Yesterday the 31 YR old bought Beja the *cutest* winter coat ever( shown here). The photo doesn't really do it justice, but it's a shiny blue "puffy" coat( which I swear could double as a life jacket, ha,ha!) and it's just so cute and warm for winter! Luckily it fits too because he didn't actually have him with him and he paid 60$ for it! Holy shit! I just paid 10$ for his sweater and that incl. shipping! He really does think that he's his dog!! While he was out I also seized the chance to finally spend some time with my own dog( since he wasn't here to take over and hog him up like he always does) so I picked him up to cuddle with me on the couch and he still didn't want to be with me( even though I was the only one there) and he jumped down and left.
I guess he really doesn't like me. ðŸ˜
He liked me fine and we bonded for a few months before he came along and stole him away from me though.
I can't wait until he moves out and hopefully Beja will come back to me and start loving me again.
If not(and he's been ruined forever) I'll just get a dog that will.
My hubby also asked the 31 YR old about his magic mushrooms and cocaine I found and he's never been very good at confrontation( I, however, have no problem, and am actually quite good at it, ha,ha) and his excuse was it was a "gift" ( yeah, riiiiight, and in the wrong packaging, to hide it, so we'd just think it was weed? yeah.....nice try) and that the coke was actually "hair bleach powder" and just a "prank" being in a dime-bag except I know what hair bleach smells like (I've used it hundreds of times!) and this was odourless like cocaine.
I wasn't born yesterday and I'm NOT as dumb as people think I am and I know cocaine when I see it.
I'm actually surprised he didn't come up with some crazy story that I "planted" it on him and set him up or something, and I just hope that he never drives after taking any of that stuff!! I also can't help but wonder if it's his GF that's the bad influence as he never did any of that stuff before she came into his life....
Yesterday and today I also have this really baaaaad headache and even popping Tylenol and smoking weed all day I still can't shake it off, maybe I'm going to pop an aneurysm or have a stroke, and my cough's so bad it kept waking me up during the night choking again, and I could have sworn it wasn't just rain we had yesterday yesterday at some point but wet snow as it was so cold and windy and it felt denser, and the wind-chill was - 2 C.... we also have to switch our clocks back tonight before bed even though they keep talking about getting rid of the time change and getting everybody all excited they never actually do it. One of my cousins in Europe also lost 37 pounds ( 3 months of Mounjaro injections) but she actually looked better before ; now she's too thin she looks sick.
I also really need to get away on a trip and it's been 2 years since my last one ( Dominican Republic) but I guess going back to the Caribbean any time soon is out of the question following that bad hurricane(75% of Jamaica is still without power) so maybe go back to Europe again , or maybe even India, where I've always wanted to go to, and I named my new hippo plushie Heinrich.
Heinrich The Hippo.
My hubby also said the entire country shut down last night just to watch some dumb baseball game(I think is stupid) but at least the good is they weren't out worshipping Satan for Halloween ( and it was also pouring rain as well. ha,ha!!) and last night as I was watching the news an image showed up on the TV screen from the Ring doorbell/camera that Spider-Man was at the door and at first I was like, Huh? What the .....???? and then I remembered what day it was and I laughed.😆
I also still want to die(today was the day I originally planned to end it, and it's also All Saint's Day to counter-act the evil from yesterday); I just don't want to have to do it myself but I probably will still end up having to some time eventually if it takes too long and I sure as hell don't want to live for another 20-30 years or even for 5-10 more years, and I don't even have any support in my joy either as well as not in my sorrow; even when I'm happy and trying to enjoy a spark of joy in my life my hubby always has to demean, dismiss,and belittle it and always has to tear it down and ruin it for me and take away my joy as soon as he finds out that something makes me happy so I have quickly learned to just NOT tell him, trying to make it last as long as I can.
I have to enjoy in private so it can't be taken away from me.
You have only 1 birthday, the rest are congratulations for surviving.-Lokesh Kumar
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