yes, I regret having kids four times over I had four of them not one of them I can honestly say has made a positive mark in my life. Every single one of them has been draining exhausting and more challenging than any person should have to go through in their life none of them get along, none of them finish school I had to go to court many times because they wouldn’t go to school was very hard to find a place to live. When I barely got any child support and trying to put a roof over for kids heads is almost virtually impossible. You might as well figure this part out that I basically had to work three jobs around the clock. My life did not exist. I had to bring the kids with me when they were little to work , had to live with other people sometimes when I finally did get my own place, the kids destroyed, everything out invites broke things embarrass me in front of the neighbors I couldn’t go to work without having the cops called many times my son was constantly in and out of court in jail and trouble. It’s just a mess they did. I didn’t have the support of a husband and father in the picture. The kids took a total advantage of me I wasn’t raised in a big family. I was raised by a single mom. She had me at 40 my dad died before I was born. She had all she could do to put shelter over me. She took care of me financially, but emotionally mentally she wasn’t there and if she was it was abusive sometimes so I had no clue how to raise all these kids. I have no idea how to deal with the constant every day, battles and conflict and problems and threats on my stability, I don’t feel close to these kids. It’s impossible they’re selfish they’re mean they don’t like each other. I just can’t deal with how dirty they keep the house it’s exhausting. I got sick with an auto immune disorder because I pushed myself so far and I simply can’t keep up after them anymore. I feel like I am a slave , life sucks having kids I don’t say this lightly I regret every one of my kids my youngest is the most sweetest kid I’ve had she’s the one I’ve been the closest to. I’m still going to court for her because she refuses to go to school she fights constantly with my other daughter fist fights to where the cops are called. They both hate me because I don’t pick one side or the other. It’s just a nightmare if I had my way, I would step my fingers and they would not be have been born, and who knows how peaceful my life could’ve been who knows how rewarding who knows what I could’ve done with myself instead I just feel like I can’t wait to get away. I’m waiting to die. I really am thinking about running away. The kids are living fucking hell for me.
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