Don't Bring Me Down.

My hubby is pretty much done putting up the outdoor Christmas lights he just has a couple of strands that don't work that need replacing and the neighbours at the corner have nice ones ,too, that alternate between red and green, and Beja and I had lots time to hang out and be together over the weekend as the 31 YR old wasn't here to steal him off me and it was nice. He also returned my parka from the drycleaners except it doesn't look like it came from a drycleaners ( my BFF's parents used to own one before they went into the restaurant business) as it wasn't on a hanger and didn't have the clear bag over it and it didn't have a tag on it,either, making me wonder if it ever really was, or if it was just some story him and his GF made up to cover up for what really happened to it, but in any case I'm just glad I finally got it back. My abdomenal and back pain is also still sooooo bad I just wish whatever it is would just get on with it and explode and be done with it already.

I'm so tired of this shit.

My hubby also keeps nagging me to exercise even though with my breathing issues I can't exert myself plus I just don't care anymore,either, I'm depressed and just gave up; gave up on life, gave up on everything. I prefer to atrophy. If Ozempic was covered I'd use it though; I just hate exercise.I just don't see the point of anything anymore and am just waiting to die. An asshole online also brings me down taunting I'm a 'redneck" and "white trash" because I'm overweight even though I wasn't always( just once I turned 45) and I have seen plenty of rednecks who are skinny(esp. the Methheads) and some very wealthy people who are fat, like one of my mothers friends who was  rich and easily over 300 pounds  and she even had her own personal dressmaker, so you can't judge by that, and that I "live in filth" because due to my medical issues I can't do housework like I used to even though there are also 3 other people that live here too that are healthy and strong and perfectly capable of cleaning so it's not all just on me, they just don't bother, and I "don't go to the dentist" even though I DO when it's warranted; to get fillings and extractions; I just don't go needlessly, like for cosmetic work, and because I "yell, scream and fight with my family" even though they always put me down and I just stand up to the abuse.

Plus, I like cultural stuff, such as art, music, the theatre, ballet, and opera, I've travelled to 39 countries and speak 4 languages, and don't like redneck things like sports, wrestling, darts, pool, bowling, NASCAR, gambling, country music, alcohol, bars, casual sex, violence, being slutty, rude table manners, etc.

Like ELO says Don't bring me down.

I already hate myself and feel badly enough, shit like this only makes me feel worse and to want to kill myself even more, and like I don't even deserve to live..

The Pope is also returning historical artifacts to Indigenous communities here and call it a "gift" even though it originally belonged to them in the first place, and Trump threatens to invade Venezuela and  I bet as more and more is released of the Epstein Files revealing his involvement( and we all know it will be) his brain-washed cult-like devotees and followers will still somehow  find a way to try and "justify"  it and support him. We might also get another election called here in the Shithole if the minority Liberal gov't budget doesn't pass and the gov't falls.

I sure hope so! It will give us another chance to finally get rid of the Liberals!!

This is the last worthless evening That you'll have to spend 'Cause it won't be long 'Till your little heart is on the mend.-Don Henley