Half Over.

I can't believe summer's already half over! Tomorrow is also my Babushka's birthday; she was born in 1912 so do the math(I can't) to figure out how old she'd be but she died at 93. It's also finally NOT so hot and humid( for only a few days of relief and then another heatwave again next week; our 6th so far this summer!) and I even had my bedroom window open! I also took this photo of a cloud yesterday that looked like a heart but by the time I got the photo it was already starting to break up. I can also smell the strong wildfire smoke from out West and it's hazy out today and I haven't seen the 30 YR old but he came by last night dropping off all his dirty laundry so today I have 2 loads to do( thanks so "much" for that) and he told my hubby he got 100% on his driver's test and when I'd asked him how he did he said he "aced it" and I don't know what "aced" means ( the only "ace" I know is a really good fighter pilot) so I said, That's good,right?  to which he rolled his eyes and sighed, Yes, it's good.

Next month it will also be 4 months since Buddy died and I wonder if the reason God still allowed me to live after he died is so I could hear crickets again? Countries are also(finally!) starting to recognize a Palestinian state and yesterday when the youngest walked by Beja quickly ran and hid in a corner so I wonder if he hurt or scared him somehow?

THIS guy also got into my hubby's office and peed on the power bar he has on the floor so maybe now he'll actually listen to me and keep the door closed as prevention goes a long way and he also likes to pee on the garbage cans and my hubby left the empty toilet paper roll again and didn't put a new one on(you know, like a considerate person would have for the next guy) after he used it and I really hope that one day HE'S the next one to need it and he has this really big shit and has to run to another room to get a new roll. That would be karma!

 Now it's summer I also generally wake up at 5 am( 6 am the rest of the year) and that's when my mother used to always get up for work as her shift at the hospital started at 7am but she had to take the bus. I also still long for a time and place ( the 70's and 80's) that's sadly never coming back but where I have the best memories and I was actually happy and before the worst of the traumas that damaged and broke me occurred. Only 2 of them had happened  then and the other 12 or so not until later.

This is also that vine that grew out of the dead branch and now look; he even has leaves! It just goes to show that even in harsh circumstances and when there doesn't seem to be any hope that there always still is a chance of a new start. I also found a dollar in the washing machine this morning so it's my tip; my payment for doing the laundry,ha,ha,  and looking at old photos of Buddy and I  I also noticed I've really aged in just the past 2-3 years especially, so maybe I really DO have some kind of cancer, ( and my edema is so bad the past few years as well my fingers are so swollen I can't even wear rings anymore )either that or maybe it's just from all the stress and worry from my life? 

 I was also surprised yesterday to find a blog I read where her oldest just got married she( the mother, who is 44) is prego and due in the new year with baby # 6 and it was a total surprise, and Liam Neeson and Pamela Anderson are dating I think is nice and I'm happy he's found someone after 16 YRS of being a widower and she doesn't look like a bimbo anymore; now she's older she looks demure and doesn't plaster on all that gaudy make-up anymore or wear slutty clothes like she used to and also Trudeau and Katy Perry went on a date too and I guess they'd be a good match as they both love the "Booger Sugar" so they at least have that in common.

“If they weren’t your family, would you let them treat you like that?”.-Beaumains