Today's Musing.

 

Regrets.

It still makes me sad remembering my BFF didn't marry the love of her life but instead married another guy her mother pressured her to marry because he was "richer", even though her BF ended up to be an engineer and did well. He later went on to marry someone else and have kids and she eventually divorced and ended up alone and her mother, on her deathbed, admitted she was wrong and apologized but by then it was too late. I think the biggest regrets are the things we've said and done that can never be taken back. We also all deal with our traumas differently and in our own different ways. Yesterday I heard someone on TV say to another, "You make it hard for people to care about you" and that really hit me. I also had my right eye itchy and watery yesterday and then later it felt like I was being stabbed behind my left eye and this morning I was woken by a baaaaaad throbbing headache all over.

I also remember when I was in high school you had the option to graduate after grade 12 or grade 13 and I chose grade 12 because I hated school and couldn't wait to get out  of there and I certainly didn't want to do an extra  year but my hubby, being the nerd that he is loved it and did the grade 13, and then the year after I graduated they did away with grade 13. I also took a "Gap year" off from when I graduated until I went to Post Secondary as I needed a break. Now they're even thinking of bringing grade 13 back. I also found a 2$ coin in the laundry basket so that'll be my tip for doing laundry.

My hubby also told me the kids still ask him for $$$ too, even though they're adults in their 20s and 30s and have jobs and their own lives and we can't support them for their entire lives and are only legally obligated to until they're 18 and someone online said I'm a "bad mother" for NOT doing so and rent is 50% of their income and they can't afford to live and do I want my kids to starve and die, etc... but life is also expensive for parents too  and we also have bills and expenses that we can barely afford and we're so short on $$$ we can't even get house repairs done so we don't have any extra to give! Some parents are lucky and do well financially an can help up their grown kids but we're not one of them! 

You also hear lots lately about 12 and 13 YR olds getting arrested for crimes and my guess is because kids just aren't disciplined anymore these days because parents are afraid  to, afraid if they DO that the child welfare authorities will take their kids away and so now we have this society of lawless uncivilized kids that have no respect and are out of control.

I know, I don't ask for permission This is my chance to fly Maybe enough ain't enough for you But it's my turn at a try.-Van Halen

 

Weekend Words.

I do, but my neighbours don't seem to appreciate it.

I was 22 when I had my first child.

Alone again, it's always the same I've just been marking my time Since the day I was born With no one to blame.-Whitesnake