Complete & Utter Shite.

Yesterday and today are *REALLY* bad  days.

I'm in soooooooo much pain!!

I feel like complete & utter shite.

Yesterday I had a headache soooooo bad and my abdomenal and back pain was sooooo bad  I felt like I was going to barf from the pain and I didn't know which one was worse and at one point I felt so cold and chilled as well I couldn't stop shivering and even my teeth were chattering and when I tried to take my BP the cuff squeezed my arm so tight I thought it would explode and the numbers kept going up and up, past 200 and then it said ERROR.....so it either needs new batteries or else I'm a goner.

I also had the burning pain deep in my chest again and the feeling of a big lump stuck in my throat and today it's even worse: the abdomenal pain is sooooo bad all I can do is rock with the pain(easily a 7 or 8 out of 10 on the pain scale) and I keep feeling like I'm going to pass out and I know it's really bad too because I do what I do when I'm in severe pain I'm on the "edge" of no longer being able to bear: I go really quiet and "withdraw" into myself. I also had actual real  sharp pains in my chest this morning as I lay in bed before I got up as well, it was even hard to move,so much so I honestly thought THIS IS IT  and I just lay down petting Beja and praying, waiting for The End.

Maybe today is finally The Day?

Yesterday I also saw my Angel Bird and heard Stairway To Heaven again and my hubby fell asleep on the couch and had a nap, still adjusting to the time difference and now he knows how I feel every day; I always feel jet-lag tired and need a nap every day just trying to survive life. Yesterday as I opened the back door to let Beja out to pee I was also startled by a biiiig raccoon 5 times his size out on the porch and it was only 4 pm or so and not even dark yet so I shooed it away. They don't normally come out until night. This is exactly why though I never leave him outside alone.

With it raining all day yesterday(we should finally be able to get back out today! Yay!) I also watched 2 movies I had my hubby download for me: Disclosure Day and Toy Story 5 both of which I liked and enjoyed, but Toy Story 5 was in Spanish( he never checks ahead of time and just assumes they're in English) so from now on I'm going to see the Toy Story characters as Spanish! Disclosure Day  also had French subtitles,too, so if I couldn't hear something I didn't miss anything because I could just read the subtitles, and I heard Taylor Swift had comedian( and I don't even think he's really even all that funny but more of a doofus) Adam Sandler officiate her wedding and  I think that would be just like having an Elvis impersonator marry you in Vegas. 

 My hubby also said 9 August is when the 31 YR has to move OUT of his current dorm but so far has no move-in date for his new one(but obviously before school starts in early September)....meaning he'll be moving back here for a few weeks, afterall,  and I really don't miss things like "I can't find my backpack!" "Where are my shoes?" "I only have 1 sock!" "He hit me!" "She started it!" "I know you are, but what am I?" etc.

The kids also used to call us "Mama" and "Papa" when they were little and now they still affectionately call my hubby "Papa" but now I've been "downgraded" to the more formal "Mother."

I don't miss the kids at all.

Retirement is really nice.

I have the miserable until you kill yourself disorder.-Saccharine.