I Do And I Do.

I was originally going to post this tomorrow but I feel motivated to write tonight so here it is.

I can still clearly remember when I first got Beja and the breeder asked me, "Are you sure you want him?" making me wonder if he was maybe The Runt or something and then telling at the end, "Make sure to love him."

I do.

I do.

I do and I do.

I do want him and I do love him.

and I always will.

He is perfect  and exactly what God knew I needed.

Just like with Buddy.

Today I also have this stabbing pain behind my left eye and now it's really starting to get annoying and The youngest had either a bee or a wasp in his room and asked me if we had a fly swatter which we don't so I just told him to use a washcloth or a towel and swat it which he did. There was also this big grey cloud passing overhead when I was outside and I thought ,"Oh, no!" but then thought of George Harrison who once said

All things must pass

and it did

and the sun came back out again.

I also wonder if it's "normal" to always have a constant ongoing internal monologue running in your head like I do or if it's just an autistic or bipolar thing or if I'm just weird, and tomorrow I decided I'm finally going to do my stupid passport; I keep putting it off to fill out the form for the renewal but I want to just get it over and done with and get it sent off, and I can still remember as a kid going to my Aunt T's and laying on her couch and it was a dark blue, not quite a Navy blue but a couple of shades lighter and a "quilted" material with some flowers along the edges and it had really big arms and I'd lay down facing the back of the couch/wall and curl up next to my mother with my feet on her lap and fall asleep listening to the adults gossip, and being at my babysitter's at age 2 or 3 or so in her backyard and I can still see the green grass and the white "Muskoka" chair in her yard and her little boy I played with( we put "hickies" all over eachother, the lady(I called "Oma" just like the others did) tried to blame entirely on me but my mother pointed out it was impossible for me to put hickies on my own back) and the grossest thing I can remember are my mother and my Aunt I sitting in the kitchen picking blackheads out of eachother's backs using bobbypins.

ewwwwww!!!! 😱

I also ordered-in pizza for the youngest and I for our treat since my hubby's away.

 I got a Butter Chicken pizza( shown here) and the youngest got his usual fave. bacon & pepperoni...except it ended up costing waaaaay more than I expected, but to be fair, still likely less than half what my hubby's probably paying for just one night at his hotel in Montreal.

This is our treat.

It was 58$....holy f*ck, I know.

At first my "Gourmet" pizza was 20$. Ok, a bit "pricey" but I thought I could "balance" it out since  his ' was "just" 12$.....except they charged 4$ for each topping(I wasn't aware of at first)...adding another 8$...bringing that 12$ pizza now up to 20$.....

Totalling 40$.

Ok, still not too bad considering when we order in other food it's been 35$ before.....

but...

in total with taxes, fees, and delivery it somehow ended up to be 58$.

I know, what the f*ck, an extra 18$?

It's going to do us for more than just one meal and more than just one day at that price!!

He just said his was "All right" after all that,too, but I really liked mine!!

It was funny,too: the delivery guy looked so much like my dear friend who died last year and the shocking resemblance  just took my breath away: long grey hair in a pony tail and a bandana and a grey beard. He looked like a biker and he noticed my Def Leppard  concert shirt and asked if I've seen them and I said "Of course!!" and told him how it was an outdoor summer concert and it poured rain and I got soaked but still had a great time anyway and he said it would have been even more fun in the rain in the Mosh Pit and we shared a laugh.

 I also finally decided on my belated Mother's Day gift: the salted caramels here I ordered online today.

Below is their fancy store.

It even said they're chewy caramels too like I loooooooove and NOT the yucky gooey caramel I don't like.

It must be a texture/autistic thing.

I was afraid with MY "luck" after spending all that $$$$(they weren't cheap: 30$ but with shipping ended up to be 40$. I could have got free shipping.....if I spent 70$ or more....) they'd end up the yucky soft gooey caramel I hate but it said chewy.

I know it's expensive but it's a gift, and it's chocolate....

We moved and moved and moved again chasing the next thing, whatever that was.-Ron Kutch