Just To Be Nice.

Yesterday the 28 YR old went into town and went to a Mexican place and picked up lunch and just to be nice he also picked me up(without me even asking) my fave. Mexican soda in my fave. flavour, mango! He brought it back for me for no particular reason, just because! Wasn't that super nice of him? It was a nice surprise! I also visited another LTC home for my mother and it was good, but not as fancy as the other one and today I make my list and submit it to the lady and officially add my mother on the list but regardless what I put they put her in whatever available home has an opening first and the sad thing is that someone has to die first for an opening to become available, and there's over 200 people on the waiting list, and sort of like an organ transplant waiting list people often die before they even have a spot available to move into the LTC home and it can sometimes take years before a spot opens up, typical in this shithole country. Putting her on the list is also one of those things I wanted to put off, to do "later" too , to procrastinate, because doing so makes it that much more "real", more official, finalized, and that just makes me sad even though I also know it's what's best for everyone.

I also called the Gastro doc about my Scopes and I am booked for both (gastric endoscopy and colonoscopy) luckily at the same time, so everything is ok, and yesterday(and still today) my abdomenal pain is soooo bad in the lower left it's white-hot searing pain I break out into a sweat and feel dizzy and thought I was going to pass out and saw "stars" and even feel chilled at times too( and my teeth were even chattering I was shivering) and I couldn't nap much yesterday the pain kept me awake and also have right shoulder blade pain which could be "referred" pain, from a leak ,tear,or rupture or bleeding in my abdomen, and I hate my colon so much I just want to rip it out and cut a few feet out of the f*cker and just throw it out! I'm also considering for my trip another cruise(I've been on 6 or so and haven't gone for a few years) to Asia, as that way I get to see many countries and I also miss sitting out on the deck looking out at the open sea(I love the water like I love flying) and feeling the sea breeze hitting my face.One time I even saw dolphins,too!

For weeks now there's been alot of African ( read: Black people) refugees homeless and living on the streets of Toronto( and the entire homeless population is 10 000 too which is half the population of this entire town!) yet there's no Ukrainian( read: White people) refugees living in the street; people have been so eager to welcome them into their homes, and just yesterday after public outrage a community-based effort just relocated them to temporary shelter in a church but the gov't did nothing so they probably would have been better off staying where they were; at least they had homes (and no racism) , and tomorrow my hubby and his 3 brothers got to NYC and I hope they don't get mugged or in a mass shooting  or something and whenever I go to USA that's my concern, like when I go to the Middle East I worry about terrorism and in Israel and Egypt we even had armed guards on our tour buses and even a police escort,too! My friend B( from the old church) is also going to be a first-time grandmother in January; her daughter's already been married for 5-6 years; she got married in university to an American and lives in USA and her other daughter married an Aussie and lives in Australia and her other daughter isn't married yet but I think she's "shacking up" with some guy which must horrify her devout Mormon mother! Her kids and the 27 YR old were friends when they were little.

Don't rock my boat 'cause I don't want my boat to be rocked.-Bob Marley