Sunday, April 7, 2019

Unconscious?


I think I might have been unconscious yesterday for around 3 HRS as there was a 3 HR period yesterday morning that was unaccounted for, that was just a big blank, that I can't remember, and that just went by and skipped past me without my knowledge or awareness. At first I thought I'd just fallen asleep on the couch but then later on it made me wonder if I'd perhaps passed-out: the abdomenal pain continues to worsen and is now hovering around the 8 out of 10 on the pain scale; really intense and nothing but weed will relieve it, it gives me a few blessed HRS of temporary relief so awhile after I took it yesterday the pain eased and I layed on the couch finally pain-free and was able to drift off to sleep.....or so I thought, anyway, but now wonder if it might have been more than that. What I had assumed and thought was just a short nap found me being violently shaken awake 3 HRS later by my mother asking, Are you OK? It's already 2:30 pm....you weren't waking up.....not even when Buddy was barking for you....is everything alright? and I had fallen asleep around 11 am....holy shit, really?

Normally, even with my earphones on, Buddy barking is the one thing I can always hear and always wakes me up and alerts me but apparantly this time I didn't even hear him and slept right thru it.It's like I was totally dead to the world and oblivious to all stimuli and all I remember is peacefully drifting off to a sweet place of no more pain and having a vivid dream or vision or whatever it was of hearing a dire warning:

Something is coming
Be careful
Watch out!

I wonder what that could be? I'm taking it to be most likely some sort of accident or natural disaster as I noticed it said something is coming and not someone, the context most likely pointing to an event rather than a person or an enemy of some sort that poses a threat and danger, and something I'm being alerted to ahead of time,too, so I assume I'm meant to survive and get thru and not succumb to,then? What could it be though? it really rattles me as I often do get warnings in dreams like this that do later end up coming true, like our fire for instance and our son's leukemia, to name a couple. I wonder too if the pain of the abdomen was just too much for my poor old haggard body to bear and it just shut down and mercifully shut down in an unconscious state for a while to relieve me of the pain, or if it's maybe even "preparing" itself for an impending death soon,perhaps?

Now Buddy's thing is avoiding me in the mornigs and hanging out upstairs with the kids but in the evenings he still hangs out with me curled up next to me on the couch while I watch the news and on my lap while I'm at the computer before bed and he still sleeps in my bed at night; it's just so weird.....what's with that dog lately,anyway.....and my hubby loves to rub it in and hurt my feelings even more by sneering hurtful things like He doesn't like you anymore! and The 17 YR old's his new favourite now! and You must have done something to get him mad at you! etc. He's such a cruel person and I'm glad he'll be away in Toronto all this week for work,too, and not here to hurt me by saying things like this.



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