These are peonies from our garden in the backyard. That's all we have this year. Normally we have alot more but my dingus hubby killed most of the peony bush last year by either running it over with the lawn mower or the weed-whacker and this is all that survived, just a small amount enough to create 4 blooms. Dumb-ass! A few years ago he also pulled out all of my Lily Of The Valley flowers(I had dozens,too!) every single one of them too, thinking they were weeds! How can the moron not tell the difference between flowers and weeds? I mean, seriously? For someone so smart he can be so stupid!!!!!(and they think that I'm the dumb one?) Yesterday I also saw half a dead bird carcass out on the grass. probably a cat. I hate cats. Cats are such assholes and I saw the biggest dumbest-looking redneck walking down the street yesterday,too: wearing a cowboy hat and a mask!This hick-town is sooo white-trash too even the women drive pick-up trucks and I never did like this country,either, but now with more details of the Residential Schools coming to light and the Fascist lockdowns and loss of our rights and freedoms during the Scamdemic now I absolutely really honestly hate, despise, abhor, and am completely disgusted by it and am even more desperate to leave it than ever, all I need is $$$$! They're opening up in stages too, all tied to vaccine levels, so basically blackmailing the Sheeple; if you want so much open 70% have to be vaccinated, if you want more open, then 80% and so it goes. This is NOT the kind of country I want to live in and I won't live under oppression and tyranny. Other countries have opened back up and have freedom back but not us....
LIVE FREE OR DIE!!!!
The 14 YR old went over to his friend's house to swim yesterday too since our pool's never going to be open and it's his chore to put the groceries away and instead of leaving it for when he came home my mother put it away for him, always over-indulging and pampering him, yet when the 18 YR old was here and working on grocery day and it was her job to put groceries away and I suggested that since she worked all day it would be nice if someone else(such as the 14 YR old) put them away for her after a long day at work so she wouldn't have to come home after a long day at work and have to do more work my mother got mad, balked and raged, and left them until she came back and still made her do it saying it's her job! but of course different rules for her precious little Prince, and she doesn't want him to have to do any work and always tries to get him out of it or just does it herself and when I said he's old enough she actually had the nerve to claim that he does the most work of everyone(HA!) and my hubby even backed her up,too, because he pampers and excuses him too and also because he doesn't have the balls to stand up to her!I'm always all alone out here...
Buddy was also all day yesterday and the night before at bedtime all agitated and restless and he kept pacing and trembling like when he's scared and he kept looking ahead as if on alert, like he saw or heard something but I didn't, so is he perhaps sensing something bad coming? We are supposed to have a bad thunderstorm today or tomorrow so maybe it's that? He scared the shit out of me the other day too when he passed-out in the heat and I thought he was dying, and when he dies I die too as he's my entire world; my everything; he's the one that saved me and heals me and the only one that loves me and is my anchor that keeps me grounded so I don't drift away and if he's gone I'll fall apart and I'll
have nothing left anymore; no reason to live anymore and I'll be all alone,no one to love me, need me, to dote on or to look after, and I don't want to be here anyway living under Fascism, with a family that doesn't want me around, or when my mother dies, or when my hubby leaves me once the 14 YR old moves away for university, or for when the kids get married and don't invite me, when grandchildren arrive as I don't want to over-step boundaries with my grandchildren like my mother or "ruin" them like my kids seem to think I've ruined them. With Buddy gone there just won't be anything left for me here anymore. Buddy is all I have and there's simply no future for me and I was only holding on for him.My job here is done and I'm ready to move on and start my next chapter.
"People want to be led."--Dr Goebbels
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