I didn't know(until I heard it on the news) it's a long holiday weekend. Apparantly it's come civic holiday on Monday so I guess some gov't beurocrat decided we didn't have a holiday in August so they decided to make one so my hubby and the 30 year old have the day off Monday. The 30 YR old is also off an epic journey in Toronto for 4 days with his GF and they'll be visiting the 26 YR old who now lives there and the 29 YR old is also coming up,too. All the BF's will also be coming as well so it will be 3 couples. I still can't believe how he asks me to monitor Beja's playtime to ensure he gets the 2 hours a day stimulation. I don't set a timer or anything(if you have to document and record things it becomes more of a chore); we just live in the moment and have fun but now it's started a new thing where I jokingly say to him when we play, It's time to stimulate you now! and Are you being stimulated? and then I laugh because it almost sounds obscene. Most of his toys are also flat furry squeaky animals that look like roadkill or wall hangings. He also purposely does this cute stretch( pictured above) to get attention because every time he does I croon how cute he is. He's a real ham! I also think the white mark on his lower back kind of looks like a heart.
Yesterday as I was sitting at my computer I also felt a cold wet nose and soft warm fur brush by my leg and I assumed it was Beja but he wasn't there( he was in the other room mooching food off my hubby)....so I wonder if it was maybe even Buddy stopping by for a visit from the Other Side? I'd like to think so and I don't know what else it would have been and in 5 days it will be 4 months since he died,too, and at the end of the month( on the 28th) it will also be 8 months already since my mother died. Yesterday Beja was also all worked up out in the yard and the fur on his back kept going up and he'd bark like crazy, telling me that something was in the yard but I never saw anything other than the usual birds and squirrels....
.until bedtime......
and then I finally saw it:
a big skunk!
It was huge! A really BIG sucker!
I saw it waddling in the yard and even in the dark I know it was a skunk and not a raccoon as it was smaller, "flatter" and shorter to the ground and had a much bigger wider fluffier tail that "fanned" out ,and it had stripes on it, not rings.
Holy f*ck, and I called Beja back really quick and we ran inside!
My cousin also said her hot air balloon ride in Morocco costs much less than it would back home in Europe (which in Europe is still less than here at 300-400$ each) and it was only 130$ and that even incl. breakfast! I also noticed last night( I still have today,too) a dime-sized round squishy lump on the top of my right hand above the wrist(with a big dent/dimple beside it) I wonder might be a ganglion cyst like my friend A had in highschool and I also have Pitting Edema on my hands now my edema is so bad so most likely either indicative of kidney, liver, or heart issues( or maybe all 3?) and the good thing about suicide as well is at least you get to go out on your own terms and your own way and I just wish that I had a gas oven like Sylvia Plath.
Women have reduced themselves to asses and vaginas with nothing else to offer the world.-Benn Thurr
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