Ugly Christmas Sweater Party.

Yesterday was the annual Ugly Christmas Sweater party with my hubby's family at the country club. In the photo above is my hubby and the 4 of the kids that still remain at home and below is everyone at the party. One of my hubby's brothers is a golf pro that works at the club teaching golf. I never went for a couple of reasons: first of all, with my Asperger's and Social Phobia I hate parties and other social events and activities and loathe anything to do with socializing and mingling. I always feel so uneasy, awkward,panicky, uncomfortable, out of place, nervous,and never know what to say and I always just keep to myself anyway and end up sitting alone in a corner somewhere quietly observing everyone from a distance.

Also, it's my hubby's family, not mine( and even with my own family, I've only gone to 3 family reunions over the past 17 YRS we're had family reunions every year) and his crazy sister was there and I don't want to run into her or see her ever again ever since she kidnapped the second-oldest when she was a baby. You see, she had 4 boys but desperately wanted a girl but was unable to have more kids so she just took mine and I had to go to the police and go to court to get her back and after that I banished her from ever seeing the kids again when they were little and want nothing to do with her.

Decades ago I did used to go to the odd Christmas or New Year's Eve party, but that was also before  the worst and the majority of the traumas came and heaped up on me and broke me down more and more each time, and the more traumas I endured, the more I withdrew and isolated myself and the worse it got.Now I pretty much just stay home unless it's going to church or for medical app't's.