Fern-Side Down.

Oh, crisis! My vape battery( seen here) wasn't working and at first I thought it just needed to be re-charged so I charged it overnight but when I screwed it into my vape cartridge and took a good big puff nothing happened so I inhaled deeply again but still nothing. OK, then I panicked. So not only could I not get my dose of medical cannabis but I also have a brand-new cartridge I can't use now! What the f*ck? I've only had it for 1-2 months and surely it lasts longer than that so I went online to where I got it from and had a live online chat to try and figure out the issue and the representative first checked to see if it was charged and I said that was the first thing I did and then she said Make sure you charge it fern-side down. Now there's 2 ends of the battery; a smooth end( you can see here is silver with a white stripe on it and at the very end where you can't see is a little fern emblem( their logo?) on the very end and at the other end it sticks out sort of like a Lego piece, the part that screws into the cartridge.

Ooops.

Turns out I had been charging it upside-down.

I guess originally it had already came pre-charged so it was OK and it lasted 2-3 weeks before I had to re-charge it and I put it in to charge with the battery-looking part down, NOT the smooth part, NOT "fern-side down, as I never would have thought that the smooth part would be the part that you connect to charge but rather the battery-looking part, so this time I placed it into the charger fern-side down and left it there for several hours and then I took it out with trepidation, screwed the cartridge in and with bated breath inhaled an almighty puff and to my delight I saw the end light up and I got the biggest puff of smoke ever.....it worked! Yay! It had charged successfully afterall! It turns out I'm just a dumb stoner, ha,ha!(I was dumb even before but my hubby likes to blame it on the weed though and says it fries my brain) She's also suggested if it didn't work in my charger being plugged into my computer to use a "Cube" charger that comes with any cell phone and plug it into the wall which, of course, I have no idea what that is(and I 'm probably the only person on Earth that doesn't even have  a cell phone) and the cord it came with only plugs into my computer CPU but I figure my hubby would know and have one( and it turns out of course he does) and if he'd ask me what I needed it for I'll just say something like a spy gadget or something and he won't know what it is, because if I tell him what it's really for he won't help me if he knows it's something for my weed and will likely even do something to sabotage it because he's a judgemental asshole like that and is always belittling me and hassling me because I smoke weed even though I do have a medical prescription for it.

I also got an answer yesterday to that prayer where I have been pondering a major life decision and change for months and I asked God to send me a sign if it's His plan for me by having a butterfly land on me if the answer was yes as a confirmation and yesterday not only one but two little yellow butterflies at the same time, together kept flying around me as I was sitting out in the backyard, circling all in and around my legs and arms, landing on my legs and they lingered for 5-10 minutes each time before flying off and not only that but they returned and did the same thing 3 more times so if that's not a positive sign I don't know what is so now I pray and ask God to give me the strength for whatever lies ahead, and I was wondering as well if when we get glimpses remembering what we think might be past lives may also be parallel lives in another dimension (or a combination of the two?) and my hubby's on an antibiotic he says is for an ear infection too but the thought occurred to me what if it's really actually for an STD, esp. since he hasn't "touched" me in 13 YRS so he must  be getting it somewhere, a mistress or prostitutes perhaps, who knows?

It smells like cat piss in the kitchen as well and I wonder if Buddy's enemy the Grey Cat (the one that bit a chunk out of his tail a couple of summers ago when he startled it under a bush) somehow snuck into the house when a door was left open like it has before and then when I woke up at 3 am to go pee as I was sitting on the toilet in the dark I saw a cat-sized shadow come right up to me  and I freaked, thinking it was the cat, esp. since they creep around at night and as far as I knew Buddy was still asleep in my bed and I'd closed the door(and you'd be surprised in the dark of night how the silhouette of a Miniature Dachshund looks remarkably like a cat!)....and I almost kicked it out of the way but for some reason something stopped me, instinct perhaps, and I called out Buddy's name and the shadow rubbed right up next to me and licked my hand and I reached out to pet it and I knew right away it was Buddy! I must have left the door open a crack and he woke up and wandered out looking for me! I'm soooo glad I didn't kick him thinking he was the cat! I never would have been able to forgive myself. He's my soul-mate dog! The 17 YR old even said she thought if it were legal that I'd marry him,too and I wouldn't; he's a dog; he's my best friend and there's different kinds of love. Love is where you find it.