Yesterday Beja had a "dingleberry" stuck to his ass hanging out he couldn't get off so I went over to try to get it off but he squawked and kept trying to bite me and run away but I got it off nevertheless and Buddy used to even let me "pump" impacted shit out of his ass and we just had this bond like no other and he trusted me implicitly and there's always been this "barrier" between Beja and I that Buddy and I never had and that's what I miss the most. Buddy was one-of-a-kind and I know no one can ever "replace" him but it was that knowing; that trust; he knew I would never hurt him and I knew he would never bite me. I really miss that.This morning he also had to shit but he was good and jumped down off the bed and did it on the emergency pee pad I have on my bedroom floor just in case. I also saw my Angel Bird again yesterday and this morning I coughed soooooo baaaad I ended up barfing and the 31 YR old sees a neurologist next week for his multiple concussions and resulting lingering headaches.
My post-Easter stash of chocolate also normally lasts me 4 weeks and I'm starting on my last one now and it's only been 3 weeks so my only possible explanation is they must be smaller this year? I also got a new 2.3L of coconut oil and when I last got it 6 months or so ago it was only 25$....and it's now 45$ my hubby blamed Trump's tariffs.....except it comes from the Philippines....I guess it's just inflation but holy shiiiiit, *everything* is just sooooo EXPENSIVE NOW and Saskatchewan got a whopping 70cm of snow as well( holy shiiiiit again!)and I hope I die before my hubby retires in 2-3 years because I'll no longer have his employee INSURANCE 80% coverage for my meds and we can't afford to pay, and I hope to retire in Jamaica ( my Happy Place) too yet fear it'll end up like with L.A. my mother and I dreamed to move there after several trips which we did in 1984 but our dream turned into a nightmare and we ended up moving back. Some places are nice to visit but not to live.
I need spoilers about my future to know if in the end I'm happy, because otherwise I'll just kill myself right now.-Leo
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