Alone.

Yesterday I saw on one the Retro sites these toys I remember I had from my childhood in the 70's and early 80's and it made me smile and brought back happy memories.

I remember the Hugo  puppet who you could make many different disguises with various hair,eyes, moustaches, scars, teeth, glasses,and hats and stuff and my fave. Spirograph  below which was art and you could make cool geometric designs and one year I got 2 or 3 of them because multiple people gave it to me for gifts one Christmas. I really loved that thing!

I also saw a TV commercial for the dumbest-looking show ever: Bachelor Mansion Takeover where former The Bachelor  contestants restore an old mansion.

Yawn.

No matter how  bad life gets, no matter how bored or housebound I am, I would never watch that, or The Bachelor,  or Summer House ( a show about a bunch of sex-crazed horny badgers) or ANY of those lame-ass Reality shows.

No thanks.

I'd never  be that desperate.

I also can't understand why people PAY $$$ for streaming services for music when you can just listen for free on the radio and if you don't want the ads then just listen to it on your device.

I also had a Stretch Armstrong The leg tore off mine though and the gooey red gel inside got all hard. I guess I was just too "much" for him, ha,ha.

Yesterday I also saw at least a dozen grackles in our tree at once as well as a robin, a dove, a chickadee,and a red-winged blackbird, and it's nice to see and hear the birds back again( a sign of spring) and Beja is just fascinated by them and he'll just sit there and stare at them mesmerized. Now the 31 YR old's moved out he follows my hubby around like he used to do with him and I'm still  just "good enough" if he's  not here, and the other day when he left the room and told him he's :all alone now" I said "What about me? I'm still here in the room with him, he's not alone!" he said to him, "Like I said, you're all alone"

That really hurt.

Not only do I feel alone but he makes me feel alone which is even worse and he even encourages it.

I had 2 of the Cabbage Patch Kids (the bald one was my fave) and they were such a biiiiig hit I remember my uncle lining up for hours at the store to score some for his grand-daughters, who now have adult kids of their own.

My hubby also says to move to London to be near the 29 YR and "future grandchildren" even though I doubt he'll even have any kids  first of all being a trans man plus  the hormones likely ruined any possibility of that,anyway, and I'm also not exactly "eager" for grandkids; I went thru enough shit with my own kids and now I'm finally done  and free and I don't need to go thru it again, plus he's not exactly nice  to me,either, and has always been the one at Christmas to give gifts to everyone except me in a cruel and deliberate snub and I don't "need" people like that in my life, so no thanks. I could never see him again and I'd be ok with that; I certainly don't want to live near him. I also doubt him and his fiance will EVER get married as they've been together for 8 YRS and even bought a house together....so if they haven't gotten married by now I doubt they ever will.

Lite-Brite  was fun and my cousin and I both had one and it burned your fingers and made them smell all smoky but you got to make cool art and design.

This was also the "ultimate" in video games in 1981-82.

I had this one as well as his partner The Bionic Woman  and even watched the TV shows,too.

....and everyone and his brother  had this  as a toddler. I had it and my kids had it. This is a timeless Classic and I hope is in the Toy Hall Of Fame. I loved this so much.

I wish I could go back.

Those were good times.

It is a fact in life that I am never chosen above others.