I Resign.

I used to be a devout ardent Catholic but now I resigned. Between the widespread pedophile priest scandal( and to make it even worse is that they didn't report it to the authorities for justice but instead covered it up and moved the offenders to other parishes to continue their horrific abuse) and the Church's involvement( along with the gov't) in the Residential Schools where over a hundred thousand Native children were abused and even killed along with some doctrinal issues I can no longer, in good conscience, remain in a church that has been infiltrated by the Smoke of Satan and that does not  reflect God's Love.  It makes me ashamed to be Catholic to tell you the truth and I want no part of it, or to be associated with it in any way. I follow God and God's Truth and there's no way that God would ever condone the abuse of children or the separation of families, or genocide, or false worship(such as venerating Saints, praying to Jesus or Mary or anyone other than God, the Trinity, etc) and I'm NOT going to just 'go thru the motions" or pretend or be a hypocrite. I go where the Holy Spirit leads me and where I can feel God's Love and His Spirit and where teachings, beliefs and actions reflect that.There is also supposed to be alot of corruption in the Vatican itself as well, certainly not fitting for a place that claims to represent God.

Yesterday I also had this massive headache that felt like I was being stabbed behind my left eye with an ice-pick and it only went away at night when I "heard" this loud "noise" but it was coming from inside my head, and then the headache went away; it was so weird, and my arthritis was also really bad yesterday as well and today the arthtitis is better but I have bad abdomenal pain. It's always something and I noticed on Buddy as well in his abdomen it was making really loud gurgling sounds and I could even see something moving in there too that looked like a big vein and he got to see his friends again this morning during his walk and the one whose name I forgot the other day is Gus; just like my father-in-law,although his real name was actually Gaston but they just called him Gus for short. My hubby also made 100$ selling the trampoline and a bunch of the kids' old toys so it's extra $$$ yet he still wouldn't give me 40$(he just kept it all for himself the greedy bastard!) so I could buy Sinead O' Conner's new book of memoirs, saying it's too expensive even though before he's always said books don't count and we can buy as many books as we want, to encourage the love of reading,but I guess not for me, even though he has more $$$ than I do and she's always been one of my fave. singers and I've followed her career right from the beginning 34 YRS ago but no one ever gives ashit about me, and this morning I was locked out of my computer,too; someone had locked me out and I didn't know what the password was and I was in a panic! WTF?Luckily I heard a whisper(must be the Holy Spirit) in my mind telling me the password( as everything I tried kept getting rejected) and it worked!

The 2 inventions I'm also most grateful for are A/C and anesthetic, and the 14 YR old is 6 feet tall and grew so much none of his clothes fit him anymore; his pants are all "floods" and his shirts are practically 'crop tops" now above his waist and his long-sleeves go inches way above his wrists but the Fascist assholes have clothing locked down as "non-essential" items and he hasn't been able to go to the barber for a haircut in 3 months either due to it.....I f*cking HATE this oppressive shithole country and it's so racist too the attack in London the other day was on purpose targeting a Muslim family simply because of their faith and at the time when I first heard of it I worried it might have been the 25 YR old who lives there as it has to be someone's child; I just hoped it wasn't mine, and and the other day I saw someone describe themselves it sounded just like me,too: old fat ball of jelly, and for me anyway the greatest pleasures in life are:

Eating

Sleeping

F*cking

Weed

Music

The warmth of the sun

Dog love

Floating on ocean waves

Flying

Chocolate

All things must pass- George Harrison