Ugh!

Not much to say since I'm sick and I spent most of yesterday(and will probably also spend most of today,too) up in bed sleeping. Even when I just stand up to go to the bathroom or brush my teeth I'm so dizzy it feels like I'm going to faint and poor Buddy doesn't know why I can't take him out for his walks and he's worried about me and spends most of the time curled up in bed next to me napping with me.He also keeps staring intently at something at the end of my bed no one else sees but him as well. I wonder what it is? Could it possibly be my Guardian Angel keeping watch over me and he can see it? He's such a good boy, so sweet, and such a good protector. When one of the kids knocked on my door for something he perked right up too, alert and barking, warning me of a potential intruder and danger, waking me up. The room is spinning and I even see double. I have this plaque on my wall that says Love me, love my  and has a picture of a Dachshund but I keep seeing it as Love me, love me, love my my and images of  two Dachshunds. I also alternate between chills and sweats and the headache is just something god-awful. I just want to crawl into a hole somewhere and die. I'm just grateful though that I'm NOT barfing like the 15 and 11 YR olds did, and like a true hippo I found myself falling asleep in the water,too, as I lay in the bathtub, so I wisely decided it was probably a good time to come out at that point and go back to bed.

  I got the surprising news as well my friend T (from the old church) is prego and she's in her mid-40's at least; at least 45, and she always had problems getting prego before and her kids are now around 17 and 12 or so so this is amazing news, a miracle. It's a real blessing for sure and I'm happy for them, but if it was me I'd be horrified, but at my age (52) it really would not only be a miracle but also an immaculate conception too since I haven't been laid in 12 years!  :D  I'm so totally done having kids though; I don't have the stamina or the patience for that crap anymore, plus my health is shit now,anyway and there's no way I'd ever want to go thru the hell kids put you thru ever again.