Good Song For Me.

NO SYMPATHY by Peter Tosh:

I can't find no love
No sympathy
What kind of love
They've got for me

I'm on my way
To happiness
Where I can find
Some peace and rest

When I'm in troubles, yeah
Only me only, only me me feel the pain
No one good word of advice
From any of my so-called friends

I can't find no love
No sympathy
What kind, what kind of love
They've got for me

I'm on my way, yes
To happiness
Where I can find, where I can find
Some peace and rest

Might as well, might as well
I get out, I get out of hell
Hell could never be made for me
So I'm gonna search, search 'til I'm free

No love, no love
No sympathy
What kind, what kind of love
They've got for me

I'm on, I'm on, I'm on my way
To happiness
Where I can find, where I can find
Some peace and rest

I can't find no love
No, no sympathy
What kind, what kind, what kind of love
They got, they got, they got for me

On my way
To happiness
Where I can find, can find
Some peace and rest

I can't find no love
No sympathy
What kind, what kind
They've got for me

They don't love themselves
So they can't love no one else
They don't love themselves
So they can't love no one else

I just can't find, find, find no love
I can't find, fand, find no sympathy
I can't find, can't find, can't find no love at all
What kind of love, love, love
People got for me

I'm searchin'.

 

Daily Pondering.

 

Construction.

They say here in Canada we have 2 seasons: winter and construction and on Monday next week after the long holiday weekend they start the 3 month long reconstruction of our street, road, etc. and I took photos(seen here) of the painted markings and flags they have set up and I'll be following the ongoing process(with photos) on this blog as it progresses and they re-do new water and sewer lines and new roads and sidewalks. This is the spot I take Buddy for his walks too(and they're tearing up the entire street and the one beside it and neither of us can walk too far anymore) so I don't know what  we're going to do or where we're going to go for walks now; maybe he'll just have to go in the backyard?Yesterday and today both Buddy and I have bad abdomenal pain and shit issues and he walks around hunched over and tail down in pain so it must either be something we both ate or we're both being poisoned, and the other night in my dream I also remember calling him, Come here, Buddy Boy! and I must have been talking in my sleep and said it out loud because I remember waking up and feeling him snuggling in closer beside me. I also can't believe I've been lucky enough to have him for 8 years,esp. since he already was 8 years old when I got him and I only thought we'd have 4-5 years together so we got extra and I'm so blessed.

Yesterday my mother also had her first insulin injection and they don't come pre- ready-made in the syringe like you'd expect either but some complicated thing you'd need a degree in engineering to be able to figure out so she had my hubby read the complicated directions and assemble it for her (and will now have to do weekly, yet another thing for him to do he won't be happy about)and a pack of 6 costs close to 250$ and so it's a good thing she has 80% coverage, otherwise who could afford it? They'd just have to die, and she still hasn;t learned,either,and yesterday still had a Frosty (which is an ice-cream/milkshake thing from Wendys, still cheating on her diabetic diet, which is what got her into all this trouble in the first place, and she's "losing" it too and wrote down 'rye" first as "fri" and "dairy" as "diary" and commonly makes mistakes like that,and yesterday the guy came to inspect our house too and I felt violated and intruded upon and he was here for quite awhile,too,and wrote down alot of things and my mother said he should work as a house inspector, the guy you hire before you finalize buying a house, to make sure there's no major repairs needed.

One of my cousins also posted a photo of her son graduating and I asked if he's off to university next and commented he looks so young and she laughed and said he graduated grade 8 (which is why he looks so young!) and I thought he graduated highschool(when I graduated grade 8 we never had gowns or anything like that; just an assembly in the auditorium), and a cousin in Europe her youngest graduated highschool but unlike her brother(who is studying engineering) is NOT going on to university,and,in fact, hated school and is done with education and is working now, and someone on Twitter said as well( and it's true) that you know society is in a bad place when they'd rather kill their babies(abortion) than to not have sex, and society also tells us to wear a bra, wear sunscreen, to get vaccinated, to be Politically Correct, to defend abortion, to hate Russia, to turn away from God, to be thin, etc. none of which I do; I go my own way and always have, and tomorrow is Canada Day too but nothing to celebrate and I've never celebrated it; a Fascist shithole where our rights and freedoms are being taken away from us more and more all the time, and where Indigenous People continue to be oppressed (and I'll be wearing an orange shirt tomorrow instead in defiance of colonialism and in solidarity with Residential School victims and survivors) and it's increasingly too expensive to live.

