Little Dog, Big Love.

I love these clothes and I just wish I knew where  I could actually buy them for real, instead of on a scam site online! Yesterday Beja somehow accidently got locked out on the back porch(my guess is when my hubby tossed food out to feed the squirrels and birds Beja snuck out without him noticing and he got locked out there because when I have him go out to pee I'm always standing there with him and never leave him out alone) as I heard him whimpering and whining like he does when he's stuck somewhere, calling me for help, to rescue him, and first I looked behind the couch, but nothing, and then I had a "feeling" something told me(never ignore your instincts or "Inner Voice") to look out the back, as ridiculous as it seemed, so I did....and there the poor little guy was, looking all forlorn and abandoned, behind the back door, and when he saw me he was overjoyed and leaped into my arms licking my face and wiggling in  happiness and I just felt soooo bad that he got left out there, words couldn't even begin to describe how I felt.

Like a total piece of shit.

I hate myself.

But then I felt better when I realized later it wasn't my fault but I still felt badly he was left out there and I kept apologizing to him but luckily for me he's very forgiving and he still loves me and I'm just glad he's ok; that he didn't escape or get picked off by a predator.

Yesterday my hubby also got his tooth extracted and now it already feels better and he had to pay 100$ and his employer paid 80% so it must have cost 800$ in total which seems alot for something simple as yanking a tooth out and when he got back from the dentist he sounded like he'd had a stroke as his mouth was "frozen", and today the wildfire smoke is so bad you can REALLY smell it and we even have a air quality advisory,  and my hubby told me NOT to turn on the A/C (I'm still going to anyway; f*ck him!)even when it's sweltering hot, just like he won't let me open the pool for relief either as it "costs too much in electricity to run it" (as well as for pool chemicals) so he'd rather just have me get heatstroke and before he took the pool away from me and now he's even taken away my A/C too.

What an asshole.

This morning I also feel very light-headed and dizzy and yesterday I saw a brown baby rabbit in our yard and it was even smaller than Beja and just the cutest thing ever,  I heard the funniest thing ever: quirk chungus  and it made me laugh,  I feel homesick for life in the 70's and 80's, and my one wish before was that Buddy would live forever and now it's to have him back again,  Beja also bit me by accident while playing and he's like a piranha; he has small, but sharp, teeth, and yesterday he ate an "icicle" tinsel from the Christmas tree that must have been on the carpet and I tried to get it off him but he just ran off and swallowed it, worrying me as he was really choking on it and I had to tip him upside-down and press on his ribs and whack him on the back as well as massage his throat and now I also worry it might get twisted and obstructed in his bowel.

Little dog, big love, but also alot of trouble,too.😂

That's the worst thing about loving someone so much: all the worry!

Leaving, I hate to see you cry Grieving, I hate to say good-bye Dust and ash forever, yeah Though I know we must be parted As sure as stars are in the sky I'm gonna see when it comes to glory.-Ozzy Osbourne