Say WHAT?

The other day the 24 YR old made some off-hand comment that I Don't know what it's like to be addicted... and I was thinking, Oh, my God! Does he have some sort of drug addiction? When I asked him about it he just brushed it off saying it was a joke and that I (being on the Spectrum) must have not understood it or something to that effect, that it wasn't serious yet this nagging worry still plagues me, so I don't know if it's a mother's Sixth Sense or just my bipolar making me paranoid. I told him that if he does have a drug addiction he's not in trouble; we just need to know so that we can help him ( I fear he could die of an overdose or aomething!) and then I remembered my mother's $$$$$ that went missing, that someone stole, and that how it's always the one you least expect..... and it's NOT uncommon for someone with a drug addiction to steal in order to feed their habit, and he added that he Doesn't have enough $$$ to buy drugs... so it does make me wonder and I hope not because he's always been one of my favourites and I worry about him; he's always been so isolated, he doesn't have many friends, he spends most of his time online, maybe he's depressed......I hope so much he's OK but I worry so much and he's always been so....mysterious....If anything happened to him it would shatter my heart and soul into a million pieces.

My hubby is also out of focus: in just the same week he lost both his health card AND his driver's license. The 12 YR old found the health card in the driveway and the license was in his office downstairs behind his desk. He always makes fun of me for being forgetful and not rememmbering and calls me old (even though mine is medical, most likely due to my kidney failure which causes brain fog and confusion) and now look at him! HA!