Summer.

This is my sunflower, now towering even taller than I am, soon to have a flower opening up! Yesterday we had another big storm like the day before and Buddy and I were sitting outside and I could tell by the clouds it was imminemt, as in right over us and coming in fast and furious so I hurriedly packed up all my shit( the patio cushions, the clock, etc.) and we quickly ran inside.....and within less than a minute the first roaring clap of thunder boomed! How is that  for perfect timing? It lasted for almost 90 minutes too which is impressive as thunderstorms usually last under an hour. It was heavy bouncing rain, a gutter-washer, but the poor grass really needed it though it was so hard, dry,and brown. Toronto even got hail!

My mother also said she's dizzy and sweaty as well and I fear it could be leading up to a heart-attack, esp. since her BP still continues to be high and my left leg also feels, I don't even know how to quite describe it except for maybe tingly, numb, or maybe a pinched nerve or something, it's really weird, and the Pink-Eye is still just as bad too and I'm driven crazy with the itch,and, of course, I have the same chronic daily bad abdomenal and back pain which I don't even bother to mention that often because now it's just a usual daily thing I've come to live with it's just a part of my usual daily life now.My hubby also has a week off for summer vacation this week and next week would be when I would normally go to the CNE (The "Ex") my annual summer tradition and the highlight of my entire year but it's been cancelled this year too due to the overblown "pandemic" and it just doesn't feel like summer without it.

This is also the latest photo of my Little Fox (I call him that since he's red with white on his feet now he's old, as well as on his frosty face,too; he's a distinguished old gentleman) and the 18 YR old just found out as well for her second year in school(fashion design) she has to take  MATH, the dreaded math that everybody hates and that isn't her strongest subject( and unless you're some sort of genius it's generally NOT most people's strongest subject) and that'll end up bringing her "A" average waaay down and she had no idea she's ever need math  for fashion design so now it's all like Uh-oh, oh shit! and I know exactly how she feels; I could never do math, not even the basic stuff, and I would get "A's" on everything else in school and fail math and that would drag my average way down and the last year of highscool when I didn't have to take math I finally got on the Honour Roll and I would have otherwise the other years too if it weren't for the stupid math!

I was thinking as well with religion why  does it have to be man-made with all kinds of rules and regulations that dictate what you have to believe,and what you can and cannot do, and how to think, and try to change who you are, trying to fit you into this little "box" and conform to their ideals of what worshipping God should be; why can't people just worship God their own way, privately just between them and Him, the way they feel most comfortable and at ease, without man-made rules dictating how it must be done and what rules you have to follow? Why can't there be a fine balance between being yourself and being who you are and worshipping God the way you  believe and feel most comfortable with without man-made rules deciding how it should be done, without all the pressure, expectations,scrutiny, conformity, rituals, etc? There are many things in my Church, for example, that I don't agree with or that I question or doubt but my faith in God is still strong and unwavering so it causes a conflict, but when I pray alone, just He and I in private without all the rules and regulations and expectations from others there is no conflict and it's much more peaceful and all that conflict goes away.