My Legs.

I was going to originally post this tomorrow but in case I die during the night I decided to do it now and also so they'll know where to start and what to look for when they do my autopsy to find out why. All day yesterday my right calf really hurt; the kind when you when pull a muscle really bad and it hurts to stand on it and bear weight on it and walk and then when I got up this morning the calves on both legs hurt, the same way and then by early afternoon it hurt under my ribs on the right side and then later in the afternoon it hurt the same on the left side under my ribs too as well as my left arm, and not one "replacing" the other,either, but all together at the same time, all added up one on top of the other, like adding to a collection, so now I'm really stumped: If it was a stroke, for instance, it would only be on one side, not  both and it's only one arm but it's both backs of lower legs and under ribs on both sides. Then I thought with the legs it could be a blood clot but agaion that's usually unilateral, not bilateral, and even in the odd unlikihood it WAS in both legs and it travelled to BOTH lungs and casued a pulmonary embolism ( basically: a blot clot in the lung) that still doesn't explain the arm, and my ribs hurt like they did when I had pneumonia (when I was 5 months prego with the 20 YR old!) esp. so when I lie on them or cough or fart(not so bad when I lie still but hurts more when I move or walk or sit) but that wouldn't explain the legs or arm....Buddy's also acting really strange today too; hiding under the couch and whining, like he does when he's scared or can sense something foreboding( like a storm coming) so maybe he can tell something's wrong, or maybe he even knows I'm dying? Maybe today or tomorrow really is The Day and he knows it?

So..... what else could possibly be causing it I wonder? Could it be the same parasite (I assume to be roundworm) that caused the scaring in my right retina; perhaps it also migrated elsewhere and is wrecking havoc all over now, or is it maybe some kind of neuromuscular disease(like MS?) causing my muscles to waste away, an infection of some sort, or Fibromyalgia, perhaps, a circulation problem, a virus, dehydration, organ failure, or maybe an abdomenal aortic aneurysm, as I did have a revelation last YR that's that would be how I was going to die and that could be the reason for my abdomenal pain and maybe even back pain....but how does that connect to the tender sore ribs, calves and arm? I also feel really dizzy and light-headed as well as short of breath( even more so than my usual) and at times I feel my breathing more "laboured", louder, and noisy, but I wonder what it is? My mother kept telling me to go to the ER but I'm not waiting there sitting in the waiting room for 6 HRS to be seen(I figure it will resolve itself one way or the other; either it clears up eventually on it's own or I die), plus I'm just sooooo tired all I want to do is go and sleep. I couldn't even go to church today but I also know that God is still with me wherever I am, and that God is everywhere.

I also had one more last toke(and the warm smoke helps soothe my sore throat from my cold,too) just in case I do die tonight(and also to help relieve the pain) and I did it when the 12 YR old, 16 YR old and my hubby were all out at the same time and when they got back the 12 YR old says to me, It smells like weed out there!" and I said, Yeah, someone was outside smoking weed." 

It was me.

I also had this for dinner:

Herbed chicken with asparagus. With a delish chocolate cake with decadent frosting only I ate the dessert first because I have this theory: what if you die suddenly before you get to finish your meal and never get to your dessert? Then you miss out! Always eat the dessert first.

Because you never know. Even though sometimes you do.