Censored Post.

This is a sample of the most recent censored post I'd posted on my last blog that my hubby had deleted. My family doesn't like the things I post about them; about the cruel way they mistreat and abuse me, how they always devalue, demean, dismiss, ridicule, belittle, berate,insult, gang up on, degrade, and bully me, and they're always putting me down, being critical and condescending of me, making me feel like I don't belong and am not welcome or belong in my own family, pushing me out. Of course they say that's my fault though and blame me, saying I'm just too sensitive, or Can't take a joke and take things too personally, trying to justify their abuse. My hubby and mother have emotionally abused me for years and now the kids are older they copy them, imitating how they treat me,too.
We now have 4 kids still left at home along with my mother and my hubby and I'm always on the outside looking in, a stranger in my own family, made to feel like an unwelcome guest in my own home. I wish I could move out on my own but I have no $$$$, no skills, and nowhere to go,plus with my limitations I need help and couldn't survive on my own and need help so I feel trapped, like a hostage.They treat me like shit and then they wonder why I hate my family and my life and want to run away from home and wish I was dead.
Here is the post I recovered that had been deleted behind my back. It's quite simple though,really: if they want me to stop posting about all the shitty things they do and the shitty way they treat me then how about they just stop being so shitty and stop doing such shitty things? There's an idea. Here's the "offensive" post they didn't want you to see so here it is. The more they try and shut me up, the louder I will proclaim it:

One of the kids told me that the 19 YR old's BF is posessive and controlling, which are red flags for abuse, incl. warning for predictable future physical abuse: apparantly he isolates her from family and friends, that he's the real reason she didn't come up for Thanksgiving and isn't coming for Christmas, and he won't "let" her be friends with guys, only girls, and even then only 2 at a time and only people that he pre-approves, and every day he goes thru her phone and text messages and "screens"  and monitors them,etc.... I don't know if any of this is actually even true or not; it's just what I've been told,but it's concerning, and all the kids have been caught lying, making shit up, telling stories, causing drama, and telling tall tales, and getting eachother into trouble, so I don't know <em>what</em> to believe anymore,and when I asked the others they said it's <em>not</em> true, and I hope it's not, but if there is any truth to it, it really worries me as it's <strong>NOT</strong> a healthy or safe relationship. I don't know why she'd put up with this kind of crap though, and she's a pretty girl and would have her pick of any guy she'd want and wouldn't have to settle for anything less, so it doesn't make any sense, but it worries me...what if it really is true?... why do they always put me thru so much stress and worry all the time?