Getting By.

Nothing much really going on except I like this pretty dress and I still have the really baaad abdomenal, back,and right side pain, and I'm so sweaty I almost pass-out and last night in bed I also had these really bad chest pains as well; so painful it took my breath away and I actually thought I was even having a heart-attack and so I waited for The End  and The Angel Of Death to come take me but it eventually passed, much to my utter disappointment. I thought this was finally my chance to be set free and be reunited with Buddy again. Beja also did shits yesterday so he doesn't have a bowel obstruction, much to my relief. I swear, I worry as much over my dogs as I do for my kids! I also notice I look really pale this morning,too(even with my tan!) and even my tongue is white( as opposed to the usual pink) so maybe I have internal bleeding? The 30 YR old also somehow got it into his head that my hubby already paid Tony The Fence before he did any work and he just took off (and then went around telling everyone that)even though he hasn't paid him yet and won't until the job is done (he's NOT that stupid!)and then he insists that *I* told him that when I didn't but he's always coming up with these false memories and twisting things around and getting things mixed-up.Maybe it's from all his concussions?

My hubby's constantly glued to his stupid phone as well, even when he's on the toilet, or in a restaurant, etc; it's never away from his ear and even Beja gets fed-up with it and barks at him for attention as if saying Get off your stupid phone for once and pay attention to me!! and I heard there's this 'ho who already f*cked 10 guys(anyone who's f*cked 10 guys is a 'ho, regardless of age though) before she was even 17 and it disgusts me how women are such whores nowadays and it's just accepted  and no one values virginity or values and morals anymore, and I heard this radio ad was well selling "drivers and irons" I have no idea what that even is but my guess would be probably something to do with cars, and the 30 YR old referred to his GF yesterday as the love of my life  so I wonder if he's going to ask her to marry him I just hope he's careful and doesn't fall too deep; I just don't want him getting used, taken advantage of, heartbroken or hurt.

If we still have time, we might still get by Every time I think about it, I wanna cry With bombs and the Devil, and the kids keep comin' No way to breathe easy, no time to be young.-Heart