See You Next Year!

Today's Joke.

Musical Monday.

Yesterday I wanted to see the 2019 movie version of the musical Cats but I wasn't able to so instead I just watched the original 80's version of the Broadway production. I can most identify with Grizzabella the Glamour Cat, all old and faded, wounded, and cast off, with only memories of a happy time in the past left now  but now suffers a sorrowful lonely exixtance. I have always loved the song Memory as well( lyrics seen below) ever since I was a kid and when it was a bit g hit on Broadway and I can remember when I was growing up in Toronto as a kid my mother and I often went to see all the popular musicals and other theatre shows of the time, incl. Evita, Annie, Jesus Christ Superstar, etc. but we never did see Cats mainly because neither of us particularly like cats ( the animal) and are dog people although I did always like the song. My hubby,oddly, for someone who is really uncultured and didn't grow up going to the theatre etc. like I did actually likes musicals,too, but the 16 YR old doesn't and thinks they're "gay" ( used in the way we used to use it back in the 70's and 80's, not in the way it's used nowadays)  and esp. hates all the singing and dancing.

I love the song Memory. Even as a kid I found it haunting, moving and beautiful and it always gave me the goosbumps but now as an adult I can also relate to the lyrics,too. I also hope( and believe) that there are many generations of lives (and parallel lives,too) and that I can find happiness in one of them....at least I sure HOPE so.....

Memory

Elaine Paige

Midnight not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight, the withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan

Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can dream of the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

Every streetlamp seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters and the street lamp gutters
And soon
It will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn''t give in.
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Burnt out ends of…

THIS is also a photo I took of the chunks of ICE I found on the sidewalk yesterday when I took Buddy out for a walk from the freezing rain we had! They were about the size of a large fingernail! No joke! We had also sent my hubby out the other day to pick up whipping cream( also known as heavy cream) for the ambrosia ( made with real cream, mini marshmallows and chopped fruit) for New Year's....and the tool came back with- get this- a can of whipped cream! Oh, God! Can you believe it? For someone so smart he can be really stupid!!!! AAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!  I also realized when I did my pills for the week the other day in my daily pill compartment that I had accidently forgotten my Topamax pills for each day.....and maybe that's why I've had a headache every day......shit.... I'm so dumb and forgetful lately and it just keeps getting worse; my brain is declining rapidly and today after I gave Buddy his bath it just wiped me out entirely; I was all sweaty dizzy and faint and out of breath I could hardly breathe or stand and had to lay down; it will be the only thing I can do all day but I also have church thonight for New Year's Eve,too....but doing one thing a day is all I can manage lately and then I crash.

Today's Truth.

New Year's Steve.

Today is New Year's Eve Eve.

It's New Year's Steve.

Everyone got back safely yesterday and we did get the freezing rain as predicted but luckily they got out of the airspace before it hit and the 23 YR old knew someone who was driving back with 2 others so he gave her a ride and it was funny when he showed up too seeing the size of her big bag he wasn't expecting and trying to fit it in his car:

HIM: You said you had a bag, not a bag!

HER: I told you it was a hockey bag.

HIM: You didn't say it was a goalie bag!

HER: I don't even know what that is!

To be fair though, neither do I(but I assume it must have something to do with difference in size?), but it was funny to watch their exchange and to see him taking everything out of the trunk and re-arrange everything trying to make it fit; it was comical. My brother-in-law ( that lucky bastard!) also arrived in Hawaii yesterday too for the winter(he goes every year, like how my grandparents and aunts and uncles used to go to Florida and relatives in Europe spend winters in Spain) and I finally got to see the newest(and they say the last...) Star Wars movie and it was good and I liked it but I was hoping that Rey and Kylo would get together at the end, but oh, well....The 12 YR old's Christmas chocolate that he left on a shelf in the rec-room also kept disappearing too and he thought someone was stealing it(most likely the 25 YR old who is notorious for eating everyone's food) but I figured out who it was: the mice!!

After the hassle the 18 YR old also gave me for using the left-over candle she'd left behind when she moved to BC for school she never even used it once while she was here visiting and never even packed it away to take back home with her either; she just didn't want me to use it, and the 12 YR old never gave me a gift either but it wasn't the samr as with the 16 and 23 YR old not getting me anything as he only gave gifts to his siblings and not to anyone else so I wasn't the only one excluded, and he didn't know what to give either and it was my suggestion that he draw pictures for everyone so he did. He has $$$$$ but he's saving it up for his university education. He's really good at saving up $$$ too like the 16 and 23 YR old always have been, not like the 18 YR old who even spends $$$$ she doesn't have. It was funny as well when the second-oldest had her friend over and I asked her if she was just a friend or a special friend as nowadays you never know anymore, and I can still remember a time when your partner used to mean business partner and when my friend A (from Jr. High) mentioned about his partner and I asked if they were male or female and he said "male" so you can never tell....

We'll also be ordering-in Chinese food for New Year's; we used to cook turkey etc. but it's too much like Christmas and just a week after so now we have a new tradition and I'm taking down the indoor Christmas decorations today too and the 12 YR old and my hubby were also debating when the new decade starts as well; the 12 YR old says 2020 and my hubby said not until 2021 and I have no idea; I didn't even know we were even near a new decade but when in doubt I go with the 12 YR old because the kid's a little Einstein, and it turns out he was right; I checked with Google. My hubby still kept insisting that he  was right though because that's the problem with these really smart people is that they're also so incredibly arrogant and they always think they're right and can never admit or accept when they're wrong. He really needs to be humbled.

