My friend in Georgia ( a Southern state!) just got 7 cm of snow! (shown here in her front yard!) more proof of unusual,increasing, and extreme weather patterns in the Last Days and End Times before Jesus returns and they said the Big Island of Hawaii is supposed to get 2 feet of snow, which is also supposed to be another sign of the Apocalypse, and last night I heard a frost quake in our backyard as well which isn't too common, and I have That Headache again this morning, too, plus it feels like something's "dripping" inside my head on the right side and instead of doing his morning yoga I found my hubby flaked out on his recliner chair, so my guess is he over-did it again last night playing squash and pickleball even though he denied it. The 30 YR old also said my hearing's gotten really bad lately and it has, as well as my sight but I simply can't afford new hearing aids(which cost 2K) or new glasses( which cost 200-300$).
Being poor really sucks!!
Recently after my hubby and I last, well....you know, he said he could even hear and feel my harsh, raspy laboured breathing and racing heart and it shocked him and he seemed worried that I was going to either have a heart-attack or drop dead right there even though I told him I have breathing and other health issues he never believed me(he just thinks I'm "lazy"), but I just hope if I do die in an embarrassing situation( naked , in the bath or on the toilet,etc.) that he would at least dress me first, before calling EMS. It also shocked me how quickly my mother declined; I just saw her just a week before she was rushed to the ER in respiratory distress( and she died 3 weeks later) and she seemed perfectly fine so it just goes to show that you never know.
Life is fragile.
This is also the reason Trump is unlikely to release the Epstein files, and tomorrow the tariffs start and what Canada should do instead of putting up with his shit and bowing down and kissing his ass is just simply switch trading partners and just trade instead with Europe and Asia and ignore USA completely, and I saw private school tuition now yearly is 44K and back in the 80's when I was in school it was only 5K and even with inflation it's gone waaaay up, and Princess Beatrice had her second baby, too, another girl named Athena(which is actually the proper name of Athens); I like that name, a Greek name, and I knew quite a few people in school named Athena, and she was only under 4 1/2 pounds, too, so my guess at that weight would be born about 6 weeks early, so probably born around 34 weeks or so, and and it saddened me as well to see a video of these asshole guys beating up and abusing a robot, too, picking on something that can't defend itself, and it shows what bullies and how mean some people are, and I felt sorry for it.
I also laughed seeing this banana shirt and I bet my older boys would wear it, and there was a tragic plane crash between a passenger jet with figure skaters on it and an army helicopter(what the hell was a helicopter even doing that close to a runway when a jet was landing anyway?) and I saw the video and the helicopter flew right into the plane and it made me wonder if it was even on purpose, and if so, so who else was on the plane, like someone about to expose something/ someone or about to testify against someone, or was it a suicide attack, or the chopper controlled by a drone ,like terrorism...and now insurance isn't satisfied with the deed transferred over to me like they said before; now they also have all kinds of questions as well and what if I don't know the answers to?
I'm just so sick and tired of all this shit!
I thought it was finally over!
When will it finally end?
Why can't things just ever go smoothly and go right and work out the first time?Why does everything always have to be such a problem for me all the time? Now Buddy hardly ever goes to the bathroom outside anymore now, either( even though I put him out at least every hour) he just turns right around and comes back in and pees/shit on the floor and I'm so tired of it.
I'm just so tired of everything.
I'm tired of life.
The suicidal feelings are back again. I just want to crawl away into a hole and hide away somewhere until it all just goes away.
Every grumpy old man or woman is a library full of books on disappointment, shame, heartache, and fear.-Maurice.A.Tillman
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