Two-Tick Tuesday.

Yesterday Beja and I were outside( today it's supposed to even go up to 18C! Yahoo!!) I called yesterday Two-Tick Tuesday  as I also picked 2 ticks off him( at least with his colouring they're easy to see) he got from being outside, the first ticks of the season and the first I've picked off him so it was sort of like an "initiation".  He also looks exactly like a combination of my Chihuahuas Chibby and Jameel I had back in 1981 and when I saw his photo for the first time I saw Chibby's face and there was something in his eyes as well that captured me and I just had this feeling telling me This is your new dog. I didn't have anything like that when I saw the photo of the other dog though and maybe he even is Chibby and Jameel being returned to me decades later, just like Buddy reminded me so much of my Teeniea(even though Buddy was a Dachshund and not a Chihuahua I saw alot of him in  him,and in his personality). I'd like to think as well that maybe Buddy even sent Beja to me. He is my heart medication as well to help heal my grieving broken heart and to help ease the sting of my loss. I'm in the "Honeymoon" phase now,too, where I'm just utterly besotted with him and I just love the curvature of his neck(just like a swan), for example, and it makes me cry when he nuzzles into my neck and yesterday I even smiled for the first time in 2 weeks as well.

Because of him.

Check out my funny lighter! I still feel sick( esp. nauseated, sweaty and dizzy and weak) but maybe a little bit better( today is day 6 I think) so hopefully I'm starting to get better and it was just some virus, and I guess my so-called BFF wasn't the BFF I thought she was either as I still haven't heard a word from her when Buddy died or when my mother did; no condolences, nothing, and I didn't even know HER father died until months after,either, so I guess it's just like it always is with everyone ; I don't mean as much to her as she does to me and one of my Irish friends( the deaf one, and also the one who set fire to himself years ago in a suicide attempt) also said he now has throat & esophagus cancer but someone else accused him of "just being on a drunken rant"( even though he's supposed to be in rehab) and then his own father said You get what you deserve which I thought was the cruelest thing ever and NO WONDER he drinks! I also saw an ad about 1987(when I was 20) and it made me wish I could go back to that time, a time when life was much better and I was happier and I'd "only" had 2 traumas, instead of the 12 or so like I've had by this point.

I also wonder if my abdomenal pain etc. if I might even have a AAA- an abdomenal aortic aneurysm and the 30 YR old said the reason I couldn't light the BBQ is it's a "man's job" and Beja really doesn't like his GF,either, and even though he's seen her a few times already he always *really* barks at her; there's just some people that dogs don't like, and they can also "sense" "bad" people,too, so it concerns me, and as I was on the computer last night I over-heard her telling the 30 YR old about someone she knows who had this Pug who had really big huge balls that would drag along and bounce as he walked and they were so big he would just sit on them and scream and  it was just so hilarious  I was practically crying and shaking and  it was so hard to try and muffle my laughter so they wouldn't know I'd heard, and Beja also likes to pick up stray sticks, Popsicle sticks, etc. I have to keep taking away from him so he doesn't swallow splinters. 

He's just like a toddler.

They find us. “Animals understand how incarnation works but humans do not. “-Richard Martini