Anam Cara.

The Celtic word Anam cara means soul friend, the person you are connected to almost spiritually. You can read eachother's hearts you are so close, so connected, so bonded. It's like you are 2 halves of the same person, soul mates, best friends, connected on a deep spiritual soulful level. That's what Buddy and I are connected on such a deep level we know eachother's thoughts and can "read" eachother. I've never had such an intense bond or friendship like this before, such selfless unconditional love and when other people look at him all they see is an old Dachshund (he turns 14 in February, which is 98 in Dog Years! He's an old fart!) who is greying, has missing teeth, a chewed up leg ( he has arthritis in his hip and chews at it to relieve the pain) walks slowly, has death breath, a wart on his back, a chunk missing from his tail where the grey cat bit it and a constant scab under his eye.....but to me he is beautiful and the cutest dog ever. I don't see an old dog, I see a special soul. I see my best friend, someone who "gets" me like no one else ever has, someone who loves me with a pure heart and doesn't care what I look like or how broken I am. I see my Anam cara who has been sent to me from God to bless my life.He brings love, joy, purpose and meaning into my life and gives me a reason to get up each day, a will to live, someone to dote on, to need me, to love me, to miss me when I go away, to welcome me when I come back, to fill my days with smiles.

I also had a dream I was with a red-haired Scottish guy but in actual fact if I ever did get with anyone he'd most likely have grey hair at this point, and yesterday my hubby was in Toronto all day for work, for an evaluation( he got a raise!) and party and I had a nice stress-free day with him gone all day and Cadets is having a potluck Christmas party soon but I guess my "special" (pot) brownies would be out of the question although everyone would have a really good time if so, and Thursday is the 12 YR old's follow-up at the eye specialist and I know they must have found something on the ultrasound for the follow-up otherwise they'd just phone and say everything was normal and I have a bad feeling about it and it worries me but I hope it'snothing serious though and just something simple, like a dry eye and he just needs eyedrops or something and not sonething like cancer or glaucoma or cataracts and needs surgery or will go blind or anything like that..

All of the snow is gone too now, it has been for days and it's milder now once again: 8 C! My friend A (in Ottawa) was also at some lawyer's conference and boarded his dog and he said it cost 100$ a day! They also send him photos every day of them doing things with the dog and of it having fun. Shit....you can get some human hotels for around 100$ a night...that's sure one spoiled lucky dog!