Bluddy.

Last night before bed and at least 10 times during the night(I lost count!) Bluddy ( I mean Buddy; bloody Buddy...get it?) ket getting these massive nosebleeds and with really big clots the size of my fingernails, and it used up almost an entire roll of toilet paper to soak up all the blood plus a towel and soaked thu a blanket,pillows, and sleeping bag on my bed( which are now in the laundry) and when he'd sneeze it would spray blood all over both him and me and I had it splattered on my face, arms, legs, shirt, and he had it on his snoot, leg, paws,etc. and it even went on my wall and door! My bedroom looked like a crime scene! Needless to say neither of us got much sleep last night; maybe 3 HRS on and off . I checked and it was coming from one nostril and it makes me wonder if maybe he really does  have a nasal tumour like I suspected earlier(common in Dachshunds and other long-nosed breeds) and unless I'm just imagining it his snoot does look shorter than it used to be, so maybe cancer has eaten it away? It pains my heart to think that this may be the End and that I may be losing him and I'm honestly surprised that he's still here this morning after all that bleeding! I can't lose him, I just can't. he's all I have, and the only one that loves me, the only joy,light and love in my life. If he's gone I'll have nothing and no one left. He's the only one that still keeps me going.

Yesterday I also went to the store and look what I found! Sunflowers make me happy. My hubby also parked the car around the corner instead of in the driveway as the bump in the driveway by the construction "ruins" the car so he made me walk all the way there in the scorching heat ( 32 C with humidex of 42 C and going to be the same today,too) instead of at least bringing the car around(I think he just wants me to suffer) and said to me, Do you ever STOP whining? and he's also not a 'gentleman",either, and I wonder if he'll also make my mother walk all the way around with her walker,too,and I noticed in the store that they finally got rid of those stupid and annoying arrows and other stickers on the floor they had before for COVID social distancing and only a few mindless sheeple were being maskholes  and still wearing face-diapers(but at least this way we can easily identify the followers) and I noticed most people in the store were even fatter them me too so I didn't feel as bad, and this little girl also kept staring at me,too, probably trying to figure out if I was a male or a female( ha, ha), which also reminds me....

THIS  showed up last night online for me as "Suggested for you". What the f*ck? 😂😂

The insane, on occasion, are not without their charms.-Kurt Vonnegut.