Not A Good Month.

December has NOT been a good month for us.

Not only with my mother critical and fighting for her life in the ICU but yesterday my hubby also went to the dentist for his sore tooth which he thought was just a cavity...but ended up to actually be an *infection* and not just a "little" one,either, so he got antibiotics and has to come back later( once the infection clears up) to see a specialist because they "have to drill down really deep to clear all the infection out."

Shit.

It's a good thing that he went though, as opposed to just blowing it off.

I was also talking to my mother's nurse( an Irish one this time; I recognized her accent which I love, and some of them are ok but for the most part they were much better in the ER; everyone was really great there) and she said she had a good night and was only on the Bi-PAP during the night and the Opti-Flow during the day and she's more awake and alert for longer  and is "with it" answering questions appropriately and they have her on diruetics now,too, to flush out the excess fluid( now her BP isn't low anymore) and the second-oldest went to see her yesterday as well and said she looks  a bit better; her colour, and she was able to converse with her and she was asking for a drink, which is progress,and she showed her photos of her pets( the poor dying woman was subjected to being forced to look at cat photos and she hates cats as much as I do, possibly even more so, ha,ha!) and I hope she recovers but if she's just going to still end up dying after all this anyway I hope it's at least NOT long and drawn out and doesn't drag on for a long time and it's also sad to realize as well this will most likely be the last Christmas for her( if she even holds on and makes it that long) Buddy,and I.

The second-oldest also goes back on Saturday and she said the airline( nickle-and-diming people like always) also now charges 75$ for carry-on now,too, as well as charging for checked baggage, so what next? Charging you every time you use the bathroom,too; have you swipe your credit card at the door? With just one extra person here for meals I still manage to "stretch" the food I regularly cook a bit farther by just making it into an extra serving by dividing it up into smaller servings so everyone just gets a bit less and she said she's allergic to cheese,too, and has the lactose intolerance like I do( only worse, even as a baby and needed a special soy formula) and oddly I'm ok with cheese and yogurt( just not milk or cream) I think because it has less milk fat. My hubby also over-did it yet again  playing pickleball and hurt his toe, yes, the same one that has the torn tendon and now the orthotic no longer works and he's back to limping around like a cripple again.

For someone so smart he can be really stupid!

I also hope to visit my mother later today after my hubby finishes work if he can take me, and last night everyone went out to Games Night and played board games  but they just make me, well, bored, and the other night they were playing board games upstairs in the hallway too when I went up for bed and they were really loud talking and laughing, making it hard for me to sleep so I asked them if they could just move it downstairs, in the livingroom, so it could be quiet for me to try to sleep and the 17 YR old scowled, mocking me, Waah,waah,waah,so sad, cry some more! They're just soooo inconsiderate and for some reason 18 December has always felt like a "significant" date to me but I don't know why and I just hope it doesn't mean my mother( or Buddy) die  that day( which is tomorrow!!) and  the Finance Minister( also Deputy PM; Trudeau's Main Man, who is actually a woman) resigned  abruptly yesterday as well, sending the gov't into chaos ,uncertaintly and turmoil, causing even more calls for the PM's resignation( Ooooh, I sure hope so, what a great Christmas present that would be!) and there were even  reports he was heard crying in his office which I find sad; it's always sad to see such a broken man, even though he did do  it to himself.

It was a long few years after this where I simply sat in my darkness and let the child in me kill itself.-TheLich