Daily Pondering.

 

Love Story.

I'm watching the FX 9 part series Love Story: John .F& Kennedy Jr. & Carolyn Bessette. I saw the previews and liked it and I remember them from the 90's so decided to watch it. So far I've seen 7 out of the 9 episodes and I like it. Yesterday I had a "marathon" watching it. This is one series where I already know the ending ahead of time.(They die in a plane crash in 1999 at ages 33 and 38 years old along with her sister.) I always thought he was handsome and I liked her "minimalist" style: her hair put back in a simple bun, bright red lipstick but "bare" face otherwise and she had such beautiful eyes. 

The show also showed how she felt out of place at Kennedy family events and both JFK JR's mother Jackie and aunt Ethel weren't nice to Carolyn and both were bitches and seemed to have their own rivalry going on between them with Ethel( what an awful name, I know, the poor woman!) feeling "inferior" to Jackie( being homely-looking although I never thought Jackie was really that "pretty",either, but she was sophistocated and elegant), yet Ethel was gifted with 11 children and Jackie only had 2 ( she had 2 that died as infants and several miscarriages) so they both were blessed only in different ways.

Both of them were also portrayed as not too "bright" as it took him 4 tries to pass the Bar Exam to get his law degree and she was clueless when it came to politics and world events ; the typical beautiful but "shallow" people, and they also made Daryl Hannah (his former GF) seem "flaky" and Jackie was mean and rude to her as well and didn't like or "approve" of her just for being an actress and John really wasn't "free" to get married until his mother died as she never would have "approved" of ANY woman "good" enough for her son. His sister Caroline also was portrayed as a bitch(but her hubby Ed seemed ok) and the Kennedy family in general just seems to be a nightmare although John's cousin( and best friend)Anthony seemed nice and it's sad he died of cancer at age 40, but at least it was some "consolation" that they both died just months apart the same year.

Their story also reminds me of Princess Diana: how she had to basically give up her identity ,job,and privacy and previous life once she married a high-profile famous man and she was hounded by the press and it drove her to tears and it made poor Carolyn a virtual recluse in her own home. Their story also reminds me of Prince Harry; how his wife was also a "refuge" of a sorts, an "escape" and a breath of fresh air away from his stifling demanding family.

.It wasn't the fantasy "Fairy Tale" that everyone seems to make it out to be.

Life is tragic no matter WHO you are, or how privileged you are, and good things never last.

If life were a symphony I would be a soloist.

 

Laff For The Day.

 

Doy!

Yesterday I had my hubby pick me up something I needed for dinner tomorrow at the grocery which he did...and then when I checked the upstairs freezer I then noticed that I already had  it ( so now I had two of them)so I'd already put it there but forgot....and if that wasn't bad enough I also thought I was running out of thyme( it's a spice) I need for my Epic Meatball Stew so I had him pick that up,too....which he also did....and then later he found out we had 2 more  of them elsewhere for re-fills!

Doy! Doy! Doy!

I'm just sooooo stupid! 😖

Of course I never told him. 

My brain is just getting worse and worse all the time.

He also made chicken wings last night and gave himself and the youngest 7 wings each and only gave me 3.(When I do it I divide it out equally.)

I felt like a dog begging for table-scraps.

Today it's also starting off going up to 15C and LOTS of rain( maybe even a thunderstorm) and then a 90 KM wind and dropping down and 10cm of snow and -18 C tomorrow The weather has just been soooooo f*cked-up lately. Yesterday was also the Ides Of March the day Caesar was killed by the Senate, and it's a good reminder that guys should always listen to their wives as if he had only listened to his wife and the dream she had warning him he wouldn't have likely been killed. I have this recurring dream as well I'm on the Other Side in an art class with the same female art teacher but in each dream working on a different art project, but always either painting or pottery. I wonder what it means?

They also did have the pro-Palestinian rally in Toronto afterall....and only 2 people arrested and they were the counter protesters on the Israeli side, and Beja kept scratching and licking his feet so I gave him a bath and then he did the Zoomies  all over the house but I miss his smell.

 I like his smell; he smelled like Fritos corn chips.

I already know I’m going to commit suicide in the future, it’s just a matter of when.-Koro

 

Monday Memes.

My therapist told me this, and it changed my life: “You're not healing to be able to handle trauma, pain, anxiety, depression. You're used to those. You're healing to be able to handle joy and to accept happiness back into your life.”-LoveAndFear

What I'm giving up for Lent this year is all hope of me ever being pretty, happy, thin, loved, smart, rich, good enough, worthy, sane, etc. and I've had lots of practice!

Not every day feels heavy. Some days start out light and beautiful, and then suddenly a memory hits and reminds you that your best friend is gone and isn’t coming back.-Yazmine Wall

Loss was carried silently, folded into the rhythm of daily survival.-Meen KS

I look to the sea Reflections in the waves, spark my memory Some happy, some sad I think of childhood friends and the dreams we had We lived happily forever So the story goes But somehow we missed out On the pot of gold But we'll try, best that we can To carry on,-Styx

Sometimes, survival looks shocking to us—because it was never meant to be beautiful, only effective.-Jamie Perillo

That's an insult to a plant.

He's the Anti-Christ.

Parenting tip: just play dead and hope they leave you alone.

Lebanon,too.

Or pronouns.

You're ugly,face it, that's the truth,but you are a survivor,a warrior, you are fierce, brave, strong, you have a good sense of humor, a good sense of right & wrong, you are loyal, have a strong faith,& no matter how many times life kicks you down you keep getting back up again.

The only constant thing in my life, is the feeling of wanting to die.-Anxiety