Boo-Boo.

I posted these cute photos of Beja Boo-Boo on my Facebook  and one of my friends(the pharmacist) said he "looks so mellow for a Chihuahua" and I guess she's right and he is a real cuddler and snuggle-bug but when he barks boy, does he ever yap,yap,yap,yap,yap,yap!! I was looking at him yesterday as well and my heart just swelled up; I love him so much, with all my heart (even though no one will ever be like Buddy)but I also have to be "careful" as well I don't want to get too attached because I also know nothing ever lasts and I'll eventually end up losing him,too, and I simply can't take any more death or loss. Yesterday I also saw the rare half-red/half-black cardinal and at the same time also smelled really strong perfume but there was no one else around; I was alone in the yard with just Beja so I like to think that maybe it was a sign my mother was visiting and stopping by to say hello from the Other Side and on the 28th it will be 6 months  already (it was 3 days after Christmas and a week before my birthday)since she died and it's hard to believe it's already been that long and I had a revelation as well it was a bladder infection that started her downfall(esp. as when they inserted the catheter in the ER I was shocked to see a bunch of thick white pus oozing out) and she was likely already starting the Sepsis esp. since her BP was already critically low, a classic symptom.

Yesterday I also saw 2 cardinal babies and 3 bluejay babies as they were smaller and still had lots of grey/brown downy feathers and haven't had their bright true feathers fully in yet and as I was out in my yard suntanning topless a search & rescue helicopter also flew over our house and those things fly pretty low too so I wonder if they got a "free show" ha,ha, and today is National Dachshund Day being the "longest" day of the year for the longest dog(National Chihuahua Appreciation Day  was also apparantly 14 May we missed as I never knew about,sorry Beja), and I also got an answer to my prayer question: Buddy had Cushing disease and when I checked it he had all the symptoms: excessive hunger & thirst, big pees and frequent pees, "pot" belly, weight loss, hair loss, and it also causes high BP which in turn causes strokes and heart-attack which he also had and is apparantly common in Dachshunds as well as they age. People can get it,too.

With my hubby away in Quebec all weekend playing chess I also ordered-in this fabulous Greek-style(Feta cheese, olives, onions, tomatoes, and peppers) pizza for my dinner for 3 days I just took the disgusting olives off because, well, they're gross, only I didn't know they'd put so many on and it took me forever to pick them all off but it was so goooood otherwise, and I like this pants(below) and have a dress with the exact same pattern I got from the same place but it was supposed to be cotton....but actually ended up to be a thin, cheap polyester and looks like a rag that crawled out of the Goodwill box and I'll probably never wear,  and I read someone who had a NDE experience they said  your spirit being lifted up out of your body/dying felt like floating naked in warm water surrounded by total darkness  and it was so peaceful and serene that he didn't want to come back and was mad when they brought him back!  As much as I generally like tattoos( and have several myself) I still don't like arm tattoos on women, esp. when they're all just blue and no colours; they look like sailors!

I also notice ever since the 30 YR old got with his GF he no longer does the things he used to love anymore, like jiu-jitsu, singing, and online games. I just hope he isn't changing who he is for her  and giving up things he loves and that it's just he's more "mature" now and moving on to more "grown-up" things in life but not actually changing for someone else and if he's not at work he spends every second with her,too(he's obsessed!) so I don't know why they just don't get married and get a place together. I also had a dream his ex-GF(who got married last summer) is prego....

Many times I've been alone And many times I've cried Anyway, you'll never know The many ways I've tried.-The Beatles