First BIG Snow!

Last night we got our first BIG snowfall. Last time it was just a light dusting but this time it was 10-15 cm.As much as I complain about the snow I have to admit that it is pretty though; it looks like a snowglobe or a winter wonderland and always reminds me of those magical childhood Christmases, but I don't like the cold! I was also woken up at 3 am with this big headache and wasn't able to go back to sleep but it wasn't a migraine; those have been virtually eliminated ever since my medical marijuana I started 3 years ago and has been a life-saver and a godsend. The hallucinations are back again as well after a brief break, and they only started in the summer so I doubt it's due to the weed or even my bipolar(which I've had along with my depression since I was 13, which began from the trauma of years of being bullied mercilesly in school) since it's just recent and the neurologist thinks it may be caused by extreme and chronic long-term stress. I'm also still waiting to get my MRI which will also update me on my White Matter Decline,too, to see if it's gotten any worse or stayed the same.
My mother noticed as well that the scale in the bathroom's being moved every day and was concerned it might be the 15 YR old obsessively weighing herself every day; that her eating disorder might have relapsed but it turned out that it was my hubby, so I wonder if he has some issue, or, more likely that he's probably got a mistress, esp. since he has been into exercise and yoga lately, conscious of his appearance and he hasn't touched me ever since I was prego with the youngest(and he's 11 now) so he must be getting it somewhere. Oddly though, I don't even care. Meeting him was one of the biggest regrets of my life. I never should have settled and I now realize that I would have been better off single than to end up with the wrong person. I only got with him as it was that or nothing( and I wanted a family) as he was the only guy that was ever interested in me, afterall, guys aren't exactly lining up for ugly girls like me, but marriying him and having kids ended up ruining my life; my dream that turned into a nightmare.I still hope it's not too late though to find the love, romance,and happiness that I never got to experience in life...with God all things are possible....

Here are also the 3 things that I love the most and make me the happiest:

 

My Boy Buddy 

Sunflowers

Hippos