Ass-Burgers.

As you know, I have Asperger's ( a higher functioning form of Autism, as well as bipolar, depression, social phobia, and a perception problem; aren't I just a barrel of fun?) but to make it more "fun" I like to call and spell it Ass-Burgers, and Sinead O'Conner posted on Twitter  yesterday that her oldest said that it "should have been her that died instead"( her 17 YR old son commited suicide recently) which sounds exactly how my kids treat me, such as the youngest always telling me( a multiple suicide attempt survivor) to go kill myself, and I realize too that we live parallel lives in so many ways(  shaved heads, love weed, raunchy sense of humour,mental illness, toxic family, traumas, suicide attempts, sad unhappy lives, etc) except that she's talented, rich,and famous and I'm not. Someone whose blog I read( she survived a plane crash and was badly burned and almost died and spent months in the burn unit recovering) is now going to climb Mount Kilimanjaro,too, so it just goes to show how so many people have so much suffering in their lives but can also bounce back and accomplish amazing things. The pain at the bottom of my right heel(I've had now for 2 weeks or so) is sooo bad now too that even smoking weed( which normally relieves pain when nothing else does) just takes the "edge" off and I thought at first was just Plantar Fascitis  like I had before years ago on my left foot but I've been wearing the foot bandage thingy and last time it felt better in a few days but this time it's just getting worse and feels like it's broken but unlikely since I never fell, kicked anything or injured it in any way, so maybe it's bone cancer or maybe just bad arthritis?

I also had this weird "burning" pain deep in my back in-between the shoulder blades in my middle back and this "shooting" pain kind of like electric bolts go thru my shoulder(also on the right side) shoot up my neck into the back of my head and I often get numbness and tingling in my face, hands and feet as well as involuntary 'curling" inwards of my hands and toes, which is usually neurological, so I wonder if maybe I even have MS or something? I'm falling apart and need new parts; an overhaul!  The other night I also had insomnia and restless legs and anxiety and couldn't get to sleep until 4;30 am and I wonder as well if the dull pain and feeling of something being "stuck" under my left ribs could possibly be an enlarged heart, a hernia, enlarged spleen, or just my liver acting-up again? So many possibilities...Today it's also going up to 8 C and it's really raining and the kitchen ceiling is leaking again and I stepped in a puddle of water on the floor and my sock got a soaker(which I hate!!) and then temp dropping later in the day turning to freezing rain and ice pellets and then at night turning to snow, 15-20 cm, the kind of weather change where everyone gets a cold with the flucuation.

I also got this when I tried to post on Twitter but you better bet your ass that I wanted to post it( and I did) and I won't be censored, and once the tyrannical COVIDianRegime mandates and restrictions are finally lifted I can't wait to travel again(once they allow me to leave the country) as long as I don't have to be vaccinated; I want to go back to Jamaica(my spiritual home) and if you have to have the Clot Shot  to enter than maybe I'll go to Cuba again, or maybe go visit my friend in Brazil; wherever I can go without having to have the Mark Of The Beast; anywhere; I just have to get away, and now several police chiefs and a mayor have resigned as well due to the Emergency Act  the dictator PM has enacted,too, so either they got fed up with all the shit, or they disagree with the needless Martial Law  and quit in protest, or maybe they even support the Freedom Convoy protests and were forced  to resign for NOT 'towing the Party line" or else maybe they found out something; the true agenda and were forced out. The Ontario premier(Ford) also surprised but impressed me on TV announcing as well that he never agreed with the lockdowns, mandates, vax pass, etc. and said they don't work, and that even getting triple-vaxxed you still get COVID and that it just divides families and friends, etc. which is true, but also political suicide, and if China or Russia declared the same unnecessary Emergency Act  we did they would be widely condemned and even sanctioned but because a Western NATO country did it no one says anything, because they're all part of the same agenda; the Great Reset and New World Order.

The other day I also cooked and left the food in the big pot out on the counter to cool down before putting it away( but left the container and lid beside it) saving it for lunches for the next couple of days, but then I forgot about it and went for my nap....and when I got up and remembered I had to put it away I took off the lid, peered in.....and saw all that was left were 4 noodles! It turned out the 27 YR old saw it there and thought it was just 'left over'  and he ate it all; the entire big pot of casserole!! What a pig and now no one had lunch for the next 2 days,either!! We also didn't have any clean cups( the were all in the dishwasher) so I had to drink my Metamucil  out of a dish (we are savage that way) and the 22 YR old paid more for her Invisilign  braces than I have in my entire bank account, and the girls in BC the oldest is currently working on a 'top secret project" she can't tell us about, the 20 YR old is a manager at the cinema and the 18 YR old works at Victoria's Secret, where they sell naughty underwear and slutty lingerie but hopefully soon once they resume in-class learning they can get back to school. It's also Family Day next week and I hope you don't have to necessarily spend it with your own  family and can spend it with someone else's family, and I did such a big shit I announced, Open the silo and launch the missile! and sometimes I think I should have been a guy, and every time I say Who's a good boy? Where's the best dog in the world? Buddy always looks around quizzically, not knowing it's him, and my hubby always works long hours and does lots of over-time,too, yet we never see any of the extra $$$  and I asked him where it all was and he said he "gives it to his mistress" and the sad thing is that I don't think he was joking.

Hell is other people. - Oripants on Twitter