Shopping Spree.

Now with my bipolar in an "upswing" I went on sort of an online shopping spree; I ordered the 2 items shown here; the sunflower necklace and the funky cool Dachshund statue! They were both 40-50% off and had free shipping even though from different places. They are just sooooo perfect  for me and so perfectly me  and I haven't got a treat for myself in awhile(other than the harem pants I got awhile ago) and I recently put a stop at the bank to my $$$$ being automatically transferring into my mother's account( so she can pay the bills using my $$$$) since she had been stealing from me and keeping whatever extra I had left over at the end of the month after paying all the bills(sometimes even 200$ or so!) without even telling me I had anything left(and just letting me think it all went on bills,and I never even had enough $$$ to buy my own essentials such as shampoo, deoderant,etc.) and just spending it all herself, so now I know exactly how much I have and how much is left at the end and she no longer has any access to it and I just transfer the $$$$ just needed for the bills over to her account (since the bills are all in her name) but she doesn't have access to anything else. I still can't believe she did  that though, that she actually stole $$$$ from me, her own daughter while all this time, all these years,  she led me to believe that it took ALL of my $$$$ to pay the bills and I had nothing left and I was unable to buy anything all this time, meanwhile that was where she always "found" all this "extra" $$$$ from. I feel so betrayed! I bet the next thing I'll buy online too will be a fake vaccine passport so that I can travel again!

I wonder too if I'm the only one that always has this constant non-stop ongoing monologue running in my head as I go about my daily routine and daily life, and they say you tend to find happiness and love when you're not looking so does that mean maybe I'll find it now that I've completely given up all hope then, and I wonder as well if maybe the reason God made me ugly, on The Spectrum, bipolar, etc. and saddled me with an unhappy life of abuse, bullying, rejection, exclusion, misfortune, trauma, etc, was to keep me humble and so that I would rely on Him?  The 17 YR old leaves on her 4 month adventure in just 2 more days too and even though she's the second-last kid to leave she's the one I'm going to miss the most even though I know I have to let her go and I also want her to spread her wings and fly and do what she needs to do to be happy and we had a thunderstorm last night as well at bedtime I always love as I snuggle down in bed under my covers going to sleep but Buddy hates as it scares him.

It also makes me wonder,too: how come if people are vaccinated for Coronavirus they tell them they still have to wear their masks(AKA "face diapers")? it's just a symbol of oppression and obedience is all,  and I looked further into that 13 YR old they claimed died of it too and that wasn't actally the case; she really died of pneumonia and also just happened to have COVID as well but that wasn't what killed her; she had pneumonia but her father was too late in taking her to the hospital as he was afraid they were too busy with the pandemic and by the time he finally did take her it was too late but they have to label every death as Corona to inflate the numbers and keep people scared in order to "justify" their lockdowns and other restrictive measures and pretty soon North Korea will have more freedom than we do here, and the mindless sheeple line-up for blocks and for hours for the vaccine too and I wouldn't line-up that long for anything , not even for free weed or free concert tickets! I think the real agenda might also be sterilization for population control as well, and when you consider that China and India are the 2 countries they "blame" for it and are also the world's 2 most populous countries it's NOT too far-fetched(and also considering that Bill Gates is behind the vaccines and he is well-known for his population control agenda) and I think it's an international cabal  trying to usher in the New World Order, the Great Reset, with every King, President, Prime Minister and Head of State, etc. using this "Scamdemic" to scare everyone into obedience and submission and to sterilize them thru the vaccines they claim is to "protect" them from this virus they've either completely invented or at the very least overblown...

With God by my side I fear nothing.