Weedy.

Remember how yesterday my hubby was in Toronto, supposed to be all day, until 11 pm or so.....or so he said anyway, except he came home 5 hours early and there I was, out in the backyard hitting my bong so he walks in on me smoking weed( which he hates; yes, he's one of those judgemental assholes; I used to be at one point too but then I became enlightened) which I try to wait to do once he's gone and I thought he would be for a few more hours and my pain was just unbearable; my neck vertebrae, my lower back and my abdomen( and once I toked up it was gone for the first time all day, blessed, blessed relief) and of course he acts all dramatic and over-the-top, quite the actor, scowling, waving his hands, coughing, mumbling how stinky and gross it is under his breath, anot aloud because he knows I'd let him have it but now he knows what it's like for me too when he shits and doesn't use the deoderant-air spray afterwards! Talk about bad stink!

Speaking of pain, it was interesting the other day too the doctor asked about my neck pain( I didn't think too much of it at the time and I wanted to skim over it, not dwell on it as it may cancel or delay my surgery so I just wanted to get on with it and not say anything that might jeopardize it) and she also asked if I had jaw pain or numb fingers and I don't; well, not exactly; it's my ears(near my jaw) that often pulse and ache and my fingers don't go numb at times but they do tingle and I wondered what she might be hinting at so I Googled it...and f*ck me....it said Chordoma an incredibely rare spinal tumour, affecting one-in-a- million people, only 300 cases diagnosed world-wide a year; where tumours grow mainly on the base of your neck or end of spial cord at the bottom.....shit...I wasn't thinking anything like that; I was thinking it was just my RA or at the worst a pinched nerve or something....holy shit....

The 18 YR old also got a 92% on her first school assignment ( class average was 76%) and she still doesn't like Vancouver though and says she misses everyone (I doubt that incl. me though) and hopes to visit for Christmas but flying in the winter is always "iffy" with the weather( cancellations due to snow) and airfare is expensive so unless we have any airmiles left I don't know how we'd pay for it, and one of my cousins in Europe was in a car accident; some asshole hit her from behind and she was a bit banged up but OK but her car was wrecked and she needed to get a new one which she did yesterday: a BMW, a fine choice I must say, and there was this election quiz( election day is Monday) that came in the mail sponsored by the PPC Party and it was weird when each of us took the quiz just for fun it said all of us would vote for PPC and it reminds me of those Scientology "personality tests" where no matter who takes them the answers are alwasy the same and reveal that you could "benefit" from Scientology. (I saved my hubby once from almost being a Scientologist,too, did I ever tell you about that?) Sounds like a rigged scam to me....