Goodbye.

My best friend just died in my arms.

I just somehow knew today was the day and even my hubby said he didn't think he'd be coming back from it this time. He  was floppy all day like a rag doll or a beanbag and he never ate all day( just was really thirsty and I had to prop him up and hold the dish for him to drink) and hardly peed and when I'd stand him up to pee he'd only be able to stand a few seconds before he'd topple over and collapse  and crumple to the ground in a heap and arch his head and body to one side. He has has strokes and seizures before but eventually you reach a point where it's your last one and I had a feeling it was today and even though he WAS 19 and I knew that eventually this day was going to come I'm never "ready" for it and I just lost my mother recently, and then my Soul Friend, and now Buddy,too.

It's just so overwhelming and too much. I keep losing everyone I love.

I tried talking to my hubby but he was too busy playing chess so just like everything else in life I just have to face it alone.

Buddy was my everything ,too, and my only reason for living.

 As long as I had him I had everything but without him I have nothing.

This is the *WORST* day of my LIFE.

I had a feeling today might be The Day so I made extra sure to bring Buddy outside so he could enjoy the sun and the breeze and enjoy being outside and feeling the warmth of the sun one last time and we stayed out for an hour and I'm so glad we did. He also died in my arms with his head on my heart and I reassured him I was right there with him, right to the last heartbeat and I called the 30 YR old over to say goodbye,which he did, and he was there right as his heart stopped and he took his final breath and even comforted me as well. He yelped, and his tongue jkept hanging out more and more and whatever it was hurt him and it broke my heart and made me cry and I was begging and pleading with God to take him quickly so he didn't suffer and he gave a few groans and then he was gone but at least he's not in pain and now on the Other Side he can run like he did when he was young and he'll be waiting for me and we'll find eachother again and be reunited soon.

I just gathered the courage to hear whatever was destined from the Almighty.-Waseem Abbas

Attachment is not a joke. losing your favourite person can mentally destroy you.

I don’t think this trauma ever ends, knowing the person you loved and trusted, betrayed you in the worst way possible.-Leaves

We handle it because we have to.-Lynne Joyce

I used to laugh but it's not funny anymore.-B.Sha

"A single rose can be my garden; a single friend, my world." - Leo Buscaglia

Your worth goes beyond the struggles of today.

You can't just survive; you need to LIVE.

My dog is to be treated like an equal, not “just a dog”. While she may not be a human, she is still a person, a somebody.-Sky Fox

The next morning may hold an unimaginable darkness. What happens when the light fades?-Marce Muniz Gonzalez

If you don’t die, others you care about will.-Harry Keller

I've been cut I've been opened up I've been shattered by the ones I thought I loved.-Three Days Grace

In another life, I hope I don't have to explain how i want to be loved, or have to beg how to be treated right.

I was inside looking outside Oh, the millions of faces, but still I'm alone.-Foreigner

“The light has gone out of my life” – Teddy Roosevelt