Monarchs.

I've always had this "knowing" feeling that I would see a Monarch butterly just before I die and yesterday I saw 4 of them and one of them came so close to me it kept flying all around me and I thought it was going to land on me so I wonder.....that must mean I'm going to die in late summer or early fall though as that's when they migrate... I also bet my last dying words will be I wanna rock!....I was also shocked and saddened yesterday to hear a Facebook friend in the UK had died. She was only 47 and my fourth FB friend to have died in 8 years; the others all died of cancer and with her it was heart and multiple organ failure. I wasn't expecting it and didn't know she was that sick and the last time I heard from her a couple of weeks ago she said they thought something might be wrong with her heart. When she was 40 she had a non-cancerous brain tumour removed and I remember her saying it was the first time she'd ever had surgery or even been to the hospital, and she's had a rough life; when she was very small her Ghanian father sold her to a witch doctor where she was ritually abused in occult ceremonies until her maternal grandparents were able to rescue her and she left home as a young teen, was raped at 18 and struggled life-long with mental illness and with her sexuality and finally recently found love and then she died. It's all just so sad and I hope she's finally found peace and happiness. I wanted to share her story so she wouldn't be forgotten; so that people would know she existed and remember her.

My hubby's also off 2 weeks for summer vacation; this week and last week yet he said he couldn't find the time to take me to the "Ex" on a seperate day and had to squish it all into the same day as I went to the KISS concert, instead of going on 2 seperate days like I'd prefer so it's less rush, and for the past 3 days I feel even more sicky and yucky than usual; really sweaty, weak, faint, nauseated, no appetite( all I eat is a yogurt all day and I'm still not hungry) abdomenal pain, headache, and so tired I slept most of the day yesterday and I feel like I'm fading away and today the back of my head hurts again too and feels like when you hit it and get a sore bump except I never did, so I wonder if maybe it's a little brain bleed or a mini stroke or something? it's just like I had before only on the other side.

My cousins after being in California are now in Vegas too and so is my friend J from Ottawa and they could pass by eachother walking down the street and not even know it,  and my cousin M (who's been a chef for the past 15 years) now has a new Edibles business up and my mother asked me What are 'edibles?' and I said, What? Are you kidding? and I went on to explain it has 2 meanings; either something that you can eat, or in this case, cannabis-infused food items, and a house across the street has sunflowers now as well and one of them is so tall it's easily 7-8 feet tall and so impressive,and Buddy doesn't like my hubby bald either and he noticed the change and just keeps staring at him like What the f*ck, man? What did you do? It's so funny!

I also don't believe notorious pedophile Jeffrey Epstein committed "suicide" in prison either as bones in his neck were broken which is consistant with strangulation and not hanging(but don't get me wrong, the f*cker got what he deserved either way) and I can't think of anything WORSE  THAN A PEDOPHILE, and if I ever found out my hubby was one, for example, I wouldn't hesitate to report him and if I found out he(or anyone!) was doing anything to our kids I'd make a couple of calls and have him taken "care" of, Epstein-style.....