My Son, The Doctor.

Recent update:

Now the 31 YR old has decided to become a doctor!

He said when he took the college entrance exam his grades were so over-the-top high, practically genius level that they advised him he could "do anything" and said the nursing program "wouldn't be challenging enough" so he decided to go for medicine,. even though it was just the nursing program the gov't covers even though there's also a doctor shortage and he has to use his savings( he'd saved up to buy out his former boss of his business  originally....until it turned out he did something illegal and now is tangled up in some sort of lawsuit) plus get grants and scholarships. I'm happy for him and encourage him and I hope it works out but at the same time I'm also skeptical because I also know he never stays with anything for too long and let's face it, Medical School is NOT "easy" and most people aren't up for it and I just don't want him to get in over his head, over-estimating himself,, and have unrealistic expectations, and he's always thought he's some sort of super genius that's indestructable and can do anything, and I don't want him to burn out or to get hurt or disappointed if it doesn't work out.

He says he won't actually graduate and start working until he's almost 40(but who cares; age doesn't matter,anyway) and hopes to eventually go into dermatology as they have the best working hours and he already got his textbooks(shown above, and I bet I know which one is his fave.....ha,ha) and one alone cost 350$! Holy shit! I still remember when I went to college back in the 80's and I thought 75$ for a book was alot and I remember my most costly ones were the Psychology and art books but buying them used is always a good idea as it's cheaper and if you get lucky they sometimes are even underlined or even have little notes written in them.😂

He starts Pre-Med at the college in January and then said he can transfer over to the university(and there's one an hour away that's supposed to have a good medical program,too) and eventually go to Medical School.

This is also a snow sky looming, and yesterday I heard my mother's fave. singer Johnny Mathis singing one of his Christmas songs on the radio and it made me think of her and it made me sad, and for me now Christmas is just like my childhood birthday parties; just distant memories of a happy time in my past that are long gone now,  and I still laugh remembering Christmas-time as a kid,too, I would wear my leotard and drape myself in tinsel and garland and prance around the livingroom thinking I was glamorous, pretending I was a movie star, and I saw my Angel Bird yesterday again as well,  and it's sad to realize when I die I'll be no different than a homeless person with no one to love me or miss me, and my family thinks I'm "lazy", too ,when really I'm just actually depressed  and giving up.

Giving up on life.

Giving up on everything.

I also am pretty sure my itchy thing is ringworm(a contagious fungal infection), likely from Beja( maybe that's why he smells like corn chips; he has yeast?) but luckily I still have some OTC fungal yeast cream left-over from my vaginal yeast infections and Athlete's Foot I can use, and I sadly had to finally  retire my fave. grey Roots hoodie as the elbows have worn completely out  and have holes now but I have had it for something like 15-20 years though, and when I said I wish I had Buddy back someone online said I have Beja, but it's just not the same; he's just like my dog( and not even really that as he's always off with the 31 YR old and hardly with me) but Buddy was my soulmate.

Take me back to my boat on the river I need to go down, I need to come down Take me back to my boat on the river And I won't cry out any more.-Styx