Hotboxing It.

It's soooooo frickin' **COLD** out(it was the same yesterday,too!) that there was noooooo WAY Beja would even go out to pee or I would sit outside to smoke mi ganja( no matter what my hubby says about not smoking in the house, and besides, it's MY house!) so I just snuck downstairs to the basement into a distant separate  enclosed room and lit it up, reminding me of when I was 12 and my friend would sneak one of her mother's cigarettes and we would sneak in my garage to smoke it,and it was sort of like "hotboxing" but there's no way I'm going out there when it's THIS cold and getting hypothermia! F*ck that!  I also heard Stairway To Heaven again yesterday and the Saturday radio how Flashback wasn't even on yesterday and no explanation,either, and I didn't realize at first it was the 7th yesterday, making it exactly 10 months since Buddy died,too, and I wonder how him and my mother( their ashes) like it in the cabinet, sitting next to the Jesus statue, the snow globe I got from the Dominican Republic, and the Anime CDs?

I also saw this little leather purse and I had the exact same one when I was 12. It was from India and made from cheap leather that always had this really bad smell, esp. when it rained and it was so small you could only fit a few bills or coins n it. I also have 26K followers on my Twitter  in the past 7 days, and I was also horrified to hear about the overly Satanic symbolism and rituals at the opening ceremony at the Winter Olympics (when they show you who they are, believe them)and also that schools in Milano are closed and it's not right that the locals are disrupted because of the stupid thing,  and there's this rumor also going around now as well that McDonald's uses HUMAN MEAT in their food and have for awhile and I can still remember when I was a kid back in the 70's there was talk that they used worms as "fillers" for their beef and I thought that  was bad enough!

Ewwwwww!!!!

This was also a popular hairstyle in the 70's, called the "Shag" (which makes me laugh as in British slang "shag" also means to f*ck) and I always loved it but could never pull it off myself because I've always had such shitty thin, limp, fine hair. It also horrifies me how prolific the Epstein Files go, how many people are involved in the sick Satanic pedophile cabal, how wide spread it is and how deep  the "rabbit hole" really goes( wait until you find out out Disney) they can't possibly be human, and Jesus really  needs to come back soon, like right now, it's so bad, the world desperately needs a re-set,and I also have to re-new my passport which expires in November and I'll get my photo done in May or June when I have a tan and don't look so pale and washed-out and I'll do the 10 year one again, and the youngest did "Adulting" yesterday as well, trying to get his first cell phone except he couldn't find anything for under 200$ so he has to keep looking, maybe get a used one,and the 31 YR old's mouth still hurts from his tooth extraction and he's now dating someone studying accounting he met on campus, most likely at an extra- curricular event as I doubt accounting and med take the same courses, and my hubby said I'm "going to disown him" as well and when I asked why; did he prostitute himself or sell drugs or something he said no, he went to a redneck  country music event!

Ewwwwww!!

I'm so ashamed and embarrassed!

He obviously got THAT from my hubby, not from me!

I actually have good taste in music.

I think I'd be less disappointed if he actually did prostitute himself or sell drugs. HA!

Someone on Twitter said I'm "awful" when I posted about it; that I don't let  or support my kids having interests I don't like except I DO ( anime, for example; I think it's lame and can't for the life of me see what they see in it but they all like it for some reason) just as long as it's NOT sinful, occult, or redneck. I still do have some standards and expectations for my kids and I'm allowed  to disagree and disapprove.

Suicidal thoughts don’t always sound like “I want to die.” Sometimes they sound like: • “I can’t keep doing this.” • “I don’t want to wake up tomorrow.” • “I’m tired of being strong.” • “I feel trapped in my own life.” • “I don’t belong here.” • “Everything feels too heavy.” These aren’t attention seeking thoughts. They’re pain and it’s unbearable.-Amy