Daily Pondering.

 

Pocket Pet.

Beja( who is my little pocket pet) can(and I don't know how) somehow tell time. He always seems to know when it's time to go outside, when it's time for nap, time for my hubby to finish work, time for bed, etc. and he'll get ready and bark at you if you're late. It's just the funniest thing ever. I've always loved dogs,too, for as long as I can remember, ever since I was 3-4 years old. Yesterday I also heard my first cicada of the summer and it's one of my fave. summer sounds. I used to think before the sound was from overhead wires buzzing in the heat once it got to 30C or hotter. Yesterday tanning I was also so hot I almost used up my entire big spritz water bottle (I usually just end up using half each day) and then found out it was 25C but with a humidex of 34C so that's why I was sweating so much! Today we're getting a storm in the afternoon and evening and later next week 3 more days of ungodly heat back again feeling into the 40Cs.

My hubby also is on call this week and has had to work during the night and he said his company has a big client and they've been told everyone will have twice as much work from now on and he's still recovering from the 2 HR time difference from when he was away as well and I'd hate to think how he'd handle an 8-12 HR time difference like I've had travelling! HA!  I also noticed an almond-sized lump on the left side of my neck near my jaw which is likely either a tumour or my lymph node but either way is an indication something's not right and my body is fighting something off,and I still have the 

agonizing abdomenal pain,too. At times I also notice my breathing is "laboured" and noisy as well and I look paler despite my tan, making me wonder if perhaps something's even bleeding in there?

USA has also attacked Iran once again, violating and ending the ceasefire, the war mongers that they are and I'm no "fan" of the Iranian regime but I'm even less of a fan of the Trump regime, and a news reporter on the nightly news I watch was fired as well for being "too aggressive" for "pestering" politicians for answers and following them down the hall.etc. even though that's what journalists are supposed to do; to chase down the story and persue the truth so they can expose it to the public; she was just doing her job  and she's now suing them for wrongful termination and I hope she wins and this would be an example of something my mother and I would have liked to discuss between us  but she's not here now and I don't have anyone else who would care or to discuss it with and it's times like this I miss her.

Run, you better run, you better run Nowhere to run, you can't get away from you.-Ozzy Osbourne

 

Wordless Wednesday.

 

Today's Truth.

 

Wednesday Words.

The more I try to stay alive, the more I feel like suicide is the only answer.-Liyu318266

I'm sick of Canada being something I have to endure.-DebbieBloodclot

I'm sorry for being me and for everything that makes me think and do the things I do.

All roads lead back to the loneliness i felt as a child.-Avianne

I now have the bedtime that my mom tried to enforce when I was a kid.-Trey

It sucks to feel unwanted.-rjcmxrell

My dog doesn't care if I've had a bad day, made mistakes, or feel like a failure. He just wants to be near me. That's real love.-Kristina Bolten

The 2 people dearest to me are gone now. Its not easy.-Paula Donatelli

The light of life flickered, guttered & died in your eyes but I have to go on. The sob that stuck in my chest exploded.-Gaynor Blackburn

If you don't want a baby, don't get pregnant.-LifeNews.com

I can't escape this hell So many times I've tried But I'm still caged inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself.-Three Days Grace

I don't actually think anyone would care if I die.-Lia

It never gets better.-CatLover1739

Have you ever been so sad that you can't even cry, you just sit there and think about how sad you really are???????????-Ritz

I feed them every day.

I hate noise, I hate crowds, I hate nosey people,I hate people at all, I hate responsibilities, I hate pressure, I hate societal norms, I hate conversations, I hate being different; I hate being useless; I hate interaction; hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehateha.-Dead

Nobody can hear you scream.-Mick Jaguar Parody

If you are a believer in the Bible, what’s happening now is just what’s in Revelation.-David Masterpol

So apart from the bullying at school, life as a near-retard is pretty normal.-Declan McCarthy