All Gone.

It's a sad sight: the pool is now closed. The pool guy came yesterday and closed it up for winter. My mother said it was too expensive to keep it up and running ( water and electric) and I was the only one who used it anyway( and anything just for me isn't worth it as we all know because I don't matter or count in this family or at all) and it was just a waste of $$$$ and she had to "make up" the 500$ that one of the kids stole from her somehow. It just looks so sad, abandoned and alone now. it also signals the end of summer which is also a sad sight to see. It's 20x 40 feet which is an impressive size ( the pool guy said it's the biggest pool in town!) yet somehow it seems to look much bigger with the cover on it for some reason.

I was also woken at 4:30 am  with horrible abdomenal pain so bad I truly thought something either must be obstructed or rupturing; it was the kind of pain that just takes your breath away and you can't even move and makes you break out into a sweat. It lasted for an entire hour. I also have bad diarrhrea for the past 3 days too, and I mean this is real disrrhrea; pure liquid that just squirts right out and I'm getting dehydrated too; really dry "cotton mouth" and really thirsty. I still have pain now too and am really sweaty and also feel dizzy, faint and nauseated and I almost did faint yesterday actually. Today and for the next 4 days my hubby and kids are also away in Toronto at the Ex and FanExpo so I get a nice break for a few days and can smoke my doobies and blast my music and do whatever I want without being hassled.

My cousins went from San Francisco to Santa Monica as well and are now in Orange County and I presume will make their way to L.A. (I mean, how can you go to California and NOT go to L.A?) and fly back home to Europe from there, and I finally got a surgery date for my hysterectomy,too: 7 November, and Buddy was chasing the chipmunk up in my mother's room this morning too and emerged licking his lips but I don't think he actually caught it as there wasn't any blood anywhere, thank God. Being a Dachshund his hunting instinct is strong but it's not something I encourage him to do. I tell him to leave the poor little thing alone and to just let him live his life; he's just trying to survive like the rest of us.