Roseyard.

I will never forget Roseyard. It sounds like some sort of codeword but in actual fact it occured when I was in grade 2 or 3. I had this friend whose last name was Rochard but I thought it was Roseyard. I was having a birthday party and my mother asked the names, first and last, of the friends I wanted to invite as she was very formal about that sort of thing and had to mail out the invitations to them; I wasn't trusted to just hand them out to my friends I guess, and she even put a formal RSVP on the invitation and the whole bit only I wasn't quite sure what my friend I's last name was; I told her it was something like " Roseyard'".... and I never found out how she did it, but somehow she was able to find out it was, in fact, Rochard. It was French. Maybe she asked the teacher, I don't know, and then found the address in the phone book, I don't know, but it was funny either way. I also remember she said to her co-workers how my birthday parties Looked like the United Nations because I always had such a diverse racial and ethnic group of friends. I also always mis-heard stuff as a kid too and for the longest time thought that Smith Falls  was Spit Balls and the department store Simpsons-Sears was Simpsons Ears and called lungs glungs.

Yesterday for Ash Wednesday Mass I was also able to go to Confession to start Lent off right but due to the fasting and having a hungry empty stomach my stomach ulcer was acting-up and my stomach hurt all day and it still does today,too. It actually worked out that yesterday was a fasting day though as it was Wednesday which is what we call a Starvation Day anyway as it's the day before grocery day and we run out of food and have nothing to eat and are always hungry on Wednesdays as it is anyway and always have to scrounge around for food; even the dog forages for food under the sofa or on the carpet for whatever scraps he can find.The 17 YR old never received Communion yesterday which sort of shocked me; she said it burns her throat, reminding me of people possessed by demons who burn when they enter a church, but I guess if she's NOT in the proper State of Grace it's best that she doesn't, and she only goes to church because I make her and once she turns 18 in June she says she's never going again which makes me sad. I tried and did the best I could to raise them godly but I can only do so much.

I went to Wal-mart as well to pick up a few essentials ( deoderant, hair dye, etc.) and I also picked up this huge chocolate bar and my mother chastised me when I got back, I thought you were only going to get stuff you need? but I told her, in all honesty, But I DO need chocolate!! and anyone that knows me knows that it is an essential for me and she told me she had to take out another loan to help cover the cost of my trip too and that shocked and saddened me; we weren't to borrow any more $$$$ as we just can't afford it, and I had no idea she was going to do that and now I feel badly, but she also wanted to get rid of me for awhile just as badly as I  needed to get away so she probably did it more so for herself.