Today's Musing.

 

Last Of The Dozen.

Yesterday I drank the last of my 12 bottles of Jarritos  mango Mexican sodas. My hubby got them awhile ago on sale, such a great value they're likely clearing them out and I finished the last one off yesterday. I really loooove those things. I also heard Stairway To Heaven  and saw my Angel Bird again. That's 2 days in a row!

The 31 YR old also made the Dean's List, being either the 3rd or 4th(I forgot) of our kids to do so and my hubby said he got disqualified for 3 of his games at the chess tournament over the weekend as well and for stupid reasons: for one he ran out of time on the clock, another for an illegal move, and the other he forgot to turn off his phone (duuh!) and the kids kept calling him constantly back-to-back and being disruptive.

I swear, his stupid phone always gets him into soooo much trouble and he can never put it down and for some one so smart he can be really stupid! He also said Montreal got a shitload of rain and grumbled my belated Mother's Day gift was 40$ "just" for chocolates but I can still remember that time he  spent 100$ just on one dart.

I also got these cool photos of the clouds and sun yesterday  and one of my Facebook friends her daughter(age 27) was killed in a car accident and as if that wasn't bad enough her other daughter died 9 years ago as well due to medical issues. How come some people get all the horrible things happen to them over and over again( like her and us) and yet others just seem to coast thru life effortlessly? My "Little" Cousin( 9 years younger than me)  and I were also talking and she said when her daughter had her baby in early May she was born 8 weeks premature( like I had suspected, and explains the feeding tube) at just 32 weeks and weighed 4 pounds 14 oz(which is actually quite good ,almost 5 pounds, for so early, but she's also diabetic, and they tend to have large babies and had she gone full term likely weighed 11-12 pounds) and my poor cousins was really hemmoraging,just like I always do with all my births as well, making me wonder if there's some sort of bleeding disorder in our family, and the baby just came home from the NICU on Sunday, so I guess this must be the Bad Luck Thing that happened in our family this May then.

It's also Pride month and I saw online that even alot of regular gays  aren't into it and are even embarrassed by it as it makes them all look bad and I think it's mostly just the freaks, perverts and fetishists that really  celebrate it but the normal ones  that just happen to be gay  and just want to quietly live their lives and not publically display and flaunt their sexuality or make it their entire identity avoid it. Below is also the ridiculous address to mail my passport application, with no actual street address or number  and the passport costs 163$ now and with the 25$ photo it'll end up almost 200$, and I don't know why my hubby prefers I go down there to do it as opposed to mailing it reg'd since either way he still has to drive me either way and my final act of love is letting the kids go and setting them free and not interfering in their lives anymore.

 

The wrinkles around her eyes betrayed decades of a life that had not been lived, only endured.

Tuesday Thoughts.

Maybe I just have to accept the fact that I'm autistic & bipolar and people don't like me?

I’m genuinely depressed about the state of the world right now. It feels like bad people are winning everywhere.-OrevaZSN

Some people aren't meant to be alive.-a

Does anyone know how to get the light back into my eyes?-Zoe

Bro, it’s the weed unlocking the full mix those hidden vocals and layers were always there, you just weren’t tuned in yet .-Bintu

People who go on solo trips not scared of nothing.-Nithya Shri

Depending on other people will only disappoint you.

The more I am familiar with my own shadow, the less I judge others.-Dr. K Inner Flame

Personally, I've never been ashamed of being ill, and I don't see why I should be, but for many, the diagnosis is the end of the world.-Alastair MacClean

Use menopause rage to change the world.-Eileen.M. Gormley

I actually just hate my life.-Anxiety

You’re never wasting money when you’re taking a good trip, eating some good food, and experiencing some good scenery. enjoy life you can’t take the money with you.-NorthsideBP