Shitload.

We got a shitload of snow yesterday, easily 40 cm maybe even up to as much as 60cm! it just kept coming down all day relentlessly and wouldn't stop! We're also supposed to get blowing snow today,too. Today is also Family Day  and I wonder if you actually have to spend it with your own family or if you can spend it with someone else's family instead? Buddy and I are spending it together which is what I prefer actually, just us.I couldn't go with the guys anyway and leave Buddy home all alone for 10 days and I couldn't bring him along as  they also have stupid cats and I wouldn't put him in the cargo hold of a plane anyway; it would probably kill him, esp. at his age. He also turns 19 in 3 more days and I'll be giving him a steak( his fave. food) but I'll have to blend it all up so he can eat it as he only has 2 teeth left! This morning I also heard Stairway To Heaven on the radio again at 5 am and it just came on again now,too, and I don't have to do laundry or put the dishes thru yet as there's not enough dishes to run a load thru and only 2 towels, 2 underwears and a PJ in the washing machine, not enough to put a load thru, giving me a break.

Yay!!

It's also -27C in Edmonton and my hubby said the oldest won't let him get a photo for me, not wanting me to put it online( as if he'd even know if I put it up on my Facebook,anyway, and they're my kids and don't get to tell me what to do!) and he says something stupid about stolen ID(even though I never use their names), when really I wonder if someone's maybe after him, like when our enemy was after us I didn't post my photo online and never my name( I still don't) and never put up the kids' photos when they were younger due to pedophiles,  but even so now I still just want to see what he looks like nowadays even if I don't post it online,but he's always been sort of an asshole though,too, even as a teen I can still remember the other kids at Cadets and church calling him an asshole even back then. 

F*ck him.

 My hubby and the 17 YR old also have to stay at a hotel in Edmonton too and not at their place as their apt' 'stinks like weed" but they will be staying with the girls at their place(and they leave for BC tomorrow) although my hubby will probably have to sleep in a closet or in the bathroom or else his wretched snoring will keep everyone awake! I'd have more fun here,anyway on my own than with them,anyway, playing boring games and watching lame anime.

The 25 YR old's going up to Vancouver as well, only coming from Venice, so that's sure going to be a reaaallly loooong flight as when I went from Toronto to Venice it was something like an 11-12 hour flight and then on top of that you have to add the 6 HRS or so to BC, making it 17-18 HRS. Just ....ugh! Having kids also gave me zero return on investment as well; I didn't get any of the joy or fulfillment out of it; just all the shit and hassle, and nothing but regret, and I hate to say it but I've even gotten tired of Buddy lately as well with all the barking and shitting and peeing all over the house now, even though he's also the only thing keeping me alive. I still love him more than anything but I'm just so fed-up with all of this. My life simply has no purpose or meaning anymore and is devoid of joy.

Something in me broke that day, and I don’t think I’ve ever properly recovered.-David Andrew