OctoGrad.

When the kids were packing ( last minute, of course, because that's how they roll; tossing items in their bags and in the car as they were going out the door that morning) for their 4 day adventure the other day I saw what I thought looked like a yellow Smiley-face or an octopus dressed in a graduation gown and cap (pictured here) but at first I didn't know if I was just seeing things or not; if it was just my imagination playing "tricks" on me, like another hallucination I sometimes get with my bipolar, but nope.....this one was actually real, this time I actually really was a yellow octopus dressed as a Grad and I had my mother take a look too just to verify and she saw it,too and laughed and named it OctoGrad and for some reason I just lost it. It just seemed so hilariously funny I just cracked up and couldn't stop laughing. It just seemed like the funniest thing ever. OctoGrad. I love it. Apparantly it's a character from some Anime; a teacher that got killed in his classroom. Yuck! Sinister and creepy, I know. That Anime is weird. What kind of crazy shit do they watch?

I've really been enjoying these past few days off with mostly everyone gone. It's just me, Buddy, my mother, and the 24 YR old home. it's been really nice and quiet and the 24 YR old mentioned it,too. No one here to provoke, instigate, be a shit-disturber, tease Buddy, berate, belittle or insult me ( my mother won't generally on her own; it's when she gets together with my hubby and they form an alliance but on her own she's generally not too bad) hassle me about my loud "stupid" music or my weed, call me names, put me down, disrespect my stuff, make a mess, steal stuff, etc... I even got to have a long leisurely bath with my bath-bomb and lavender epsom salts as long as I wanted and didn't have to rush out to get someone breakfast, or keep track of the time; I could just do whatever, whenever at a leisurely pace. I smoked myself cross-eyed, had long naps, took as long as I wanted doing whatever not having to rush, I could leave my blanket on the couch, blast my music and listen to the music I  want without having to put headphones on, sing out loud and dance around the room, etc. the only thing was I went to cut my hair and the hair shaver was gone.....they took it with them. I also couldn't find the AfterBite for my mosquito bites so I assume they must have taken that,too, but I had a wonderful relaxing break.

I've also been having bad dreams and visions about one of the kids; that something's going on and they're struggling and hurting but I don't know if it's actually real or not or just another bipolar thing  where I imagine things (and like a therapist once said Just because you think  it, doesn't mean it's true)so I'll have to have a talk with them and see and try and sort it out. As always I also pray on it and leave it with God to guide and direct me to do what's right.