sing along with it(like I do) and add, We be jammin'"  and now she's gone and my hubby said the 26 YR old's fave. childhood toy  Huggy-Fish is a girl,too, and all this time I thought it was a boy, I guess mainly due to the blue, yellow, and red colours; if it was a girl I'd expect it to be pink or purple, or pastel colours, and my fave. childhood toy was a boy, and I'd estimate my toys were 50% girls and 50% boys, depending on their looks and colours and I named them all,too, just like she does.  I also heard there was a local fire( also electrical just like ours was) and pets died (just like how our Pug did in our fire) but then I heard they were just cats and I was relieved, like Whew! If they were dogs though I would have been sad.

Jesus didn’t call Christians to fight on His behalf. He called us to stand with the vulnerable, the oppressed, and the marginalized. let’s be clear.-Sunday

 

Monday Memes.

I was dreaming of the past, Why do good times never last Help me Jesus, show the way I can't hold on another day.-Whitesnake

We live in a country where everyone s dream is to leave the country. Canada.-Sweet Marie

Life for me and every decision I have ever made has always been about surviving, running, hiding, keeping secrets,looking over my shoulder, and trying to recover.

My fave. was the pink one.

I was just always rejected & bullied and told I was "weird". I just knew I was different and didn't fit in. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 45.

Most of us will spend our entire lives being average at everything and that's totally okay.-Hallo Werner

I just realized... Canada IS the annoying blue-haired, septum ring wearing, activist of the ENTIRE world.-Tablesalt

Fly on your way, like an eagle Fly as high as the sun On your way, like an eagle Fly and touch the sun.-Iron Maiden

We fully support Spain and their move to respect international law and tell the United States to fuck off.-YourAnonCentral

Adulthood,too.

Even if they are family.

Weirded out by homes with no pets. Like where is your creature?-Soleil

As long as I have sun, music, weed, my dog, and chocolate I don't need anything else.

If suicide isn't the answer what is.-Polyblank

TRULY starting to think we are living in end times and the Anti-Christ has been revealed.-The Patriotic Blonde

"Everything else can wait, but the search for God cannot wait, and love one another."-George Harrison

I’m really starting to understand why my grandma used to just go outside and sit on the porch swing alone with a cup of tea and stare into the void.-Collins Timbella

“If you remain silent when you see injustice, you stand on the side of the oppressor.” - Che Guevara

People become LONERS because they have been betrayed by everyone they TRUSTED.-Ja Leto

The Four Horsemen Of The Apocalypse

Stop asking, "why are they doing this to us?" Start asking, "why are we allowing it!?"-RabbitHoleBot