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.-Dr.Seuss

 

Wordless Wednesday.

 

Today's Truth.

 

Snapdragons.

For the past 4 days I've been regretting not getting the bouquet of snapdragons I saw at the farmer's market on the weekend. They were assorted colours(like the ones shown here) in a Mason jar of water for a vase with a ribbon tied around it; so simple yet so elegant. I don't know why I didn't buy it at the time but I should have and I now regret it and have been thinking about it ever since.If I ever come by the opportunity again I'm going to get them! It's true if you see something you like you should get it because if you don't you will regret it. Yesterday my mother also saw her doctor( again in 3 months) and she put her cholesterol meds up 4 times her current dose and said now she also has to have insulin injections once a week(she had wanted it daily but my mother refused so she managed to convince her to weekly) as the medication isn't doing it anymore since she always cheats on her diet(and now it's caught up with her!) only the injections aren't instead of the pills but as well as.Maybe now she'll finally "wake" up and take it seriously and stop cheating although knowing her I somehow doubt it. I'm pretty sure she's depressed,too,likely not being able to do anything for herself anymore and always depending on others for help(mainly my hubby,and it annoys him  and she knows it) as all she does is lay in bed all day and has even lost interest in things she used to enjoy, such as sitting outside and being obsessed over BBQ; now she doesn't even care anymore.

As for me, lately I have bad pain in my kidney area, worse on the right side, as well as my back and abdomen, and so bad I'm restless and can't get comfortable due to the pain, and the 15 YR old finishes off grade 11(he's super-smart and skipped 2 grades) and in the fall will be in grade 12; his last year of highschool and also our last year of homeschooling, after 31 years, ever since I first taught the oldest to read when he was 2,  In my fantasy dreams I'm also the world's first flying hippo and I think maybe I should write a children's book about it and maybe call it Halina The Flying Hippo or something, and love of hippos was originally a shared interest the 19 YR old and I both had together when she was younger but now she hates them so it's just me, and on the news they said the average monthly rent of a 1-bedroom apartment in Toronto is 2400$ and that's the same as a monthly mortgage payment, and in one building they're even cruelly evicting tenants too if they have an A/C as they say it costs the landlord "too much" in electricity! WTF? I also think it's strange too with a war going on that Ukraine's Zelensky has the time to meet with so many world leaders and celebs and take photo-ops, and how much do we really know is even actually true; only what the media tells us and wants us to believe...

This morning I was also looking in the fridge for my cake and it wasn't in its usual spot but the 27 YR old had put his gnocci there instead so I figured he'd moved it as he has a habit of just tossing my stuff out of the way and putting his there when he wants the spot only I couldn't find it anywhere and my mother said she remembered seeing a cake in the garbage so I looked and sure enough there it was! I was furious and his excuse was it "expired" (which I doubt as it was just purchased 4 days ago) but even if it was he's NOT to touch other people's stuff and not to throw it out! How would he like it if I threw his food out? I hate it how everyone just always disrespects me and my shit like that all the time. I also heard on the news a teacher thought she'd dropped her 23 month old off at daycare before she went to work but she forgot in the hectic  rush of things and accidently left him in the car all day and when she got out of work found he was still in there,dead from the heat! I can't even imagine  the guilt she's going to have to live with for the rest of her life, the poor woman, and everyone's going to judge her and  blame her(even though it was an accident) like people always do with mothers and it'll likely break up her marriage and she'll lose friends(now when she needs support the most) and have Child Welfare involved and if she has other kids they'll take them,too,maybe even be criminally charged or go to jail, and her entire life is just over now and she won't be able to live with herself and will likely end up committing suicide. it's all just so tragic and sad.

