4 Weeks.

It's been exactly 4 weeks today since my Buddy died. I try not to dwell on it or think about it too much because I just get too sad but I still do have periods where I cry over him and I'll always miss him and look forward to the day we're reunited again. I've never had a dog or a friend(or a love) like him. He was one-of-a-kind and we had a special bond and connection like no other. When he died a part of me died with him.When he died it was the biggest loss of my life and I'm honestly surprised I'm still here a month later to tell you the truth. I also had a dream I was talking with my dead aunt( who I never got along with in actual real life) and the last time I had one like that was just before my mother died so I hope it doesn't mean that someone else is going to die soon( unless it's just me) and I also heard Stairway To Heaven on the radio again last night,too.

Check this out: a bag full of chocolate cars and even a chocolate face! It's from the Easter stash I got on sale for 50% off and each big hollow chocolate does me a week and the most recent one( shown here) was a hockey player but I felt badly for eating his face off( Face-Off.....get it? ha,ha) and Beja is so cute he reminds me of a little fawn and even though he's a year old he still acts like a puppy, chewing things, getting into mischief( like taking off with socks, toilet paper rolls, paper towels,etc.) trying to run out the door or down the basement, etc. but he keeps me busy and distracted from my grief and I know there's no way I ever would have even made it this far without him, and the dirty bird was humping one of his toys yesterday,too, so I guess only having one ball doesn't make him any less horny and my arms and legs have these little red itchy bumps on them from the sun that look like fever blisters and the itch is driving me crazy; I'd rather have pain than itch! The itch turns me inside-out!

Here’s to the ones who don’t fit in, the little black sheep, the ones who are often misunderstood. They’re the ones who bring magic and beauty into the world.-Masi Bekwa