Today's Truth.

 

Onward.

Today is my ex-friend J's birthday. A day I will never forget. I loved her like a sister and she did me dirty. She really betrayed me: When I was transferring over to her school mid-year in grade 9 due to being bullied at my school she promised she'd help me adjust and introduce me to her friends, etc...

when in actual reality  she went behind my back to the school officials and told them to NOT let me transfer as she "didn't like me" and if they let me come in she'd  transfer out.

When I found out I was just so hurt, so betrayed, so gutted.

I can't believe she did that to me.

It felt like knife in my back.

One day in the new school as I was in the hallway with her the guidance teacher also walked by and saw me with her, knowing what she had done and he just gave me a sad look, knowing what a false friend she was, even though at that time I wasn't aware yet.

I also can't find my earbuds headphones I need for the long drive to the "Ex" next week as my hubby refuses to listen to my "stupid music" and I couldn't find them even though I only keep them in my purse  or backpack; it wasn't there but as I was cleaning out my purse looking I also found $$$$, 100$, so I'm getting myself a gourmet pizza tonight!  It was also 10C overnight  a reminder summer really is coming to an end and I might even have to close my bedroom window and I heard Stairway To Heaven  yesterday,too.

The dance studio across the street also had their parking lot paved(I hate to think how much that costs!) and the 31 YR old said him and his GF are getting eachother Promise rings I think is sweet and he said they hope to marry sometime in the future as well(but he said the same about the last one,too),  I just hope the 90 minute distance between them once he starts at the new school won't tear them apart and they won't find someone else, and I still hardly see much of Beja or get to spend much time with him with him here, and even yesterday when he told him to Go sit with your step-mother ( he meant adoptive mother) he still stayed with him and even when I go over and pick him up and bring him over to me he still jumps off and leaves and goes over to him and it breaks my heart.

I just wished he loved me like that and loved me as much as I love him.

It's just not the same like it was with Buddy.

I even knew him before I got him and saw him in dreams months before ; a brown and white Chihuahua that cost the exact same as I paid for him.

It was like God was saving him for me.

Time alone, oh, time will tell You think you're in heaven but you're living in hell.-Bob Marley

 

Musing For The Day.

 

Thursday Thoughts.

THIS.

...and with my ass up in the air.

Canna granny.

Do I look like a maid?