Now we(and others all down our street) also have various coloured flags all over our lawn and painted markings on the road indicating to the construction guys where to and where NOT to dig next week when they start the reconstructions, indictating where the gas, water, and sewage lines are buried and a guy knocked on our door and also said they have to come into our house as well (I find intrusive!) to inspect and see if we have any cracks and damage( such as the cracks in our window and wall) before they start work with their cranes and jackhammers and the other day I was out the back suntanning and my hubby came and asked if I was 'decent" and I said, Of course I'm decent! Who said I was indecent? but he meant was I dressed or semi-dressed as sometimes I suntan topless and then I noticed a guy with him wearing a bright orange construction vest and he startled me and I sat up pulling my top up over to cover myself and shrieked, Oh, my God! and he said, That's what I mean!  and I quickly covered up, not wanting to scare the poor guy off  running down the street screaming as there's just some things that you can't un-see.

How nice--to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive.-Kurt Vonnegut.

 

Thought For The Day.

 

Thoughts For Tuesday.

When she stopped loving me it broke my heart.

Don't have kids,either.

That's how he kisses me.(just not after he licked his ass,though!)

Always and forever.

I may never be a beautiful butterfly, but moths can fly,too.

 

Musing For Today.

 

That's Disgusting!

Things that I think are disgusting and/or gross me out:

really long nails(like the ones seen here). Long nails are nice, but when they're too long, when they look like claws, like talons, like they can scoop up prey, like Dragon Lady nailsthen they're just plain nasty and gross, and according to surveys most men do NOT find them attractive or appealing in any way and,in fact, are grossed-out and turned off by them. Just don't. Seriously, it is NOT a nice look, and besides, how do you ever wipe your ass, do up a button or zipper, wash dishes, change a diaper, open a can of pop, or do much of anything?

This vulgar display shown above and below. I really feel badly for the poor kids.

Parent Of The Year right there folks.

it also "gets" me now how celebs are coming out with their abortion stories, even "proud" having killed their babies, wanting praise for it, thinking it's "cool" and acting like they deserve a trophy for it or something.

Just despicable. Any society that sacrifices its own children(and then brags about it!) is beyond evil.

False eyelashes that look like giraffe lashes. Sooo gross and trashy. If you want to look cheap this is the way to go. Just nasty.

Slutty Barbie dolls! 

Just noooooooo!!!! Ewwww!

Stop sexualizing our kids! Just let them be kids ! Kindergarten kids do NOT need to know how to put condoms on bananas, or shove cucumbers up their ass, or know about oral sex, etc. Stop perverting kids! No wonder kids are sexually active9and teen moms!) so young; they're exposed and corrupted so young! Just leave the kids alone!

As well, yesterday I also ate tiny little baby wild strawberries we had growing in our lawn, and The Dancer across the street the squirrels, birds, rabbits, raccoons, or whatever got into her nice new garden and ruined some of her flowers already and I know  we have to co-exist with wildlife but why do they have to always be so destructive, esp. ruining such beautiful things like flowers that bring us so much enjoyment, and the other day I saw a little kid on a leash and I was tempted to ask if it was a Rescue but I didn't as the mother might get offended, and Buddy likes seeing his friends and I do,too(I originally used to call The Crazy Dogs before I knew their actual names because they bark like crazy) as their hooman is the closest thing I have to a friend(other than online) and I wonder as well if dogs like to lick sweaty stinky feet because it tastes like salt & vinegar, and I had a dream Bam Margera died I hope not and as far as I know he's still in rehab.  I also get short of breath at times and notice I make a "squeaking" sound when I inhale,and I was running out of coconut oil (I use as a moisturizer)and had my hubby pick me up some and usually I get a jar just over 400 ml but this time he found one over 2 L!😀 Usually he gets the wrong thing(don't even get me started on the Chicken Alfredo story!) but this time he did good!

If I was meant to be controlled I'd come with a remote.