It shocked me as well the 21 YR old was telling me when he and the oldest used to live in the bad part of Edmonton before they moved into a better area they live in now  how they'd be walking home from work at 4 am and there were drugged-out crazy peope everywhere and the police were always there and they saw a stabbing once and people would approach them and try and hit them and rob them and such and one guy asked if they've ever been robbed, trying to "size" them up and they played along saying they have and the guy asked what did they do and one said, We beat the shit out of the guy. I think we killed him, didn't we? I'm not sure, but there was alot of blood.... and the guy was like, So long, man.... and staggered off into the night. My God, that's so scary! I'd like to think that my praying for them daily helps to keep them safe and I know that it does..

Separated At Birth.

Adam Driver.....

....and Keanu Reeves.

Larf For The Day.

LOVE.

Yesterday Buddy was snuggling on my chest, curled up on my heart and nestled into my neck like this and it was just so adorable and sweet I had to take photos so I could remember this sweet moment always.It just captures the love we share, the bond, the connection, closeness, trust. I've never had a dog like him and I never will. he's the best thing to ever happen to me and getting him was the best decision I ever made and the best thing I ever did.He's the best thing to ever happen in my life. I prayed to God to send someone to love me and He did. He's my best friend always and forever.

No one has ever loved me, gets me, understands me, protects me, defends me, vibes with me, connects with me, looks out for me, listens to me, cares for me, is loyal to me, is always there for me, helps me heal, is "tuned in" to me, is empathetic to me, etc. than he is. he is my soul-mate only in dog form. No one has ever loved me like he does. Thank you so much God for sending him to me, and thank you Buddy just for being you and for loving me when no one else does.

Today the rest of the guys also return home and it was a good week seeing everyone again and this morning before sunrise it was a beautiful bright pink sky as well but usually also means a storm is coming...uh.oh.....not exactly good for flying...but hopefully they'll miss it and will be OK but everyone had a good visit and it was esp. nice seeing the 20 and 21 YR olds again.

Today's Thought.

Birthday Lunch.

My birthday is exactly a week today(I'll be 53; old fart, ha, ha) and I'm old enough to know better but young enough to still do it anyway. So my mother and I went to our fave. Italain place for my early birthday lunch since my hubby was off this week and had the time to take us. It's really expensive ( it cost 88$ just for the 2 of us and we never even had any alcohol!) which is why we only go once a year. I got the chicken penne and she got veal parmsean and we got a pizza to bring home plus we shared a decadent chocolate mousse cake slice. I forgot to bring my lactose pill although I thought I did and I did plan ahead and tossed the pill bottle in the purse....except it ended up to be the wrong one; stupid idiot me accidently grabbed the wrong one; the empty one, and the waitress also forgot our straws and garlic bread ( we had to remind her) and gave me a regular cola instead of the diet I asked for and my mother still tipped her anyway (???????) but we had a good meal and still enjoyed it, not letting that ruin it for us. I'm still not fully recovered yet from the virus but at least my appetite is back so that's good enough for me.

Last night the second-oldest flew back home to Vancouver( 4-5 HR flight) and tomorrow the others go back but we're supposed to have an ice storm which, of course, may likely cancel their flights, and now everyone is sick too except for the 18 YR old ( so far...) and my friend P (from grade 6) and her BF went off to Cuba Christmas Day, to the same place I went to! I also did this huge colossal shit as well it was so big, so hard and so stuck I thought it would never come out and I pushed so hard like I was having a baby and it was- I swear to God- the size of one of those big cucumbers, the length and width, I think I must have torn my asshole, and it was bleeding. My God it was brutal.

My New Year's resolution is also to try to keep surviving and not kill myself, and my mother said the 16 YR old said something about my not getting Christmas gifts for anyone either but the reason for that is because I don't have any $$$ and I can't afford it; I have very little $$$ and everything I do have is all taken paying bills and for medication; there's nothing left for savings or spending, and I wouldn't have enough to get gifts for everyone and it wouldn't be fair to only get them for some and not everyone and I just don't have the $$$$ and even if I did( which I don't) they wouldn't use them anyway, just like the gifts I brought them back from Jamaica they never wore, not even once, so why would I spend $$$ I don't even have on stuff they'd just toss away anyway? Everyone also always rushes to help my mother when she needs help too but no one ever does to help me and they call me "lazy" when I need and ask for help but if she says "jump" they ask "how high?" and the kids always bring my hubby his drink from the fridge, for instance(and even fill them up in the fridge for him; whereas I fill up and get my own) and when I comment he's not crippled and can do it himself too he smirks, It's called helping out.....so it's just different then; the rules change depending on WHO you are.

I also wonder as well if maybe I might have some sort of neuro-muscular disease like MS, MD, or ALS or something that might explain my continuing decline in weakness, exhaustion, funny gait, falling, difficulthing with grasping and grip, balance, double vision, muscle atrophy, pain, stiffness, soreness, difficulty moving,brain fog, forgetfulness, clumsiness, etc.... it might explain alot, and it just makes me wonder.....it could be....

Daily Chuckle.

Thoughts For The Weekend.