Our blackberries(seen here) are starting to ripen and so are our mulberries( seen in the photo below but due to the shading of the tree it's harder to see) a true sign of summer, and so far 3 people have already asked us why we haven't opened our pool yet and it's embarrassing to tell them that my hubby says it's not worth the expense opening it just for me because I'm the only one that uses it anymore and then they just kind of look sad. It's the truth though; that is the reason and it really pisses me off esp. since all last week and this week it's in the 30 C plus range every day with it feeling like 40 C plus and it would be perfect swim weather and great to cool off if only I had a pool but apparantly I'm not "worth" the expense. If it was anyone else that would be a totally different story, but not just for me. Swimming is my entire summer as well as the best way to keep cool and now I don't even have that anymore. My family somehow manages to take away everything I enjoy. The furnace guy also came yesterday to do his yearly inspection/cleaning of the furnace and A/C and this must be the first time nothing needed to be fixed or replaced and my mother re-newed her "insurance" policy where for 400$ a year it's all covered; all calls, repairs, parts, etc. which we've needed in the past; before we had to have a part replaced that would have cost 800$ otherwise, another time 2000$ and one time a whole new furnace!
My hubby's nephew also stopped by yesterday to return some car tool thing to him that he'd borrowed and I was sitting out on the front porch and I didn't recognize him esp. out of context as I didn't expect to see him come around in the middle of the day and I supposed he was the repairman(ha!) and then he referred to my hubby as Uncle M and then I knew and it sounded funny too hearing my hubby referred to as Uncle and this nephew has said before that his Uncle M is the smartest person he knows and he really admires and looks up to him and I thought to myself,Yeah....but if only he knew how he treats his wife; what kind of person he reallyis in private at home he wouldn't admire him so much....
I was also talking to the 21 YR old and we were saying how you never forget your first love and I told her my first love was a Lebanese guy named Norman when I was 15 and he was 17 but he never liked me back even though I was crazy about him( none of the guys I've ever liked have ever liked me back, and my True Love, my Great Love was a few years later and he was the one I'd hoped I would marry but he only liked me as a friend and ended up to be gay) and she said, Thank you, Norman for NOT liking me otherwise her and her siblings never would have existed and it's funny but true and I never even thought of it that way but she's right. Even all these decades later I still think about Norman the odd time though and wonder what he's doing now and how his life turned out. My rib-pain is still constant, non-stop and gets worse when I strain such as to take a shit, cough or breathe in, esp. a deep breath so I wonder if it's maybe my lung, or still could be my kidney on the right side or my liver? I know it's NOT my gallbladder though as I had that taken out 8 YRS ago although it could be my appendix perhaps? I doubt it's just a pulled muscle or something though as I had the heating pad on it all day yesterday and took Tylenol and it never made any difference.
The province is also mandating wearing masks everywhere indoors from Friday now too with the so-called "pandemic" too even though we no longer even have any cases at all, not a single one, in the entire county anymore; they've all been resolved, so WTF? I'm not obeying it though; I'm NOT a mindless sheeple, blindly following the herd. It's just stupid and I won't comply, conform, be subjected, etc. It's like the Nazis forcing Jews to wear the Star Of David, or symboliccaly "silencing" our voices, covering up our mouths with a mask, and it's all just gotten so out of hand, so Fascist, like a Police State and I'll have no part of it. It may very well also be the Mark Of The Beast(either the masks or the forthcoming CoronaVirus vaccinations they'll likely be imposing on us soon) mentioned in the Book Of Revelation and either way I want no part in it. F*ck it and F*ck The Man.
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