We got a shitload of snow all day yesterday and Beja didn't go out to pee until this morning when it had finally stopped! I had to shovel him a little pathway 3 times yesterday and it kept getting snowed back in but luckily it was the light fluffy powdery snow and not the heavy wet "packing" snow but I still put my back out. This morning on the news on the radio they said we got 20cm(which is just over 7 inches) but I think we got more than that , more like 35 cm or so as it goes up to my knees! Yesterday I also heard what I thought sounded like thunder and Beja kept barking at as well but my hubby said was just the snow plow going rumbling by and today it's sooooooooooo cold it's -21C with a wind-chill of -29C!
Yesterday in Toronto they even had to close down the Don Valley Parkway for hours due to the unsafe conditions and all the accidents and it was either on Highway 400 or 401 they had over 200 accidents as well , the LRT didn't run,and a snow plow even crashed into a VIA rail train,too, disrupting people's travel for hours. What was a snow plow even doing on the train tracks in the first place though? It was really bad. When I was a kid I would have gone toboganning but now I just sit on my veranda or look out the window and watch the snow fall down.
This is also my sweet little boy, and we're supposed to get more snow again today and tomorrow and I can't believe it's already the middle of January already and they say the last 2 weeks of the month are going to be bitterly cold, and yesterday my abdomenal and back pain was so bad(I had a headache as well) I was all sweaty and felt like I was going to puke from the pain, and yesterday I also heard Stairway To Heaven on the radio and then again this morning as well, and now Saturdays are the day my hubby goes up to see the 31 YR old at his dorm and gets his groceries, and I laugh now still remembering my biggest worry in school was not being able to find a gym partner or a science lab partner or having to eat lunch by myself and yet now I go to concerts alone and travel solo.
Now I like being alone and I actually prefer it.
Even though with time the pain of my grief of losing my mother and Buddy is lessening I still just exist and don't really live, I lost a part of myself, my will to live, and a reason to live, and now Carney has allowed some EVs from China into the market and in return China will lift some tariffs on canola, etc. and we'll also be increasing trade , moving away from reliance on USA which I think is a smart move but others criticize as "cozying up to the 'Commies'" and Trump is furious but who gives a shit, and who even asked him,anyway, or cares what he thinks? We don't need his "permission" anyway, and it's all because of him and his stupid tariffs and threats of annexation that started the whole thing to begin with! The fact that it pisses him off is just a bonus!😂
Nobody talks about the grief
of realizing how much life you lost
to survival mode.-LetsHeal&Recover
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