Ankle Biter.

As I'm sitting here at my computer Beja is pulling on my pant leg(like Buddy used to do when he was younger and still had teeth), wanting to play. He is a little ankle biter and just the cutest, sweetest, most lovable, irresistible little guy and just the perfect thing I needed, and as always God provides at exactly the right time. Buddy was my Gold Medal in life and Beja is the perfect medicine to help heal my broken heart. Maybe that's why I'm so sick too( still sick, today is day 5) maybe I just have a broken heart? I still miss Buddy so much my heart aches but Beja  helps to ease the sting and he is settling well here and into our routine and  right from the very first day smothers me in love, kissing my face, practically "raping" me ,even trying to "French" me( ha,ha) even though we just met, and he follows me around everywhere yet still is timid and cautious and barks at everyone else and even hides behind me, when he sees them but he will adjust and adapt in time  and he fits well into our routine and rhythm of life but he "took" to me right away and he won't leave my side. I seem to have that effect on animals. 

Opposite with people; I repel them.

 I still feel like I'm dying too(now day 5), and all restless and agitated like I get before a seizure and it feels like something's trying to "burst" out of my body  and  I  also have no appetite, like when I had liver failure 18 YRS ago so maybe it's that, but even if so  and I am dying now at least  now I have Beja I'll die with love in my heart and light in my life again and I get to be with Buddy again.

Beja is also like an airport, announcing arrivals as every time someone comes in the room he'll bark to alert me,  and he brings me his toy to throw for "Fetch"and I must have "Grief Fog" as well as yesterday the oven timer went off so I went to take the chicken pie out of the oven...except I'd forgotten to put it IN the oven so I had to start all over again and wait 75 more minutes(duh!) and it turned out the reason my credit card got declined when I tried to order online  the other day was because one of the sites was actually a scam and the credit card company somehow recognized it and blocked my card( which is a good thing) and the MasterCard rep and my hubby got a good laugh at my expense and now they'll be mailing me out a new card and I feel so stupid for getting scammed again and I don't know what pisses me off more; that I got tricked again or that I'm not getting the stuff I was looking forward to! 

Yesterday I also got an Easter stash of chocolate 50% off and chocolate is like crack to me and my weakness and if they were to interrogate me all they'd have to do is feed me chocolate and I'd sing like a canary!😂 Last night I also had this really vivid dream of a plane crash and I saw flaming parts of a plane come crashing down and it has something to do with Australia, either the crash was in Australia or it was a QUANTAS flight. I just hope it doesn't actually really  happen though because alot of times I get warnings ahead of times in dreams that end up happening later in real life .

Any woman will tell you that giving birth is one of the most life changing things there is.-Flora Rido