Promises Of Love.

The 19 YR old's BF gave her a Promise Ring and with it he told her he promises to love her forever. Awwwww. That's just the sweetest, most adorable thing ever. I wish everyone could find a love like that. I wish I could have a love like that. I wish love could last forever. I'm so happy for her and my mother was pondering which of the kids will likely get married first and at this point it would most likely be her or the 22 YR old since they're the ones who are dating, but at 19 I'd think she's kind of young and then my mother shot back at me, What were you doing at their age? It's true at 22 I had my first child, but back then in the 80's (in the "olden" days, ha, ha) people also got married and started their families earlier, in their early 20's and now it tends to be later, closer to 30, and there's no rush and besides, it's better to wait and make sure you found the Right One.

  I hope it's still not too late for me to find love and experience romance. I know it's not too likely, given my looks, my age, my medical issues and so on but I can still dream and God is known for working miracles. I never had much luck even before, when I was young and thin (I was still ugly) but now even less so I'm also fat and old, too, as well as even more f*cked up than I was before, due to years of trauma and brokenness, not to mention all the medical issues. Yeah.....some "prize". I still have needs though and my heart can still dream, and one is never too old for love. Everyone needs to be loved and to feel cherished, wanted, desired,important, needed, beautiful,and to find that Special Someone that you just "mesh" with, that "gets" you, that always has your back, is on your side, that defends you and looks out for you, where it's just the two of you against the world. Someone that sees your flaws, your weaknesses,your imperfections,your Bad Days, your baggage, your hurt and pain, your brokenness, and loves you anyway and loves you enough to help you heal.

  As well, one of my cousins in Europe had a local paper write an article on her outdoor Christmas lights display(it rivals Snoopy's doghouse and would give us a run for our money!) and as for ours people stop by driving and even take photos of it and even ring on our door telling us how much they like it.